Page 01
Author's Note:
This is a bit of a departure for me and more of an experiment, writing a story Bram Stoker style.
As always, all persons involved are over 18.
I hope you all enjoy!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 4, 2014
I saw him!
I can't believe I actually saw him!
After all this time searching. Facebook, Google, Twitter; literally anything I could think of to find him, and it was completely by random.
To think I'd find him 1500 miles from where we first met, that I could just see him at a local restaurant, surrounded by friends and laughing it up. It's been five years since I'd seen him. Five years since I'd made the dumbest mistake of my life and four and a half years since I realized I'd made the biggest mistake of my life.
Oh, shit, you have no idea what I'm talking about! Let me start from the beginning.
My name is Cindy and as I write this, I'm 26 years old. I grew up very middle class in the United States and had what I consider to be a fairly stereotypical childhood. I was always pretty, being told so by my parents, relatives, and just random people as I went about my life.
As I entered High School, I was definitely an Alpha chick. Girls wanted to be me, and guys wanted to be seen with me. By the time I was a junior, I ruled the school.
Then I met Trevor. Trevor had just moved to the neighborhood and never saw me in that light. We were partnered up in a science class and he just treated me as regular girl. For three months, I hated him, him not giving me the respect and adoration I deserved!
Then something changed. What was initially an annoyance and arrogance as I saw it, turned out to be really hot. I mean insanely hot! I wanted him and wanted him to love me, every inch of me. I made it my goal to corral him and eventually, he fell to my charms.
He became my first real boyfriend, not just a dalliance I had with some random hot guy who was the flavor of the week. I noticed that with Trevor, I didn't have to put on a mask, I didn't have to pretend to be some hard bitch. I could be myself. He told me so many times that if I'd shown him that side of me from the beginning, we'd have gotten together a lot sooner.
We dated for the rest of High School and well into college, he eventually being the one I lost my virginity to in a romantic evening. Even though we went to different colleges, we were only an hour and a half by car away from each other, so we still saw each other all the time.
Then, right before my junior year was about to start, I made the mistake that'd haunt me for years afterwards. I somehow convinced myself that there had to be more out there for me then just Trevor. He was the only guy I'd been with and I wanted to play, to experiment, mix it up.
I told him that I wanted to take a break from our relationship so that we could really experience all that college had to offer. I could tell he was hurt, but he didn't fight it, knowing that there was no changing my mind. He kissed me on the cheek and left.
Until today, that was the last time I saw him. I did what I wanted. The last two years of college, I hooked up with plenty of different guys, even a few girls too. It was fun and exciting. But I also quickly realized that none of them matched up to the passion and pleasure I'd gotten from Trevor. By the time I graduated, I was done with playing around and wanted something stable. Something reliable.
I wanted Trevor back.
The problem was, I couldn't find him! He stopped using social media in college and none of our old friends could help, either they didn't know, or didn't want to help since I'd "broken his heart". His parents moved away by then and my family had no idea where they went.
So, I just settled into my life, alone. I got a job far away, hoping that a new city would ease my heartache. I dated, I worked, I tried to forget about my long, lost love, but it didn't help. I saw a shrink who told me to move on and find someone like him, but for me, no one matched up.
I was stuck.
Until today...
I was having dinner with some girlfriends, all of them either complaining about their boyfriends or wondering why they couldn't find good guys or girls to date. I was half listening as I took a sip of wine when I heard the laughter from another table.
I thought it was just an annoying group of drunk dudes at first, but then I saw him.
At first, I thought it was a look alike or a twin, but soon it was undeniable. It was him.
My Trevor!
My heart was beating so fast that I thought it would pound out of my chest. I couldn't stop staring, hoping he'd catch a glance of me. Once I realized he was too engrossed in his friends, I figured a bathroom meet would work best. I encouraged my friends to keep drinking as I saw him make his way toward the restrooms. I excused myself quickly, telling them I had to make a call so they wouldn't follow me.
I waited/stalked outside the bathroom waiting for the crucial moment he'd come out. I took a deep breath as I heard the door open and I bumped into him.
Trevor: Oh, shit! I'm sorry.
Me: No, it's fine...Trevor?
Obviously, I was feigning my vague recollection.
Trevor: Cindy...
He was obviously in an obvious state of shock.
Me: Oh, my God, how are you?
Trevor: I...I'm good, thanks. Hope you are.
Me: I am. Are you just visiting or...?
Trevor: No, I live here now.
He seemed a bit uncomfortable, but I thought it was super sweet.
Me: Wow, me too!
I was throwing my hands into the air in joy in my head, hearing that.
Trevor: Oh.
Me: We should catch up some time.
I was really trying not to sound thirsty, but still letting him know I wanted to see him.
Trevor: Uh...I guess...
Me: Cool! Maybe we can grab a coffee tomorrow?
Trevor: Uh sure...
Me: Great! How about the coffee shop on Marshall, five o'clock?
Trevor: Uhm, yeah, I think that'd work.
Me: Perfect, I'll see you there!
I was trying to dampen my enthusiasm, but not sure how well I was doing. I then proceeded to the bathroom to keep my rouse up, hoping that he saw me wiggle my ass as I left.
I immediately got in the stall and tried to slow my breath, completely overwhelmed that I'd found him! My heart was racing, and my panties were soaked. If I didn't have my friends waiting for me, I would've flicked my bean until it was raw!
I took another minute, gathered myself, splashed some water on my face and returned back to my table. I saw that Trevor kept looking over at my table and smiling. I tried not to look to eager or too excited to see him, but it wasn't working terribly well. I could feel my face getting redder and redder.
Thankfully, we left first, so I was able just to give him a friendly wave as we left that he returned.
As soon as I got into my apartment, I was jumping with joy! Without a second thought, I stripped off all my clothes, got on my bed, got out the dildo that I thought was closest to Trevor's size, and went to town! I'll probably get a noise complaint in the morning from the neighbors, but I don't care. I was moaning Trevor's name as I held in my mind all the tender moments we'd had. All the times we made love and he'd held me and kissed me.
After a few minutes, I had an explosive orgasm, drenching my toy in cream. I'm going to bed now, wondering how I'll be able to sleep thinking about tomorrow...
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014
I had so many hopes for today...
I woke up thinking today was gonna be the culmination of all my prayers and my true chance of redemption. I would finally have Trevor back and would keep him forever this time.
I did still go to work and everything, but mostly I was thinking how I'd handle Trevor. Would I just try the light catching up first? Would I go straight into what an idiot I was?
I knew what my objective was. I wasn't gonna get him to take me back over one coffee, I knew Trevor too well for that. But if I could open the door, or convince him to get dinner with me, I knew I could show him that he could trust me again, that I'd never leave him again.
I got home from work early so I could look as good as possible. My hair was perfection, my outfit cute but not too sexy. I did my makeup and looked at the results in the mirror.
I was good looking as fuck!
I got to the coffee shop early, ensuring that I had a perfect table just for the two of us. I looked over the crowd walking by, each one hoping is my Trevor. I lost myself in a daze, dreaming about what our life together would be now. Long walks, children, pure love. I got lost in thought as I felt someone tap my shoulder.
Trevor: Cin?
Me: Oh, hi!
I immediately got up to give him a hug.
Me: Want me to get you a coffee?
Trevor: No, my girlfriend is getting it.
WHAT????!!!!!!!
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 5, 2014
I have to admit it was quite a shock seeing Cindy last night, having done my best over time to put all thoughts of her behind me. I was amazed. I don't remember most of the rest of the evening once I got home.
To remind anyone who might read this, Cindy was my high school sweetheart that I continued to date into college. Right before our junior year, she hits me with a bomb in that she wanted to see other people, to experiment.
My heart was gutted. I just kissed her on the cheek and walked away.
I spent the next few months after that in a daze, wondering what I could've done to get her to stay. Should I have agreed to an open relationship or something? Or was she just done with me?
After a few weeks, my sadness turned to anger. Fuck her! If she wants to whore around her school, let her. Then I realized she could've already been doing that, this just being the final straw. I went to the health center to get myself tested, thankful that all the tests came back negative.
