Update 03
'Shiva, today despite meeting in unimaginable, unexpected, fateful and strange circumstances, the inevitable mating happened between us. My longing pent-up desire to mate with you has been increasing ever since our first meeting. My mind, soul and body responded to your love and touch. I am surprised that you did not hesitate to arouse, excite, entice, enthrall, enter and fuck me today to satisfy my desire. You have awakened my dormant and pent up desires. I had been faithful wife to my inept husband until today, whether he fucked me or not. You made me a sinful slut today.
Shiva, 'do you think I am an amoral, amorous, cock crazy, concupiscent, debauched, depraved, iniquitous, insane, horny, kinky, incestuous, lascivious, lecherous, libidinous, lubricious, yearning, unethical, sex starved sizzling slut actively arousing, encouraging, inviting, indulging, seeking, giving, sharing and receiving carnal animalistic sexual pleasure to quench my sexual desires instead of feeling sorrow and pain, satisfying my desire instead of feeling depressed, satisfying my lust instead of lamenting, moaning with pleasure instead of mourning, cooing and crooning instead of crying, groaning instead of grieving, squirting instead of sobbing, rejoicing instead of refusing, wallowing instead of weeping, offering my cunt instead of objecting, opening up my cunt like a slut and giving myself shamelessly to an young man who wants to share my pain and agony, comfort and console me, young enough to be my son, on this fateful and sorrowful day when my son is dead and his cold lifeless body lying in a mortuary?'
Here I am in the arms of my dream man, my god. I opened and submitted myself completely shamelessly uninhibitedly surrendered to you like a slut, offering and opening myself and my cunt to my son's friend, a young man of my son's age, immensely enjoying being fucked thoroughly by your monstrous cock and enjoying carnal sinful pleasure of being fucked thoroughly like a cow ready for mating.' Shiva, I behaved like a selfish, self-centered self-indulgent slut, pleasure seeking wanton woman with carnal desire. Do I deserve to receive and enjoy such love, heavenly pleasure and feel happy especially today?
I listened to her every word attentively and fascinated by her feelings as she revealed her inner most thoughts. It was as if she was pouring out her feelings and inner most thoughts, she was afraid of admitting to herself in the form of words loudly. She continued her monologue, pouring out her feelings. It was like catharsis and abreaction. She was in the process of self-analyzing, self-criticizing, absolution, purification and seeking my approval of her behavior, trying to absolve herself from guilt conscious.
Amma, do not criticize yourself. You are not guilty. We have not committed any sin. There is no reason for you to blame yourself. You have not done anything wrong to feel guilty or blame yourself. Because energy knots from emotional wounds are found in the area of the body where feelings are held and processed and also associated with sexuality the sacred intimacy and sexual healing process uses sexual energy to reveal, clear, and release any "energy knots" The conscious activation of these energy knots allows the previous pent-up energy to flow naturally and return the receiver to vitality and full experience of their sexuality. The benefits of which are: less stress, fear and anxiety while adding greater self-awareness and capacity for intimacy in relationship. Breath, sensual touch, movement, sound and visualization create opportunities for discovery, release, and integration of the contracted energy knots, emotional wounds, or desperate feelings.
Amma, with the right partner the Receiver can relax and open to the wisdom of the body and spirit to direct the session's experience. For the Giver, it takes an understanding of the partner's needs with sincere intention and steadfast attentive presence to create the safe and sacred container where the partner feels safe and able to relax and open up within.
Amma, When experienced regularly, Sacred Intimacy sessions allow a person to stay in-touch with developing feelings while discovering previously hidden sources of compulsive behavior or unconscious motivation and clear or release what wants to be let go of, process and integrate disparate feelings —while providing more clarity and deeper connection in relationship not to mention personal understanding and empowerment. Amma, what you have experienced is called sexual healing.