I got through my last two years of college as quickly as I could, even taking summer classes so I wouldn't have to go home and see her. I hated her! I thought every horrible thought I could have toward a person on her.
Once I graduated, I moved far away from hometown, just so I'd never have to see her again, or even think about her. My friends and family didn't know why it broke me up so much, but I did. I'd seen Cindy and me going all the way. Alter, kids, old age; the whole thing. Probably unrealistic as I look back on it, but that's how I felt.
Then I met Veronica.
I hadn't expected it, like all great things that happen in life, but I was really glad it did. I was at a dinner party a work colleague held at her house and I was seated next to her friend, something I was later to learn was no coincidence.
To say simply that she's stunning doesn't do her justice. 5'5" with beautiful, darker toned skin befitting a Latin woman, dark eyes and hair, not to mention a body that would turn any head in the room.
For the first five minutes of the dinner, I was so intimidated by her I couldn't even get words together to properly converse. But she was just so friendly, warm, and inviting; that we were talking like old friends in no time.
It still took me about a month to ask her out on a date, and only after the aforementioned work colleague assured me that she would say yes. In the year and half since then, we've been inseparable. We've met each other's families and gotten along well all across the board. We were talking of moving in together into a new place. Life was good.
I was truly happy.
Then I saw Cindy.
To say that I was shocked when she bumped into me in the restaurant was an understatement. Even though it was just yesterday, I couldn't remember a single thing I'd said to her, other than agreeing to coffee.
Why did I do it?!
That was the only question I kept asking myself over and over again after I went home. Why did I agree to see or deal with the woman who'd torn my heart out?! Did I want to tell her off? Did I just want to put her behind me, like a ghost stalking the living through life? I didn't know.
As I do with most things, I called Veronica who immediately came over. She knew, of course, all about Cindy and the circumstances of our breakup. She suggested that she probably just wanted to be friends, get over the past and move on. It soothed me hearing those comforting words. Then she went the extra step further, for which I was extremely grateful.
She offered to come with me.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
A GIRLFRIEND???!!!
He has a fucking girlfriend?!
And he brought her?!
Of all the scenarios that went through my head, the idea that he was already taken, never even entered my mind.
I thought maybe he'd tell me to fuck off, that he'd need time, or that we'd need to get to know each other all over again, but a girlfriend?!
When he told me, I tried to keep my poker face as placid as possible.
Me: Oh.
I was trying to keep my surprise to an absolute minimum
Trevor: Yeah, she heard we ran into each other and wanted to meet you.
He sat down and I saw the woman who was bring the coffee over. I had instant hate in my heart. I hated that she was pretty. I hated that she was dressed to show off every curve she had (D cups easily with an ass to match...FUCK) and a smile on her face. I quickly looked down to her left hand and didn't see a ring on there.
Thank GOD for that!
Trevor: Cindy, this is Vanessa.
I was seething, but also knew enough to know that I'd lose Trevor forever if I turned back into the brat he'd known when we first met.
Me: Hi! So, nice to meet you
I was trying to be friendly. At least appear to be...
I honestly don't remember most of the conversation the three of us had. I know we talked about Trevor and I's high school days, how him and Vanessa met, and what I'd been up to. The rest is all a blur.
The whole time, I saw Veronica's hands intertwined with his, the loving looks they gave each other. How my ears weren't burning red, I have no idea. The very thought that this bitch was gonna take my long, lost love from me set me on fire, internally.
On the surface, everything was light and pleasant. We caught up and I learned more about the pair. I asked about Vanessa and her likes and dislikes as a plan started to form.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 5, 2014
I could see right through the bitch!
From the moment Trevor told be about running into Cindy, I knew one thing for certain. This cunt was gonna make a move on him.
What Trevor didn't know was that this wasn't the first time I'd had to deal with this. My boyfriend is so warm, kind, and caring; not to mention good looking, and he attracted women to him, completely unknowingly. I've had to stare down many a thirsty ho who wanted to take my horse out for a ride.
Of course, he never knew of this, Trevor was too nice and trusting for that. I knew he would never purposefully lead a girl on or do anything that could be thought of as cheating. He's far too loyal for that.
But Cindy was a new wrinkle. We're getting ready to move in together. He's probably getting ready to put a ring on it, and this woman just strolls back in from the depths of Hell?!
I knew all about their past and how her stupid ass dumped him, all so she could whore around unabated. Now that she'd had her brains fucked out by God knows how many guys, she was ready for him again?!
FUCK THAT SHIT!!
There was no way I wasn't gonna go with him, of course couching it in the framework of being supportive. While that was partially true, I also wanted her to know what she was up against. I wore a nice dress that flattered my boobs and ass well, but not overly showy.
When we got there, I ordered the coffees for us while he went to say hi, mostly so I could get a look at her and plan my defense. I had to admit she was cute, blond hair, perky looking tits that looked to be only slightly smaller than mine, and a tiny, pert ass.
I could tell she was dressed to impress too, wanting to put her best foot forward for him. I knew the play to make.
Be nice. Be friendly. Keep my hands on my man, and not give an inch.
I screwed on my best smile as I approached their table, Cindy still clearly a little off-balance that I was there.
GOOD!
I asked questions about their growing up and their times together, trying to be light and free. She was very polite and accommodating toward me, but it was all a show, I'm sure. She didn't want to seem like a dismissive, petty bitch, at least not around Trevor.
Trevor then invited her over for a dinner party we were having next week.
I could've killed him!!
My hope was that they'd have a nice chat, catch up, she'd realize she lost him, and would move on. But Trevor's heart was too good for that.
Damn it...
Now she'd meet our friends AND know where he lived. I couldn't get mad at him for it though. He probably doesn't see what she's after.
But then again...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
At first, I thought Cindy might be a little put off with me bringing Vanessa, but to my surprise, the two got along fairly well. It's always worrying when two women you've slept with meet up. Mostly, I was worried that they'd be dogging me most of the time, all my foibles and what not.
I had to admit that as much pain and anguish she caused me, it was actually nice to catch up with her. It felt like I was finally going to be able to put the past firmly behind me, so I could move forward with Vanessa. By the end of the coffee, I thought the two were actually well on their way to being firm friends, which kinda delighted me.
I even invited Cindy to our dinner party, thinking this could be a real turning point for me. Finally let the past die and move on as adults. I'm gonna go to be finally able to put the past to rest!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
He gave me an in!!!
Even with his admittedly pretty girlfriend sitting right there, he still wants to make a new connection with me! If I wasn't so classy, I'd have rubbed it all in her face, but I feel that'll come later when I take back what is rightfully mine!
Now I can show him that I'm the best way forward for him, not that skanky bitch he's with. We grew up together, we know each other, we fell for each other first and heavily. Now, I just need to rekindle those embers and show him that his true future lies right back where it started, with me.
I can't wait for next week...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 14, 2014
Everything was set up perfectly in Trevor's apartment. The lamb was cooking, and all the sides look amazing. I'm looking over my handiwork, thankful for the fact that my grandmother taught me to cook. The charcuterie board looks inviting and tasty. All the wine and drinks are ready. His place looks spotless.
Once I was sure everything was GTG, I went to the bathroom and gave myself a once over, knowing that blond cunt was coming.
Since last week, I'd decided to turn disadvantage into advantage. If he insisted on her coming here, I'm gonna show her all of what he has now. I'm wearing a form fitting dress that shows every wonderful curve I have. My makeup is perfect, and I had my hair and nails done yesterday.
I looked myself up and down and smiled at my reflection.
Me: Damn, I'm hot...
As I mumbled to myself, I almost felt sorry for the dumb slut who let Trevor get away.
Trevor: Babe, you almost ready? Gracie and Annie are on their way up.
Me: Be right there...
I couldn't help but smile as I went out to go greet our friends.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 14, 2014
This had to go perfect.
I fretted all week about striking the right look. I needed to look hot, but not thirsty. Made up, but not overdone. I had to remember that this was a dinner party among "friends".
Of course, it was only gonna be part of my plan.
Sure, I'd play the nice, kind ex-girlfriend if either Trevor or Vanessa brought it up, say that we're trying to rekindle our friendship. I'd be nice and complementary to all their friends, winning them over with my nature and looks.
I'd be super complementary to Vanessa, raving over the food and the apartment and how lovely everything was. I'd make sure that I laughed at the jokes, ask questions that were thoughtful, and not hog Trevor's time.
That was crucial! I had to use this opportunity to get as much dirt on this girl and every flaw in their relationship as possible.
Was she too critical? Did she berate him? Did she make fun of him to their friends? Anything I could use to start the process of breaking them apart.
I'd be nice. Kind. Sympathetic. I just needed to know where to focus. Maybe I'd need to pry off the other way and tell Trevor things about her, too needy or emotional; something.
I'm timing this to arrive about ten minutes after it starts, hoping that it looks like I'm just casually late and not counting down the minutes.
Crossing the fingers time...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 14, 2014
I had to admit I was nervous at first having Cindy here. Sure, it was my idea as a way of putting water under the bridge, but now she was gonna be here in my house with my girlfriend and all our friends.
Hopefully, I could finally put the anger behind me and be adult. After all, if Cindy hadn't dumped me, I wouldn't have found Vanessa. She's become the light of my world and I'm so grateful for her.
I'll dress nice and get comfortable, leaning on Vanessa and my friends if I have to.
Deep breaths...
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 14, 2014-continued
It went perfectly!!!!
I arrived just when I wanted to, with some of their friends already there. Trevor smiled and introduced me around to his friends. He carefully introduced me as someone he went to high school with, choosing not to talk about us dating, which I appreciated. I saw Vanessa and gave her a friendly hug, trying to make sure she didn't think I was up to anything.
I had to admit the food was good, Vanessa was a good cook and I said so, trying to keep her guard down. I made sure to sit opposite Trevor, not flirting, but merely talking about our high school days and fun times had. Their friends seemed interested in Trevor's early life, though Vanessa didn't. Whether she didn't care about his early life, or just didn't like me bringing up our past time together, I really don't know.
Don't care either.
Their friends all seemed charmed, exchanging phone numbers and social media access with many of them. I left before everyone was gone, also calculated to make it look like I wasn't overstaying my welcome.
I'd already secured an invite to a night out with them on Friday, so I knew my plan was working.
Trevor was mine! And soon, they would all see why...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 14, 2014-continued
That CUNT!!
Trying to play me off our friends the whole fucking night!
Oh maybe they didn't see it, and I know Trevor didn't, but I did. I can see through her fucking bullshit clearly. While before, maybe there was a chance my thoughts on her were too harsh, now there was no doubt.
The cheating slut wanted him back!
I wasn't giving an inch. I knew she was trying to ingratiate herself into our lives, trying to show she'd changed and wasn't the same shallow slutbag she'd been. While they and Trevor may have bought it, I sure as fuck didn't!
Once all our friends left, I took Trevor into the bedroom and gave him a fucking he'll remember for a while. He's sleeping now, after having cum in all three of my holes tonight. I'm looking at him right now and smiling, knowing that whore wasn't gonna get her trampy hands on him ever again!
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 15, 2014
Boy, was I wrong!
Last night couldn't have gone better! I almost feel like an idiot for thinking that it would be awkward with Cindy there. She got along so well with everyone, my friends all really liked her and Vanessa and her seemed to hit it off well. It was so light and breezy!
I, of course, avoided telling any of our friends that Cindy was my ex, not wanting to answer any awkward questions. Vanessa seemed comfortable with that, not wanting the issue to cloud the party. Everyone had a great time, my friends even invited Cindy out with us on Friday.
After everyone left, Vanessa was feeling so good, she took my back to the bedroom for a love-making session like I'd never experienced before! I don't know how I did it, but I managed to nut in every one of her amazing holes, Vanessa being the one to introduce me to anal sex.
As I write this, I can see my lovely girlfriend sleeping sweetly in my bed, seemingly satisfied, after I woke up early.
I can't imagine feeling better than this!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 21, 2014
Step two of my plan now needed to come out.
Throughout the week, I'd been texting and talking with Trevor's friends, ingratiating myself into the "circle". I was just an old friend in their eyes. Someone who Trevor knew from back in the "old" days and in no way a threat.
I asked about families, relationships, jobs; whatever I could think of to keep them engaged and keep me in the loop on their plans. Of course, I also texted Trevor, letting him know how much I enjoyed the party and how nice it was that we can be social with each other.
I didn't want to push him too far, knowing that he probably still had a lot of hurt buried up in him from our breakup. But I did want him to start looking at me as a friend, something I could later turn to my advantage when the cracks in him and Vanessa's relationship surfaced.
The only disappointment I'd had from last week is that I didn't really find any flaws. Vanessa, on the surface at least, seemed to be supportive and loving toward Trevor. If that means I have to play the long game to get him back, fine...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 21, 2014
I can't fucking believe this!!!!!
My friends, our friends are falling for the whore's words!! She's clearly trying to insert herself firmly in our lives, trying to get back the wonderful man she spurned years ago. Trevor is almost non-chalant about it, saying we're just being friendly and showing that we're past all the petty high school bullshit.
REALLY?!
This bitch is trying to infringe on me, my friends, and my man; you know, the one she dumped to fuck her way to the top! I never let Trevor see my anger, knowing that he wasn't contemplating leaving me, much less cheat on me. You get to know someone in a year and a half, and he isn't the cheating type.
Secure in that, I've decided on a new plan...
Suffer...
I will make the bitch suffer. I will show her how wonderful our life is and how much happier he is now. I will show him that his eyes are squarely on me, and she has no fucking chance of getting him back.
I also went the extra step to get some of my friends in on the plot. Not about destroying Cindy, but on the other part of my plan. Trying to get Trevor to put a ring on me. Not pressure so much, but more that I would love the idea of getting married to him, and virtually assuring him I would say yes.
My mind started reeling, wondering if he'd do it with her there, really setting her off. Hell, maybe I'll even invite her to the wedding, so she can see me formally and finally claim Trevor as mine.
Oh, the possibilities...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 21, 2014
Getting ready to head out with Vanessa, our friends and whatnot. Even Cindy's coming, which actually doesn't put my stomach in knots. I think she earnestly wants to patch up what happened back then.
But therein lies the issue. I never actually told her what she did to me and how it made me feel. I know now that if Cindy is gonna be in our lives, I have to have it out with her. If I can get her alone, I can tell her how I felt and how it hurt me.
I feel like if I do that, we can finally move on and be friends, her seeming to get along with Vanessa and everyone else. Hopefully, I won't need too much liquid courage to pull this off.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
Well, it finally happened...
While were out at one of the local bars with all of Trevor and Vanessa's friends, Trevor got me alone.
In the back of my mind, I was hoping he was gonna tell me how much he missed me and how glad he was to see me again. I wasn't naïve enough to think he was gonna redeclare his love for me yet, but at least start us on the path.
Instead, he brings up the breakup and the past...
In hindsight, I should've seen this coming. I mean, hell, I should've been the one to bring it up so I could apologize to him, but I didn't think of it.
STUPID!!!
To set the scene, Trevor asked me to come out to the balcony of the bar with him, that he wanted to talk to me about something. He kissed Vanessa on the cheek as she saw us go out together. I admit, I tried to wiggle my ass a bit in her direction, just to piss her off.
We got outside and I was all smiles, until I heard him take a deep breath. Even as long as it's been since we dated, I still knew enough to know that this was gonna be serious.
I'm gonna write down the conversation to the best of my memory, hoping the booze didn't make that too hard to do.
Trevor: I wanted to talk to you about something.
Me: Of course, is everything ok?
Ok, fine, I'll admit I was hoping about to hear some serious tea about any issues he may be having with Vanessa, but anyway...
Trevor: Well, it's about us. I have to admit seeing you again wasn't something I expected.
Me: I mean, I always hoped we would, but then you moved and...
I think I shrugged a bit as I said that, trying not to make it look like I'd been hunting him down.
Trevor: Well I did all that honestly to avoid you.
That hit me like a sledgehammer. I knew he wasn't happy with me when we broke up, but he cut off every avenue just to avoid me???!!! I think I mumbled something, but I couldn't tell you what, and he probably couldn't either.