Shiva, Have I not committed ultimate unpardonable sin fucking today? Is it not forbidden to get fucked today? When you hugged me, involuntarily my breasts became bigger and full with love to feed you. I wanted my breasts sucked and emptied by you. Surprisingly, I lactated when you sucked my breasts. I experienced pleasure similar to the higher state of bliss and pleasure achieved in yoga or meditation. You opened, filled and stretched my cunt completely. Shiva, I am surprised at myself submitting my body, to be fucked by you, opening all my pores experiencing the bliss, ultimate joy uninhibitedly and endlessly such an intense pleasure having continuous multiple endless orgasms hitherto unknown to me. You ignited fire in my mind and body and I could not help but melt in your indulging and intimate embrace and kissing. You made me forget all inhibitions, moral ethics and indulge in forbidden, sinful, abandoned and taboo sex.
Shiva, I did not object, rather I welcomed, and submitted to you willingly and uninhibitedly. Don't you think that I should have objected.
Yes, Amma, I thought you would object. I was afraid that you would chide me while I was hugging and pressing my cock against you. You did not object. You reciprocated willingly with equal enthusiasm and eagerness when you felt hardness of my cock and hugged me tightly.
Any sane woman would have got offended, objected, avoided, refused fucking today. If our fucking happened on any other day it is different. Why did I not object? You may also think I am insane. I have to tell you that I was thinking of you yesterday night while travelling, recalled our first meeting and mutual fatal attraction we had, knowing we will meet today. I am glad that I did not object. However I did not imagine that we will have such a romantic passionate mating. I submitted and surrendered to you, despite strange and unbelievable circumstances, I now feel happy and lucky that you fucked and made me orgasm thrice continuously in one fucking session, which I never knew or imagined I could experience. Your cock is so big that you almost raped me. It is so intensive that all my juices have been drained out. I never imagined that a woman can have such continuous multiple intense orgasms.
'Shiva, Is it not insane and sin to get fucked by you and experience such incredible pleasures today?'
Padma, it is not a sin to have passionate sex and pleasure on any day, even today. Time and place does not matter. Sex is beautiful and divine experience. We enjoyed the experience. If it is a sin, let it be. It is necessary sin for us. We both committed the pleasurable sin. We should continue to have pleasures of sin.
Shiva, 'Do you think so? Getting fucked by you may not be a sin. But, It is definitely immoral and unethical to have an extramarital affair with an young man of my son's age. Is not a sin that a mother getting fucked by her son's friend on the day even before the funeral when her son is dead and his body is lying on cold slab in a mortuary? What can be more sinful act that a mother can commit on a day like this? If someone else comes to know about what happened now between us, they would think that I am an amoral, indecent, insatiable, selfish, sinful, sex hungry horny slut, cock crazy unethical bitch and a wanton whore. People may even think that I am a sex maniac, having abnormal psyche seduced you, an young man that too her son's best friend. They may think I am a slut having many lovers. They may think that we have been lovers having extramarital affair and you have been fucking me for years, and I could not wait to get fucked by you today. I would not have imagined and definitely not endorsed if someone else tells me such incident could happen. Tell me Shiva, 'what do you think of me honestly. Am I not an immoral and unethical slut? Tell me, Shiva that I am your slut only''
Padma, You may be called immoral and unethical for cheating your husband. 'You are a lovely sex goddess an angel. You have denied yourself having sexual pleasure so long. I suggest you should unnecessarily not worry about what others will think of us. No one will know. We will not be telling the world. What happened today is between you and me and important to us. It is divine intervention. We love each other. We are definitely not abnormal, crazy, immoral and unethical. You and I are perfectly normal people who are madly in love with each other. We want to experience, enjoy and have each other. We did not imagine that we would meet again in such circumstances. We have not done anything to be ashamed. What happened today is natural and normal expression of loving, romantic passionate union and unique expression of love between us. We have been in love with each other ever since we met for the first time. We are soul mates. We are made for each other. We are perfect couple. We have been in love with each other ever since we met. We have been waiting to meet again and today we have met. It really does not matter that I am younger to you and happens to be your son's friend. It might be divine interference that we should make love today, especially today.
Shiva, Do you think that our inevitable meeting and mating today is because of divine intervention. I think it is your intervention. I have been dreaming about you. Today you have become my God and Master.
Amma, I am not a stranger to you. We have been in love with each other ever since we met first time. We are soul mates. We have been lovers ever since. You being married, and being mother of my best friend does not change my affection, desire and love for you. It is extramarital. Yes. It may be unethical and immoral to have sex with an young man other than your husband as per societal standards.