Trevor: You destroyed me back then. I mean you ripped my heart out and after it happened, I was a mess for a long time.
I'm pretty sure this was the point I could start feeling tears on my face. It never occurred to me that he took that hard. I always figured he'd just do what I did and experiment.
Apparently not...
Me: Trevor, I never meant to hurt you like that...
Trevor: But you did.
He said that almost too calmly.
Trevor: I hated you for so long. I hated thinking about you. I hated missing you. I hated loving you. I just hated you.
I must've been a quivering mess at this point. It was every worse fear I'd ever had about seeing him again in a heap.
Me: I'm so sorry! I was so stupid! (This was said through some heavy tears) So fucking stupid!
At the very least this got him looking a bit sad, so I figured I'd just lay it out there. Well...mostly out there.
Me: I thought I was doing us a favor.
Trevor: A favor?
I threw my hands up at that point, silently asking him to let me talk.
Me: I thought if we both were able to get new experience and meet new people, we'd find our way back to each other.
Trevor: You really thought that was gonna happen after you dumped me?
Me: I never wanted it to come off like a dumping. I was more just trying to let us spread our wings a bit. I never thought that would be the last time I'd see you for years.
Trevor: Cindy, I didn't want other people. I wanted you!
Me: I know and I'm so sorry. As soon as it dawned on me what I'd done, I never forgave myself for it. That's why I was so happy to finally see you.
Trevor: Really?
Me: Trevor (I took his hands at this point) I am so sorry I caused you pain. Once I realized how bad I fucked up, I was a complete mess for a long time. No one else measured up. I felt so alone. I was miserable.
I noticed he grinned a bit when I said I was miserable and asked him if that made him feel better.
Trevor: Actually, it does a bit. (He was chuckling a bit now.)
Me: Trevor, I was young and dumb and I'm so sorry. Truly...
Trevor: Well...
He took a very long pause after that. Ok, probably only ten seconds or something like that, but it felt like eternity.
Trevor: Well, I guess if you hadn't, I wouldn't have met Vanessa. So, I guess in a way, I should thank you.
This hit me hard. Yeah, he was forgiving me it seemed, but he was forgiving me for giving him the chance to be with Vanessa.
That's when Vanessa appeared out of nowhere.
Cuntsleave: What are you guys talking about?
Trevor: How lucky I am to have you.
He smiled as she kissed his cheek and tell him that we were moving on to another bar. Vanessa waived us inside to pay so we could move on.
We went to some other places that night and I tried to seem upbeat, but I was a wreck inside. While Trevor certainly was friendlier to me after that exchange we'd had, he'd made it clear that he loved Vanessa.
I was stuck! If I broke them up, he might blame me again for ruining his life and if I did nothing, he'd marry the bitch sooner or later. I kept my head about me for the moment. I'd need to stay close. Him and Vanessa.
In fact, when we went to the next bar, I tried to be as nice and charming to Vanessa as possible. If I can get closer to her, maybe I can find something to turn Trevor against her.
I just had to hope for an opening.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
When Trevor said he was gonna finally confront his stupid, whorish ex-girlfriend, I jumped up and down in glee (in my head at least). She was finally gonna get what was coming to her and see that she had no chance of getting Trevor back.
The door would be shut once and for all and hopefully, we'd be able to get on with our lives, free of this bitchy interloper.
After they had their talk, I noticed that Cindy was trying to be close to be, nice to me. Like I was really gonna buy that. Can't this bitch realize she's lost? She had the perfect man, and she blew it (and probably half her college).
Trevor at least seemed to be in better spirits. I think part of him is glad that he finally was able to confront her and put this behind her. I even told him so, that now he's put the past behind him and now he can move on to the future.
Our future...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
Well, I did it.
I finally confronted Cindy and told her. I had to admit it felt good to finally tell her how much she hurt and destroyed me.
But even as I did, I could see the sadness in her. Like she knew she'd messed up. She even said that she just wanted both of us to play the field for a while and thought we'd find each other again.
Now, I'm not sure I really believe that, but she seemed genuinely sorry for the hurt she caused me. But, like I told her, without that happening, I would never have met Vanessa.
I think it was good for Cindy too, actually. I noticed that she seemed to be much more friendly and involved with Vanessa after we'd had our talk. Maybe now that this is all behind us, we can all be friends. Act with maturity and really move on.
I noticed our friend Ross eyeing Cindy throughout the night. Maybe I should try and get them together. I won't tell him that Cindy is my ex, at least not at first, but at least we'll both have someone now.
I'm watching Vanessa undress right now and I know she'll be calling me over to the bed soon, alcohol almost always making her super horny.
Thinking about what lays in front of me, I can't help but smile.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 22, 2014
After a pretty good and intense fuck session last night with my man, Trevor told me about his plan to get Ross and Cindy together. While I wasn't crazy about the prospect of keeping Cindy around in our circle, I had to admit there were pluses.
If she's in our circle, dating one of our friends, I can keep an eye on her. Maybe once she gets her own man, she'll stop thirsting for mine and accept what's happened.
In either case, at least she knows now that she's never getting him back. All is right with the world.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 23, 2014
Got a text from Trevor today saying they wanted to talk to me. I got nervous thinking that this was it. One or both of them decided that I shouldn't hang around them anymore. I admit I was nervous when we met up at a local restaurant for brunch.
I tried to be as friendly as possible to them both, even the waste of tits my man was seeing. Then they hit me with something unexpected...
Trevor: So, Vanessa and I were talking yesterday and wanted to ask you something.
Me: Ok...
Trevor: Well we have a friend that is single and pretty good looking...
My mind went blank when he said that, and I don't remember the rest. I looked at Vanessa who was just smiling.
So, that was her plan now. She'd set me up with one of their friends to "get rid of me". If I made a move against Trevor then, I'd just be repeating my old ways. If I didn't agree to the date, I'd look like I was trying to win back Trevor, which while true, he didn't need to know yet.
I mumbled something that I was open to meeting the guy, who they told me was named Ross, one of the guys from the other night.
Loose Cunt: We think you'll really like him. He's almost as good as my Trevor...
MY TREVOR???!!! If he hadn't been there and if we were alone, I'd have choaked out the bitch then and there. The ho bag knew exactly what she was doing and was loving every second of it.
They said they would give the guy my number, but I saw a different opportunity.
Me: Maybe we could do a "group" thing or something so there's no pressure or anything. See if there's a spark.
Trevor: That's a good idea. Maybe we could do one of those winery tours or something with a few people and then you get to know each other.
She was trying to play it off, but I could tell Vanessa loathed the idea, making me quite happy. I was making it clear to her, and maybe Trevor too in some way, that I was gonna be harder to get rid of then that.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 24, 2014
FUCK!
A group outing?!
I really have to be around the scheming whore even more?!
She played her cards and played them well. Of course, she knew I was pushing this to get her coupled up and out of picture for Trevor. At least at a group event, I can keep an eye on her though.
I contacted Ross, letting him know about the group outing to meet Cindy, saying nice things about her that made my stomach turn over, but I did it anyway. I sent him a link to some of her social media and he seemed interested.
What he sees in the skag, I have no clue, but he's interested. The plan is to go to a nearby winery on Saturday, some of our other friends joining us too.
Trevor for his part thought this was all a wonderful idea. He sees it as a way to put his past behind him and move forward with maturity. While normally, I always admired this side of him, this time...
Fuck...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 24, 2014
I was really happy that Cindy took to our idea of setting her up with Ross. Ross had always been a bit of a playboy and I thought given Cindy's past history, they might find a match in each other.
Vanessa agreed but seemed concerned almost. Maybe she's worried that Ross will go back to his old habits and hurt Cindy. I figured the idea of a group outing would be a perfect opportunity to see if they were compatible and good for each other.
Maybe I'm being naïve. Maybe I just want people to be happy too much. I guess I'm just hoping that if Cindy is happy and with someone else now that I have Vanessa, I can cauterize a wound that was left in me a long time ago.
This is a bit of a departure for me and more of an experiment, writing a story Bram Stoker style.
As always, all persons involved are over 18.
I hope you all enjoy!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 4, 2014
I saw him!
I can't believe I actually saw him!
After all this time searching. Facebook, Google, Twitter; literally anything I could think of to find him, and it was completely by random.
To think I'd find him 1500 miles from where we first met, that I could just see him at a local restaurant, surrounded by friends and laughing it up. It's been five years since I'd seen him. Five years since I'd made the dumbest mistake of my life and four and a half years since I realized I'd made the biggest mistake of my life.
Oh, shit, you have no idea what I'm talking about! Let me start from the beginning.
My name is Cindy and as I write this, I'm 26 years old. I grew up very middle class in the United States and had what I consider to be a fairly stereotypical childhood. I was always pretty, being told so by my parents, relatives, and just random people as I went about my life.
As I entered High School, I was definitely an Alpha chick. Girls wanted to be me, and guys wanted to be seen with me. By the time I was a junior, I ruled the school.
Then I met Trevor. Trevor had just moved to the neighborhood and never saw me in that light. We were partnered up in a science class and he just treated me as regular girl. For three months, I hated him, him not giving me the respect and adoration I deserved!
Then something changed. What was initially an annoyance and arrogance as I saw it, turned out to be really hot. I mean insanely hot! I wanted him and wanted him to love me, every inch of me. I made it my goal to corral him and eventually, he fell to my charms.
He became my first real boyfriend, not just a dalliance I had with some random hot guy who was the flavor of the week. I noticed that with Trevor, I didn't have to put on a mask, I didn't have to pretend to be some hard bitch. I could be myself. He told me so many times that if I'd shown him that side of me from the beginning, we'd have gotten together a lot sooner.
We dated for the rest of High School and well into college, he eventually being the one I lost my virginity to in a romantic evening. Even though we went to different colleges, we were only an hour and a half by car away from each other, so we still saw each other all the time.
Then, right before my junior year was about to start, I made the mistake that'd haunt me for years afterwards. I somehow convinced myself that there had to be more out there for me then just Trevor. He was the only guy I'd been with and I wanted to play, to experiment, mix it up.
I told him that I wanted to take a break from our relationship so that we could really experience all that college had to offer. I could tell he was hurt, but he didn't fight it, knowing that there was no changing my mind. He kissed me on the cheek and left.
Until today, that was the last time I saw him. I did what I wanted. The last two years of college, I hooked up with plenty of different guys, even a few girls too. It was fun and exciting. But I also quickly realized that none of them matched up to the passion and pleasure I'd gotten from Trevor. By the time I graduated, I was done with playing around and wanted something stable. Something reliable.
I wanted Trevor back.
The problem was, I couldn't find him! He stopped using social media in college and none of our old friends could help, either they didn't know, or didn't want to help since I'd "broken his heart". His parents moved away by then and my family had no idea where they went.
So, I just settled into my life, alone. I got a job far away, hoping that a new city would ease my heartache. I dated, I worked, I tried to forget about my long, lost love, but it didn't help. I saw a shrink who told me to move on and find someone like him, but for me, no one matched up.
I was stuck.
Until today...
I was having dinner with some girlfriends, all of them either complaining about their boyfriends or wondering why they couldn't find good guys or girls to date. I was half listening as I took a sip of wine when I heard the laughter from another table.
I thought it was just an annoying group of drunk dudes at first, but then I saw him.
At first, I thought it was a look alike or a twin, but soon it was undeniable. It was him.
My Trevor!
My heart was beating so fast that I thought it would pound out of my chest. I couldn't stop staring, hoping he'd catch a glance of me. Once I realized he was too engrossed in his friends, I figured a bathroom meet would work best. I encouraged my friends to keep drinking as I saw him make his way toward the restrooms. I excused myself quickly, telling them I had to make a call so they wouldn't follow me.
I waited/stalked outside the bathroom waiting for the crucial moment he'd come out. I took a deep breath as I heard the door open and I bumped into him.
Trevor: Oh, shit! I'm sorry.
Me: No, it's fine...Trevor?
Obviously, I was feigning my vague recollection.
Trevor: Cindy...
He was obviously in an obvious state of shock.
Me: Oh, my God, how are you?
Trevor: I...I'm good, thanks. Hope you are.
Me: I am. Are you just visiting or...?
Trevor: No, I live here now.
He seemed a bit uncomfortable, but I thought it was super sweet.
Me: Wow, me too!
I was throwing my hands into the air in joy in my head, hearing that.
Trevor: Oh.
Me: We should catch up some time.
I was really trying not to sound thirsty, but still letting him know I wanted to see him.
Trevor: Uh...I guess...
Me: Cool! Maybe we can grab a coffee tomorrow?
Trevor: Uh sure...
Me: Great! How about the coffee shop on Marshall, five o'clock?
Trevor: Uhm, yeah, I think that'd work.
Me: Perfect, I'll see you there!
I was trying to dampen my enthusiasm, but not sure how well I was doing. I then proceeded to the bathroom to keep my rouse up, hoping that he saw me wiggle my ass as I left.
I immediately got in the stall and tried to slow my breath, completely overwhelmed that I'd found him! My heart was racing, and my panties were soaked. If I didn't have my friends waiting for me, I would've flicked my bean until it was raw!
I took another minute, gathered myself, splashed some water on my face and returned back to my table. I saw that Trevor kept looking over at my table and smiling. I tried not to look to eager or too excited to see him, but it wasn't working terribly well. I could feel my face getting redder and redder.
Thankfully, we left first, so I was able just to give him a friendly wave as we left that he returned.
As soon as I got into my apartment, I was jumping with joy! Without a second thought, I stripped off all my clothes, got on my bed, got out the dildo that I thought was closest to Trevor's size, and went to town! I'll probably get a noise complaint in the morning from the neighbors, but I don't care. I was moaning Trevor's name as I held in my mind all the tender moments we'd had. All the times we made love and he'd held me and kissed me.
After a few minutes, I had an explosive orgasm, drenching my toy in cream. I'm going to bed now, wondering how I'll be able to sleep thinking about tomorrow...
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014
I had so many hopes for today...
I woke up thinking today was gonna be the culmination of all my prayers and my true chance of redemption. I would finally have Trevor back and would keep him forever this time.
I did still go to work and everything, but mostly I was thinking how I'd handle Trevor. Would I just try the light catching up first? Would I go straight into what an idiot I was?
I knew what my objective was. I wasn't gonna get him to take me back over one coffee, I knew Trevor too well for that. But if I could open the door, or convince him to get dinner with me, I knew I could show him that he could trust me again, that I'd never leave him again.
I got home from work early so I could look as good as possible. My hair was perfection, my outfit cute but not too sexy. I did my makeup and looked at the results in the mirror.
I was good looking as fuck!
I got to the coffee shop early, ensuring that I had a perfect table just for the two of us. I looked over the crowd walking by, each one hoping is my Trevor. I lost myself in a daze, dreaming about what our life together would be now. Long walks, children, pure love. I got lost in thought as I felt someone tap my shoulder.
Trevor: Cin?
Me: Oh, hi!
I immediately got up to give him a hug.
Me: Want me to get you a coffee?
Trevor: No, my girlfriend is getting it.
WHAT????!!!!!!!
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 5, 2014
I have to admit it was quite a shock seeing Cindy last night, having done my best over time to put all thoughts of her behind me. I was amazed. I don't remember most of the rest of the evening once I got home.
To remind anyone who might read this, Cindy was my high school sweetheart that I continued to date into college. Right before our junior year, she hits me with a bomb in that she wanted to see other people, to experiment.
My heart was gutted. I just kissed her on the cheek and walked away.
I spent the next few months after that in a daze, wondering what I could've done to get her to stay. Should I have agreed to an open relationship or something? Or was she just done with me?
After a few weeks, my sadness turned to anger. Fuck her! If she wants to whore around her school, let her. Then I realized she could've already been doing that, this just being the final straw. I went to the health center to get myself tested, thankful that all the tests came back negative.
I got through my last two years of college as quickly as I could, even taking summer classes so I wouldn't have to go home and see her. I hated her! I thought every horrible thought I could have toward a person on her.