Padma, People may also obviously assume that I have taken undue advantage of a helpless grieving mother, misused the opportunity and in the name of showing empathy and consoling seduced you and fucked you. But I feel that I have to do it.
Amma, 'today your long awaited love and dormant desires flared up. I understand, your desire after losing your son, your need to have your son back in you, especially now, you want your son in you, you wanted to take him back into your body. You see your son in me. Since you could not take him back into you, you have opened yourself to me, desired me and invited me to enter you, taken me into you, allowed me to enter your open cunt, to explore your depths, your body and soul, receiving me into you and opening up for me. Your abundant love for your son and pent up sexual desire simmering like volcano for a long time as a woman prompted you to have a man to fill you and fulfill you.
Shiva, You only can understand me completely, my inner thoughts, appreciate my feelings and know my mind so well, Shiva you have put my feelings into words so clearly and succulently better than I could have expressed. You make me confess, pour out my secret desires and dreams. I need you. I have been waiting for you to satisfy my desires, to share and shower my love and to make my dreams come true. It happened on this peculiar day in an unbelievable way.
Shiva, I would have definitely submitted and surrendered myself to you, invited you to have me, had there been an occasion to meet you again, after our first meeting. If you had stayed one more day after the wedding I would have definitely invited you and offered myself to you. You would have fucked me. Today, the loss of my son triggered both my motherly instinct and long awaited desire for you, actually flared up when you hugged and kissed me showering love. I was not thinking, It so happened in such a natural way. You did not give me a chance even to sort out my feelings. You excited me to an uncontrollable state of desire and I was ready and in urgent need to take you into me. Your kissing me with so much love flared up my desire. You entered me, opened me and filled me with your cock. It was like you actually opened me psychologically and physically today.
I would have come into your arms instantly the moment we meet second time in normal circumstances. You have become my god and my religion. I have been thinking of you, about you, about us ever since I saw you. Even yesterday night while travelling all through journey, I thought of you, knowing that you will be there to meet me with your handsome personality, charming chivalrous confident attitude. I remembered our first meeting and I am not ashamed to confess to you that I had feelings of anticipation, sexual tension, feeling of pining, a deliciously uncomfortable sensation that was both exciting and excruciating. Instead of feelings of depression, I was expecting you to be with me when I arrive here. Ever since our first meeting I was expecting you would take me and fuck me in the second meeting. Oblivious of today's circumstances disregarding logic and reason, in my mind I was expecting that you would take me. I was surprised at my own self having such thoughts. The moment I got down from the car, I was relieved to see you and instantly came into your strong protective arms, as if it was the most natural thing to do. I was upset and angry with my son, knowing the reason of his death was that he could not fuck his wife. He could have taken help, undergone medical treatment and could have been cured of his ED problem. I was angry with my husband because he passed on his weak genes. Despite of having anger, grief and helplessness your thoughts surrounded me. I remembered your charming, confident, handsome, masculine, irresistible personality. In the night, while travelling, I recalled feeling your male hardness pressing against my hips when you stood behind me during the wedding ceremony, which excited me and aroused me. I did not expect this intense spark of chemistry and romantic love and lust leading to amazing sexual experience and satisfaction because I did know such heavenly experience of continuous orgasms can exist.
Shiva, 'Would you have fucked to console any other woman in similar situation, if it is not me. Would you have fucked your own mother in similar circumstances?'
Why did you stay back with me, when all your friends went to the Hospital.
Padma, it is a strange and hypothetical question. Every circumstance is unique. Perhaps I would have fucked any other woman to console, even my mother, if the woman responds like you have to my touch, hugging and cuddling. I would have fucked my own mother or any other woman too without any inhibition to heal them sexually. However, I never felt such an intense strong desire to fuck and love at first sight with any other woman, except you. For me Love between a man and woman means fuck. I do not believe in so called platonic relationship between a man and woman.
Padma, the first time we met I felt that we knew each other for a long time, , longing and waiting to meet, know of each other's existence, familiar with each other, and know about each other intimately for many years but separated by unknown forces. Perhaps our relationship extends beyond this life, existing for so many janmas. Perhaps you were my wife, mother, sister, niece, friend or lover in earlier janmas. It might be you are related to me one way or other in each reincarnation. I feel we have been waiting for an occasion to meet and unite. Padma, Sex is sacred and not a sin. Sex has to be considered as a beautiful unique positive expression of the life force.
She said, 'you are right. 'I also had similar feelings that I know you for a long time. You are an expert in mind reading and understanding others' inner feelings.
Shiva, "At the moment of orgasm I knew that I was in a great, golden light and I experienced myself as transparent, luminous energy. I saw seven star-like, golden, swirling points that lined up in my body. My energy centers looked like radiant golden lights in my body. Every inch of my body undergone blissful experience "
Padma, what you had visualized was the life force freely flowing through all seven energy centers that were illuminated and energized by your orgasm. Very few people can have such spiritual sexual experience and spontaneous ecstatic experiences like you. To have such experience repeatedly is rare and eternal.
Shiva, you gave me the ultimate unimaginable experience, you are my Lord and Master. I am your slave, dasi, bhaktha.
Shiva, thinking of my son, I should have helped my son with love. I could have taught him to fuck. It is so simple, because he could not fuck his wife during first three nights, and subsequently when they were together, he must have thought he was impotent. He came back to college probably depressed and frustrated. He should have told you, being his best friend.
Was he completely impotent? How do you know Amma?
He thought so. Perhaps he was. He wrote an apologetic letter to his wife, a week back and she showed it to me. I was planning to talk to him, help him fuck me with love, if necessary and he would have learnt how to fuck a woman. "He should have told me, come to me, I would have made his cock big and hard. She took my cock into her hands stroking it and said, 'He could have fucked me. I would have helped him enter my cunt and fuck me. I would have taught him how to fuck a woman. Why he did not share with me, talk to me in confidence, he knows I love him. I would have encouraged him to fuck me.
Padma, now I understand and guess he wanted to fuck you. He was in love with you. He used to see your photo album and admire your beauty. He saw you in his wife and wanted her to love him, and wanted her to show love and affection like a mother, fondle him like a lover, and make his cock erect and bigger, help him to enter her, guide him with love, and take him, his cock into her and fuck him like a mother. But he could not tell her and he could not fuck her unless she makes him big and hard lovingly. Padma, tell me honestly, you would have offered yourself to your son and fucked by him, had he expressed his desire?
Shiva, honestly yes, I would have fucked him. Had I known that he wants to fuck me, I would not have hesitated to fuck him though it is taboo and incest. I would have helped make his cock erect and bigger to fuck me. I should have known his desire for me. I should have fucked him to save his life.
Padma, he might have expected you to do just that, take the lead, initiate him lovingly, make his cock erect and bigger, seduce and fuck him. He desired you, wanted to fuck you or wanted you fuck him. He could not express his feelings to you because of taboo. He wanted you to know his feelings and initiate him. He was waiting for you to take his cock into your cunt. He was waiting for you to fuck him. He might have been afraid of expressing his desire for you and could not do so fearing your rejection and losing your motherly love too. you should have fucked him.
Shiva, how can I take the lead and intimate him being his mother? You know very well that a woman always wants and waits for the man to take the lead, initiate, seduce, praise and woo her to submit and make love. My son should have treated me like his girl friend and seduced me. You are an expert in this art of seducing and fucking women. You should have advised your friend that he should treat his mother like his girl friend, seduce and fuck his mother.
Yes. Padma, I know what a woman wants. Woman, whatever their age wants caring, to be treated like a young girl during the process of seduction and courtship. Do you mean that I should have advised your son to seduce and fuck you? I knew that he fantasized you and I saw him once masturbating looking at your photo. He loved you and desired you, however could not express his love to you. You were expecting him to seduce you? Padma, 'you should have sucked your son's cock like this to make him big, I said. 'Why you did not suck him?'