Once I graduated, I moved far away from hometown, just so I'd never have to see her again, or even think about her. My friends and family didn't know why it broke me up so much, but I did. I'd seen Cindy and me going all the way. Alter, kids, old age; the whole thing. Probably unrealistic as I look back on it, but that's how I felt.
Then I met Veronica.
I hadn't expected it, like all great things that happen in life, but I was really glad it did. I was at a dinner party a work colleague held at her house and I was seated next to her friend, something I was later to learn was no coincidence.
To say simply that she's stunning doesn't do her justice. 5'5" with beautiful, darker toned skin befitting a Latin woman, dark eyes and hair, not to mention a body that would turn any head in the room.
For the first five minutes of the dinner, I was so intimidated by her I couldn't even get words together to properly converse. But she was just so friendly, warm, and inviting; that we were talking like old friends in no time.
It still took me about a month to ask her out on a date, and only after the aforementioned work colleague assured me that she would say yes. In the year and half since then, we've been inseparable. We've met each other's families and gotten along well all across the board. We were talking of moving in together into a new place. Life was good.
I was truly happy.
Then I saw Cindy.
To say that I was shocked when she bumped into me in the restaurant was an understatement. Even though it was just yesterday, I couldn't remember a single thing I'd said to her, other than agreeing to coffee.
Why did I do it?!
That was the only question I kept asking myself over and over again after I went home. Why did I agree to see or deal with the woman who'd torn my heart out?! Did I want to tell her off? Did I just want to put her behind me, like a ghost stalking the living through life? I didn't know.
As I do with most things, I called Veronica who immediately came over. She knew, of course, all about Cindy and the circumstances of our breakup. She suggested that she probably just wanted to be friends, get over the past and move on. It soothed me hearing those comforting words. Then she went the extra step further, for which I was extremely grateful.
She offered to come with me.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
A GIRLFRIEND???!!!
He has a fucking girlfriend?!
And he brought her?!
Of all the scenarios that went through my head, the idea that he was already taken, never even entered my mind.
I thought maybe he'd tell me to fuck off, that he'd need time, or that we'd need to get to know each other all over again, but a girlfriend?!
When he told me, I tried to keep my poker face as placid as possible.
Me: Oh.
I was trying to keep my surprise to an absolute minimum
Trevor: Yeah, she heard we ran into each other and wanted to meet you.
He sat down and I saw the woman who was bring the coffee over. I had instant hate in my heart. I hated that she was pretty. I hated that she was dressed to show off every curve she had (D cups easily with an ass to match...FUCK) and a smile on her face. I quickly looked down to her left hand and didn't see a ring on there.
Thank GOD for that!
Trevor: Cindy, this is Vanessa.
I was seething, but also knew enough to know that I'd lose Trevor forever if I turned back into the brat he'd known when we first met.
Me: Hi! So, nice to meet you
I was trying to be friendly. At least appear to be...
I honestly don't remember most of the conversation the three of us had. I know we talked about Trevor and I's high school days, how him and Vanessa met, and what I'd been up to. The rest is all a blur.
The whole time, I saw Veronica's hands intertwined with his, the loving looks they gave each other. How my ears weren't burning red, I have no idea. The very thought that this bitch was gonna take my long, lost love from me set me on fire, internally.
On the surface, everything was light and pleasant. We caught up and I learned more about the pair. I asked about Vanessa and her likes and dislikes as a plan started to form.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 5, 2014
I could see right through the bitch!
From the moment Trevor told be about running into Cindy, I knew one thing for certain. This cunt was gonna make a move on him.
What Trevor didn't know was that this wasn't the first time I'd had to deal with this. My boyfriend is so warm, kind, and caring; not to mention good looking, and he attracted women to him, completely unknowingly. I've had to stare down many a thirsty ho who wanted to take my horse out for a ride.
Of course, he never knew of this, Trevor was too nice and trusting for that. I knew he would never purposefully lead a girl on or do anything that could be thought of as cheating. He's far too loyal for that.
But Cindy was a new wrinkle. We're getting ready to move in together. He's probably getting ready to put a ring on it, and this woman just strolls back in from the depths of Hell?!
I knew all about their past and how her stupid ass dumped him, all so she could whore around unabated. Now that she'd had her brains fucked out by God knows how many guys, she was ready for him again?!
FUCK THAT SHIT!!
There was no way I wasn't gonna go with him, of course couching it in the framework of being supportive. While that was partially true, I also wanted her to know what she was up against. I wore a nice dress that flattered my boobs and ass well, but not overly showy.
When we got there, I ordered the coffees for us while he went to say hi, mostly so I could get a look at her and plan my defense. I had to admit she was cute, blond hair, perky looking tits that looked to be only slightly smaller than mine, and a tiny, pert ass.
I could tell she was dressed to impress too, wanting to put her best foot forward for him. I knew the play to make.
Be nice. Be friendly. Keep my hands on my man, and not give an inch.
I screwed on my best smile as I approached their table, Cindy still clearly a little off-balance that I was there.
GOOD!
I asked questions about their growing up and their times together, trying to be light and free. She was very polite and accommodating toward me, but it was all a show, I'm sure. She didn't want to seem like a dismissive, petty bitch, at least not around Trevor.
Trevor then invited her over for a dinner party we were having next week.
I could've killed him!!
My hope was that they'd have a nice chat, catch up, she'd realize she lost him, and would move on. But Trevor's heart was too good for that.
Damn it...
Now she'd meet our friends AND know where he lived. I couldn't get mad at him for it though. He probably doesn't see what she's after.
But then again...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
At first, I thought Cindy might be a little put off with me bringing Vanessa, but to my surprise, the two got along fairly well. It's always worrying when two women you've slept with meet up. Mostly, I was worried that they'd be dogging me most of the time, all my foibles and what not.
I had to admit that as much pain and anguish she caused me, it was actually nice to catch up with her. It felt like I was finally going to be able to put the past firmly behind me, so I could move forward with Vanessa. By the end of the coffee, I thought the two were actually well on their way to being firm friends, which kinda delighted me.
I even invited Cindy to our dinner party, thinking this could be a real turning point for me. Finally let the past die and move on as adults. I'm gonna go to be finally able to put the past to rest!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 5, 2014-Continued
He gave me an in!!!
Even with his admittedly pretty girlfriend sitting right there, he still wants to make a new connection with me! If I wasn't so classy, I'd have rubbed it all in her face, but I feel that'll come later when I take back what is rightfully mine!
Now I can show him that I'm the best way forward for him, not that skanky bitch he's with. We grew up together, we know each other, we fell for each other first and heavily. Now, I just need to rekindle those embers and show him that his true future lies right back where it started, with me.
I can't wait for next week...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 14, 2014
Everything was set up perfectly in Trevor's apartment. The lamb was cooking, and all the sides look amazing. I'm looking over my handiwork, thankful for the fact that my grandmother taught me to cook. The charcuterie board looks inviting and tasty. All the wine and drinks are ready. His place looks spotless.
Once I was sure everything was GTG, I went to the bathroom and gave myself a once over, knowing that blond cunt was coming.
Since last week, I'd decided to turn disadvantage into advantage. If he insisted on her coming here, I'm gonna show her all of what he has now. I'm wearing a form fitting dress that shows every wonderful curve I have. My makeup is perfect, and I had my hair and nails done yesterday.
I looked myself up and down and smiled at my reflection.
Me: Damn, I'm hot...
As I mumbled to myself, I almost felt sorry for the dumb slut who let Trevor get away.
Trevor: Babe, you almost ready? Gracie and Annie are on their way up.
Me: Be right there...
I couldn't help but smile as I went out to go greet our friends.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 14, 2014
This had to go perfect.
I fretted all week about striking the right look. I needed to look hot, but not thirsty. Made up, but not overdone. I had to remember that this was a dinner party among "friends".
Of course, it was only gonna be part of my plan.
Sure, I'd play the nice, kind ex-girlfriend if either Trevor or Vanessa brought it up, say that we're trying to rekindle our friendship. I'd be nice and complementary to all their friends, winning them over with my nature and looks.