Shiva, Yes, I should have, I should have sucked his cock and make it bigger, but he did not show it to me like you have shown. See how big is yours like a horse's cock, you motherfucker. Talking about my son's desire to fuck me, you made me horny again. She took my cock in her hands and stroking, she said, he did not have such a big monstrous cock as yours to show and exhibit proudly so that even mother could not resist sucking. You are a stud and stallion. I wish my own son had a cock like this. You say that I should have fucked my son. Perhaps if he had such a big cock like yours I could have not resisted and got fucked him.
Shiva, Your monstrous and magnificent cock is always ready to fuck woman under any circumstances. Your cock is already erect and ready to enter and open me up again. You make any woman irrespective of their age, mother or grandmother open up and offer her cunt to enter her with your monstrous cock. I never imagined a man could have such a big cock as yours. I am happy that I have your cock.
Let me suck your cock, my son. Kneeling down, she took my cock into her hands kissed the beautiful big pink knob, she said, "Shiva, your cock is so big, enormous, magnificent, long, thick and beautiful. Your cock is so big like a horse's cock. You must have been a horse in earlier janma. She ran her tongue along the shaft, licked my scrotum and balls, then took my cock into her mouth and sucked. I allowed her to suck my cock for some time.
I took hold of her long hair and pulled her up, asked her to bend. She obeyed, bent, her ass high up, her legs and thighs spread wide, resting her hands on the bed, and her hair fell down on both sides of her shoulders touching the floor. Her juicy cunt spread wide, wet and inviting. It was erotic and exciting. I bent down and could smell her scent - the cunt of a horny woman. I licked her cunt, lapped and inserted my tongue into her cunt. I slurped up her cunt juice with loud noise. She doesn't just have a cunt between her legs. Every inch she is a cunt! And I mean it as in 'she is a hot, feminine, delicious, sexy, and I need to be eaten and fucked hard cunt.' She is a walking piece of sex! Her legs were spread wide despite her trying to close them and my mouth and nose were pressing into her labium. I could actually feel my face pressing ever so slightly inside her body!
She said, moaning, Oh, son, You are actually eating my cunt. I cannot wait. Fuck me my son, with your horse's cock.
I entered her juicy cunt holding her hips, doggy style, slowly firmly opening her cunt, deep filling her cunt to the bottom.
Oh! Shiva, you filled me up to my belly button. Fuck me hard. Fuck me, my son. I took her hair in my hands, holding her luxurious thick hair wrapped around my wrist pulling it with one hand and other hand holding her hip, I fucked leisurely enjoying each stroke. She was also enjoying immensely with her groaning throaty noise. She was like bitch in heat receiving, submitting her cunt for fucking.
"Oh god yes... fuck me Jim... fuck me hard... yeah, right there... oh god... I love your cock... Oooohhhh... fuck me..."
The tightness in her tummy increased as her release continued to build. Her head began to spin. Her pussy tightened around my cock. Padma bit her lip and started to shake. Her hands looked for something to grasp as though she needed to anchor her body to absorb the impact.
An explosion ripped through her pussy. Padma screamed out from the unbearable pleasure that surged through every muscle in her body. She gasped for air. Her body jerked hard, then again and again. My big cock continued to pound into her over and over. She could feel her pussy twitch and gush around my swollen girth.
She reached orgasm violently, I could feel her cunt muscles contracting and expanding, gripping my cock tightly, and her whole body in ecstatic spasms, her cunt muscles all of a sudden gripping my cock, squeezing my cock. I stood still, allowing her to enjoy the long drawn multiple orgasms and then allowed myself to ejaculate hot loads of thick juice filling her cunt.
Her orgasm didn't stop it just slowed. Juices streamed down her thighs. My hands moved up to her tits and pinched her nipples sending her off on another wave of uncontrollable spasms. It was almost surreal, as if Padma was standing outside her body watching my cock pound into her yet being able to feel it in every nerve ending in her pussy. When I finally pulled out it was almost a relief from the intense pleasure. At the same time her pussy felt empty.
We lay on the bed, I took her into my arms, and her head buried on to my chest, the she looked up into my eyes, expressing shyness, satisfaction and contentment.
She said, 'I want to have a son like you. 'I am fertile, I wish today you might have already impregnated me. Somehow, I feel it, because it is the right time for me.