I'd be super complementary to Vanessa, raving over the food and the apartment and how lovely everything was. I'd make sure that I laughed at the jokes, ask questions that were thoughtful, and not hog Trevor's time.
That was crucial! I had to use this opportunity to get as much dirt on this girl and every flaw in their relationship as possible.
Was she too critical? Did she berate him? Did she make fun of him to their friends? Anything I could use to start the process of breaking them apart.
I'd be nice. Kind. Sympathetic. I just needed to know where to focus. Maybe I'd need to pry off the other way and tell Trevor things about her, too needy or emotional; something.
I'm timing this to arrive about ten minutes after it starts, hoping that it looks like I'm just casually late and not counting down the minutes.
Crossing the fingers time...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 14, 2014
I had to admit I was nervous at first having Cindy here. Sure, it was my idea as a way of putting water under the bridge, but now she was gonna be here in my house with my girlfriend and all our friends.
Hopefully, I could finally put the anger behind me and be adult. After all, if Cindy hadn't dumped me, I wouldn't have found Vanessa. She's become the light of my world and I'm so grateful for her.
I'll dress nice and get comfortable, leaning on Vanessa and my friends if I have to.
Deep breaths...
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 14, 2014-continued
It went perfectly!!!!
I arrived just when I wanted to, with some of their friends already there. Trevor smiled and introduced me around to his friends. He carefully introduced me as someone he went to high school with, choosing not to talk about us dating, which I appreciated. I saw Vanessa and gave her a friendly hug, trying to make sure she didn't think I was up to anything.
I had to admit the food was good, Vanessa was a good cook and I said so, trying to keep her guard down. I made sure to sit opposite Trevor, not flirting, but merely talking about our high school days and fun times had. Their friends seemed interested in Trevor's early life, though Vanessa didn't. Whether she didn't care about his early life, or just didn't like me bringing up our past time together, I really don't know.
Don't care either.
Their friends all seemed charmed, exchanging phone numbers and social media access with many of them. I left before everyone was gone, also calculated to make it look like I wasn't overstaying my welcome.
I'd already secured an invite to a night out with them on Friday, so I knew my plan was working.
Trevor was mine! And soon, they would all see why...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 14, 2014-continued
That CUNT!!
Trying to play me off our friends the whole fucking night!
Oh maybe they didn't see it, and I know Trevor didn't, but I did. I can see through her fucking bullshit clearly. While before, maybe there was a chance my thoughts on her were too harsh, now there was no doubt.
The cheating slut wanted him back!
I wasn't giving an inch. I knew she was trying to ingratiate herself into our lives, trying to show she'd changed and wasn't the same shallow slutbag she'd been. While they and Trevor may have bought it, I sure as fuck didn't!
Once all our friends left, I took Trevor into the bedroom and gave him a fucking he'll remember for a while. He's sleeping now, after having cum in all three of my holes tonight. I'm looking at him right now and smiling, knowing that whore wasn't gonna get her trampy hands on him ever again!
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 15, 2014
Boy, was I wrong!
Last night couldn't have gone better! I almost feel like an idiot for thinking that it would be awkward with Cindy there. She got along so well with everyone, my friends all really liked her and Vanessa and her seemed to hit it off well. It was so light and breezy!
I, of course, avoided telling any of our friends that Cindy was my ex, not wanting to answer any awkward questions. Vanessa seemed comfortable with that, not wanting the issue to cloud the party. Everyone had a great time, my friends even invited Cindy out with us on Friday.
After everyone left, Vanessa was feeling so good, she took my back to the bedroom for a love-making session like I'd never experienced before! I don't know how I did it, but I managed to nut in every one of her amazing holes, Vanessa being the one to introduce me to anal sex.
As I write this, I can see my lovely girlfriend sleeping sweetly in my bed, seemingly satisfied, after I woke up early.
I can't imagine feeling better than this!
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 21, 2014
Step two of my plan now needed to come out.
Throughout the week, I'd been texting and talking with Trevor's friends, ingratiating myself into the "circle". I was just an old friend in their eyes. Someone who Trevor knew from back in the "old" days and in no way a threat.
I asked about families, relationships, jobs; whatever I could think of to keep them engaged and keep me in the loop on their plans. Of course, I also texted Trevor, letting him know how much I enjoyed the party and how nice it was that we can be social with each other.
I didn't want to push him too far, knowing that he probably still had a lot of hurt buried up in him from our breakup. But I did want him to start looking at me as a friend, something I could later turn to my advantage when the cracks in him and Vanessa's relationship surfaced.
The only disappointment I'd had from last week is that I didn't really find any flaws. Vanessa, on the surface at least, seemed to be supportive and loving toward Trevor. If that means I have to play the long game to get him back, fine...
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 21, 2014
I can't fucking believe this!!!!!
My friends, our friends are falling for the whore's words!! She's clearly trying to insert herself firmly in our lives, trying to get back the wonderful man she spurned years ago. Trevor is almost non-chalant about it, saying we're just being friendly and showing that we're past all the petty high school bullshit.
REALLY?!
This bitch is trying to infringe on me, my friends, and my man; you know, the one she dumped to fuck her way to the top! I never let Trevor see my anger, knowing that he wasn't contemplating leaving me, much less cheat on me. You get to know someone in a year and a half, and he isn't the cheating type.
Secure in that, I've decided on a new plan...
Suffer...
I will make the bitch suffer. I will show her how wonderful our life is and how much happier he is now. I will show him that his eyes are squarely on me, and she has no fucking chance of getting him back.
I also went the extra step to get some of my friends in on the plot. Not about destroying Cindy, but on the other part of my plan. Trying to get Trevor to put a ring on me. Not pressure so much, but more that I would love the idea of getting married to him, and virtually assuring him I would say yes.
My mind started reeling, wondering if he'd do it with her there, really setting her off. Hell, maybe I'll even invite her to the wedding, so she can see me formally and finally claim Trevor as mine.
Oh, the possibilities...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 21, 2014
Getting ready to head out with Vanessa, our friends and whatnot. Even Cindy's coming, which actually doesn't put my stomach in knots. I think she earnestly wants to patch up what happened back then.
But therein lies the issue. I never actually told her what she did to me and how it made me feel. I know now that if Cindy is gonna be in our lives, I have to have it out with her. If I can get her alone, I can tell her how I felt and how it hurt me.
I feel like if I do that, we can finally move on and be friends, her seeming to get along with Vanessa and everyone else. Hopefully, I won't need too much liquid courage to pull this off.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
Well, it finally happened...
While were out at one of the local bars with all of Trevor and Vanessa's friends, Trevor got me alone.
In the back of my mind, I was hoping he was gonna tell me how much he missed me and how glad he was to see me again. I wasn't naïve enough to think he was gonna redeclare his love for me yet, but at least start us on the path.
Instead, he brings up the breakup and the past...
In hindsight, I should've seen this coming. I mean, hell, I should've been the one to bring it up so I could apologize to him, but I didn't think of it.
STUPID!!!
To set the scene, Trevor asked me to come out to the balcony of the bar with him, that he wanted to talk to me about something. He kissed Vanessa on the cheek as she saw us go out together. I admit, I tried to wiggle my ass a bit in her direction, just to piss her off.
We got outside and I was all smiles, until I heard him take a deep breath. Even as long as it's been since we dated, I still knew enough to know that this was gonna be serious.
I'm gonna write down the conversation to the best of my memory, hoping the booze didn't make that too hard to do.
Trevor: I wanted to talk to you about something.
Me: Of course, is everything ok?
Ok, fine, I'll admit I was hoping about to hear some serious tea about any issues he may be having with Vanessa, but anyway...
Trevor: Well, it's about us. I have to admit seeing you again wasn't something I expected.
Me: I mean, I always hoped we would, but then you moved and...
I think I shrugged a bit as I said that, trying not to make it look like I'd been hunting him down.
Trevor: Well I did all that honestly to avoid you.
That hit me like a sledgehammer. I knew he wasn't happy with me when we broke up, but he cut off every avenue just to avoid me???!!! I think I mumbled something, but I couldn't tell you what, and he probably couldn't either.