I laughed and said, 'Amma, You are greedy. You mean You want to have my son with a big cock? I promise you I try my best to impregnate you to give you my son with big cock'
She smiled, 'You are a mother fucking son. Do not laugh. I do not mean that I also want to fuck our son'. Shiva, woman could feel safe, protected, satisfied and forever happy with you. You know how to make a woman happy and satisfied.'
It was the lunchtime and I was hungry.
I said, Padma I am hungry.
She smiled and said, 'you are always hungry to eat. Get some food to eat. Otherwise you will eat me again.'
I brought lunch for both of us from hostel mess. We both had a light lunch and she relaxed in my arms. I was sitting, her head resting on my lap while we were talking.
She was still concerned and confused about her inner contradictory, conflicting thoughts and feelings about her abnormal sinful behavior. She was trying to analyze and sort out her own psyche and behavior prompted by hidden desires. She was surprised at her own body responding to me with desire seeking and enjoying pleasure. Her mind as a mother feeling the pain having lost her son, at the same time her joy thinking about the experience she had with the young man in whose lap she was lying resting on her head. Why she was not feeling the acute pain a mother normally supposed to feel as everyone says when she loses her son? Is it because her sinful pleasure overshadowed her pain or his son was not a worthy man did not live up to her expectations? She was confused that she was experiencing intense pleasure instead of pain. Is it because she had such a unique, unbelievable, pleasurable experience on that day? She was not feeling pain or agony but feeling pleasure and satisfaction. The feelings of submission, attachment, love, togetherness, romance, fatal attraction overwhelmingly filled her mind overshadowing the pain, which surprised her.
I asked her, 'Padma, what if your husband see us like this now?'
'So what, if he see us now? he may think I am being consoled by you. I do not care even if he see us fucking. Actually he should watch me getting fucked by you. He should feel happy, finally his wife is getting fucked properly and thoroughly by a stud. He will thank you. He knows that I have been faithful to him all these years. It is you who made me like this-a slut, whore, tramp and what not.'
I said ' what if he objects?"
If he objects, I do not care. Will you take me as your mistress. I do not care what people say, she replied.
Someone knocked the door and I opened. It was Padma's husband. He looked at Padma, and said, Let us go down, you will see your son. We went down stairs to see her son's body lying in the vehicle in front of the hostel gate. She was allowed to see only her son's face briefly because the body turned black due to poisonous effect. She burst into tears. Her husband requested me to take care of her.
I took hold of her placing my hands on her shoulders protectively and brought her back to the room. Padma's husband followed us to the room and told her to travel by train, requested me accompany her to their hometown for which I agreed. He said, Please take care of her. He took Mohan's body by taxi, to their village. Our friends went to railway station to arrange train tickets for Padma and me.
Padma and I were again in the room. We were on the bed lying down, her head on my chest and my hands around her cuddling possessively. One of her legs was in between my legs interlocked. It was a caring, loving and protective cuddle to communicate reassurance of my love.
She was silent and after some time, said, Shiva, Do you really love me?
I hugged her tightly, and said, 'Padma, you are mine now.'
She smiled, 'I am yours and only yours. Surprisingly I do not feel that I am cheating my husband because I feel that I am your wife. I belong to you. It is like I have been waiting for you all these years, and now you found me, living with someone else temporarily. I should look beautiful to my man and want to take bath and shampoo my long hair which you love.'
I said, 'I would help you. Your husband left you with me and asked me to take care of you'
She said smilingly, 'my husband did not ask you to fuck me. Taking care does not include fucking, eating my cunt and bathing. You want to help me bathing. You are certainly a caring and romantic lover.'
She sat on a stool nude in the bathroom, her long hair touching the floor. I took her hair in my hands, poured warm water on her head and rinsed thoroughly twice. Poured shampoo lathered up her long hair from roots to ends in straight stroking motions running my fingers through her hair with care and love. I rinsed her hair twice thoroughly with normal water and opened the shower. I arranged her wet hair into a bun.
I applied soap on her body. Standing at the back and holding her huge hanging heavy breasts, slowly massaged her breasts from the bottom and with my fingers stroked her nipples. Her nipples became hard and engorged.
I said, Amma, You have beautiful big bouncing breasts, placing my hands under her breasts lifting them.
I soaped her face, lovingly cleaned with light massage. I soaped and cleaned her every inch and corner of her body with soap. Her nude curvaceous body was beautiful and erotic.
Shiva, You are so considerate and loving.
Soaping her beautiful thighs, and her cunt hair, I said, Padma, Your fat cunt lips are very sexy. your pubic hair is so thick and sexy. You do not shave your cunt and armpits.
No she said, 'I never shaved my pubic hair till now.'
I will do it now for you, I said.
I would enjoy that, but not now, Shiva, some other day, you are in a hurry to do everything possible now.
I asked her to stand, and soaped her thighs and legs, poured water and cleaned thoroughly including her ass. I cleaned her cunt hair and inserted fingers in her cunt. I kneeled down and kissed her cunt, clitoris and ass hole.
'Oh! God, Shiva, You are cleaning my ass hole too,' she said.
I started licking her cunt and inserted my tongue inside her cunt. She raised her leg placed on my shoulder and pressed my head with her hand. I devoured and ate her cunt, slurped up her cunt juice. She was ecstatic, and her cunt muscles quivered. I could feel the sensations of orgasms.
Padma, I really want to fuck you now.
Shiva, you ate my cunt and I can see that your cock is up and erect and ready. I want to you to fuck me. We shall get ready to go the station. Once you start fucking, you will never stop. You have me now. I am yours. You can do whatever you want later.
I oened the shower cleaned her body and washed her hair thoroughly, toweled her body. We came out of the room and dried her hair with a towel. She put on petticoat and a lacy bra, and stood in front of full-length mirror. I combed her hair carefully enjoying the feel of her long silky thick jet-black luxurious lustrous shining hair. Her hair became puffy, more voluminous was more beautiful.
Shiva, you are the first man to bathe me, eat my cunt and comb my hair and I am very happy to receive all your love.
I am at your service, Amma and I enjoy doing all these things for you, my sweet lovely baby. I took her into my arms, and kissed her. You look beautiful and sexy. I smelled her hair and said, 'arrange your hair into a braid'.
She said, 'I wish I can, but not now dear hubby, what everyone will think of me? 'I am not a wife travelling with husband on a pleasure trip. I am a grieving mother and should dress and behave like one in public.
'No one in the train will know that you are a grieving mother and our relationship, especially strangers once we are in the train, Padma, you look sexy when you arrange your hair into a bun. You look sexier and much younger if you arrange your hair into a braid or in ponytail or leave it loose, I said.
I took her to the bed and made her sit on my lap, her flowing hair spread on the bed and touching the floor.
She smiled, what people unknown to us think if they see you and me in this position.
Padma, my dear sweet darling, It depends on their imagination. They may assume that you are my loving wife or we are lovers having a secret steamy extramarital illicit affair. Some may also think that we are mother and son or aunty and nephew or brother and sister or brother and sister=in-law, or mother and son-in-law having extramarital affair, illicit incestuous immoral taboo sinful sex.
'Do I look young enough to be your wife, Shiva? You are saying that only to make me happy. I look definitely elder to you. People may think that I am a sex-starved slut having extramarital illicit affair with an young stud and lover boy to get fucked, I am of your mother's age. If any of your friends see us now, they think that I am a crazy sexy slut nymphomaniac to be fucked by you especially today.' she said.
You definitely look younger than your actual age. You are an ageless angelic beauty. Some women like you look more beautiful, sexier, glamorous, gorgeous, and desirable as they mature. Women like you are like wine. They taste better as they mature. If you arrange your long beautiful hair in a braid adorned with jasmine flowers, you look definitely young enough to be my sweet darling, adorable and loving wife. However, age does not matter when a man and woman are in deep love.
Shiva, you are chivalrous, romantic man and know how to win a girl's heart. I wish you were my husband. I want to be your wife. Do you love me and take me as your wife permanently. Even if I divorce my husband and then marry you, people may think I am crazy to marry my son's friend. I don't mind if people come to know about our relationship and call me your mistress. Actually, I will be happy and it will be more exciting, if people call me your mistress. The best way to keep you as my resident stud love is to adapt you as my son. You can fuck my daughter-in-law and me every day.