Trevor: You destroyed me back then. I mean you ripped my heart out and after it happened, I was a mess for a long time.
I'm pretty sure this was the point I could start feeling tears on my face. It never occurred to me that he took that hard. I always figured he'd just do what I did and experiment.
Apparently not...
Me: Trevor, I never meant to hurt you like that...
Trevor: But you did.
He said that almost too calmly.
Trevor: I hated you for so long. I hated thinking about you. I hated missing you. I hated loving you. I just hated you.
I must've been a quivering mess at this point. It was every worse fear I'd ever had about seeing him again in a heap.
Me: I'm so sorry! I was so stupid! (This was said through some heavy tears) So fucking stupid!
At the very least this got him looking a bit sad, so I figured I'd just lay it out there. Well...mostly out there.
Me: I thought I was doing us a favor.
Trevor: A favor?
I threw my hands up at that point, silently asking him to let me talk.
Me: I thought if we both were able to get new experience and meet new people, we'd find our way back to each other.
Trevor: You really thought that was gonna happen after you dumped me?
Me: I never wanted it to come off like a dumping. I was more just trying to let us spread our wings a bit. I never thought that would be the last time I'd see you for years.
Trevor: Cindy, I didn't want other people. I wanted you!
Me: I know and I'm so sorry. As soon as it dawned on me what I'd done, I never forgave myself for it. That's why I was so happy to finally see you.
Trevor: Really?
Me: Trevor (I took his hands at this point) I am so sorry I caused you pain. Once I realized how bad I fucked up, I was a complete mess for a long time. No one else measured up. I felt so alone. I was miserable.
I noticed he grinned a bit when I said I was miserable and asked him if that made him feel better.
Trevor: Actually, it does a bit. (He was chuckling a bit now.)
Me: Trevor, I was young and dumb and I'm so sorry. Truly...
Trevor: Well...
He took a very long pause after that. Ok, probably only ten seconds or something like that, but it felt like eternity.
Trevor: Well, I guess if you hadn't, I wouldn't have met Vanessa. So, I guess in a way, I should thank you.
This hit me hard. Yeah, he was forgiving me it seemed, but he was forgiving me for giving him the chance to be with Vanessa.
That's when Vanessa appeared out of nowhere.
Cuntsleave: What are you guys talking about?
Trevor: How lucky I am to have you.
He smiled as she kissed his cheek and tell him that we were moving on to another bar. Vanessa waived us inside to pay so we could move on.
We went to some other places that night and I tried to seem upbeat, but I was a wreck inside. While Trevor certainly was friendlier to me after that exchange we'd had, he'd made it clear that he loved Vanessa.
I was stuck! If I broke them up, he might blame me again for ruining his life and if I did nothing, he'd marry the bitch sooner or later. I kept my head about me for the moment. I'd need to stay close. Him and Vanessa.
In fact, when we went to the next bar, I tried to be as nice and charming to Vanessa as possible. If I can get closer to her, maybe I can find something to turn Trevor against her.
I just had to hope for an opening.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
When Trevor said he was gonna finally confront his stupid, whorish ex-girlfriend, I jumped up and down in glee (in my head at least). She was finally gonna get what was coming to her and see that she had no chance of getting Trevor back.
The door would be shut once and for all and hopefully, we'd be able to get on with our lives, free of this bitchy interloper.
After they had their talk, I noticed that Cindy was trying to be close to be, nice to me. Like I was really gonna buy that. Can't this bitch realize she's lost? She had the perfect man, and she blew it (and probably half her college).
Trevor at least seemed to be in better spirits. I think part of him is glad that he finally was able to confront her and put this behind her. I even told him so, that now he's put the past behind him and now he can move on to the future.
Our future...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 21, 2014-continued
Well, I did it.
I finally confronted Cindy and told her. I had to admit it felt good to finally tell her how much she hurt and destroyed me.
But even as I did, I could see the sadness in her. Like she knew she'd messed up. She even said that she just wanted both of us to play the field for a while and thought we'd find each other again.
Now, I'm not sure I really believe that, but she seemed genuinely sorry for the hurt she caused me. But, like I told her, without that happening, I would never have met Vanessa.
I think it was good for Cindy too, actually. I noticed that she seemed to be much more friendly and involved with Vanessa after we'd had our talk. Maybe now that this is all behind us, we can all be friends. Act with maturity and really move on.
I noticed our friend Ross eyeing Cindy throughout the night. Maybe I should try and get them together. I won't tell him that Cindy is my ex, at least not at first, but at least we'll both have someone now.
I'm watching Vanessa undress right now and I know she'll be calling me over to the bed soon, alcohol almost always making her super horny.
Thinking about what lays in front of me, I can't help but smile.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 22, 2014
After a pretty good and intense fuck session last night with my man, Trevor told me about his plan to get Ross and Cindy together. While I wasn't crazy about the prospect of keeping Cindy around in our circle, I had to admit there were pluses.
If she's in our circle, dating one of our friends, I can keep an eye on her. Maybe once she gets her own man, she'll stop thirsting for mine and accept what's happened.
In either case, at least she knows now that she's never getting him back. All is right with the world.
Cindy's Diary Entry-March 23, 2014
Got a text from Trevor today saying they wanted to talk to me. I got nervous thinking that this was it. One or both of them decided that I shouldn't hang around them anymore. I admit I was nervous when we met up at a local restaurant for brunch.
I tried to be as friendly as possible to them both, even the waste of tits my man was seeing. Then they hit me with something unexpected...
Trevor: So, Vanessa and I were talking yesterday and wanted to ask you something.
Me: Ok...
Trevor: Well we have a friend that is single and pretty good looking...
My mind went blank when he said that, and I don't remember the rest. I looked at Vanessa who was just smiling.
So, that was her plan now. She'd set me up with one of their friends to "get rid of me". If I made a move against Trevor then, I'd just be repeating my old ways. If I didn't agree to the date, I'd look like I was trying to win back Trevor, which while true, he didn't need to know yet.
I mumbled something that I was open to meeting the guy, who they told me was named Ross, one of the guys from the other night.
Loose Cunt: We think you'll really like him. He's almost as good as my Trevor...
MY TREVOR???!!! If he hadn't been there and if we were alone, I'd have choaked out the bitch then and there. The ho bag knew exactly what she was doing and was loving every second of it.
They said they would give the guy my number, but I saw a different opportunity.
Me: Maybe we could do a "group" thing or something so there's no pressure or anything. See if there's a spark.
Trevor: That's a good idea. Maybe we could do one of those winery tours or something with a few people and then you get to know each other.
She was trying to play it off, but I could tell Vanessa loathed the idea, making me quite happy. I was making it clear to her, and maybe Trevor too in some way, that I was gonna be harder to get rid of then that.
Vanessa's Log Entry-March 24, 2014
FUCK!
A group outing?!
I really have to be around the scheming whore even more?!
She played her cards and played them well. Of course, she knew I was pushing this to get her coupled up and out of picture for Trevor. At least at a group event, I can keep an eye on her though.
I contacted Ross, letting him know about the group outing to meet Cindy, saying nice things about her that made my stomach turn over, but I did it anyway. I sent him a link to some of her social media and he seemed interested.
What he sees in the skag, I have no clue, but he's interested. The plan is to go to a nearby winery on Saturday, some of our other friends joining us too.
Trevor for his part thought this was all a wonderful idea. He sees it as a way to put his past behind him and move forward with maturity. While normally, I always admired this side of him, this time...
Fuck...
Trevor's Journal Entry-March 24, 2014
I was really happy that Cindy took to our idea of setting her up with Ross. Ross had always been a bit of a playboy and I thought given Cindy's past history, they might find a match in each other.
Vanessa agreed but seemed concerned almost. Maybe she's worried that Ross will go back to his old habits and hurt Cindy. I figured the idea of a group outing would be a perfect opportunity to see if they were compatible and good for each other.
Maybe I'm being naïve. Maybe I just want people to be happy too much. I guess I'm just hoping that if Cindy is happy and with someone else now that I have Vanessa, I can cauterize a wound that was left in me a long time ago.
- Next page: Page 02