Yes, my sweet darling, I want you to be mine, my wife, my lover, my mistress forever. I felt you belong to me, the first time I saw you. I possess you and I want you forever. I will marry you if you divorce your husband.
Shiva, You know that marriage between us is not possible. I want you to be my son and fuck me. You are an incestuous mother fucking son. She got up and said, Shiva I think we should get ready. I wish we had more time together. Shiva, tomorrow I will not be able to spend time with you at my house.
'I wish we can stay here forever, I want time to freeze. I know it will be difficult for us to see each other at your home with so many people around. Everyone will be coming to meet you to offer condolences', I said.
'Shiva, I do not know what my husband will tell people, definitely not the fact. Perhaps we shall tell people that he met with an accident. I will find a way for us to meet in my house,' she said.
'Did you discuss about me with my son. Did you tell my son, that you love his mother, about your love and desire for me and you want to fuck his mother? Did you actually discuss about me with my son.' She asked.
I said, 'How could I? I could not tell your son explicitly that I want to fuck you, but he knew or guessed from the way we were flirting during wedding ceremony and were later on talking on phone. Whenever he made a call to you, you enquired about me and asked to give phone to me so that you could talk to me. He was there while I was talking with you. He also noticed me following you during and after the marriage ceremony.'
I said, 'Padma, He asked me when we were looking at his wedding albums, 'Do you like my mother so much? I observed that you were always flirting with her during my wedding ceremony. You were standing next to her so closely always in the photographs as if you both were husband and wife. You were always there with my mom'
I said, 'yes, I like her. She is an extraordinarily beautiful woman, hesitated to say further for a while.
Mohan said, Please continue, say whatever you want to say.'
I said, 'she is very sexy and I like your mother.'
When I said that your son was not angry or upset, he just gave mischievous smile and said, "I know she is sexy. I am happy that you like her so much. He asked me to accompany him during the ensuing holidays. He said, 'She has been eagerly waiting for you. You will have enough time and opportunity to be with her. Both of you were like love birds. My mother actually asked me to bring you along with me. She has been eagerly waiting to meet you. I know that she likes you and is very fond of you.' Shiva, Tell me. Do you like her so much and you think she is sexy? He asked me.
I said to him, 'I love her, she is sexy'.
He said, 'I guessed and noticed that, the way you both were spending time together like love birds during and after my wedding ceremony. I have never seen her so happy and exuberant with any other man in all these years except with you. She likes you. She is like an young girl fell in love with you. She has been always enquiring about you, and asking me to bring you along with me during the holidays, whenever she talks to me on phone. Shiva, I want my mother to be happy.'
She said, 'Shiva, Did you actually say that 'you love me' to my son? 'I am surprised that he knew about my feelings of love and desire for you and approved. I just told him to bring you along with him during the holidays. Was it so obvious in my voice when I talk about you that I am deeply in love with you. Did he think that I asked him to bring you along with him, to get fucked by you. We do not know what he really thought about you and me. We will never know. He told me that he would bring you along with him to stay with me. Did he tell you anything else?
He said, you will be happy with me. He wanted you to be happy. He told me 'You will have time to spend with my mother when we visit our house. Make her happy.' Your son thought that I am the suitable lover to fuck his mother. He indicated that he saw us during the wedding ceremonies and noticed that we were attracted to each other. You were happy with me.' It was obvious he wanted us to meet and mate.
Shiva, 'It sounds like 'animal mating'. Do you mean he really wanted you to fuck me?' Did he say that or imply that he wanted you to fuck me?
Yes, Padma, He implied that he wants me to fuck you and make you happy.
Oh! God! He knew it. Shiva, Did he know that I have been asking him to bring you along with him to our home to get fucked by you? Did he think that I need a young man like you to get fucked. Yes, I am like a cow in a mating period and I need to be fucked by a stud like you. It is crazy, thrilling and very much exciting to know that my son knew my desire for you and wanted you to fuck me. Did I look like a woman who has to be fucked by a stallion like you to my son? Perhaps he thought that you are a perfect stud and stallion for mating and fucking his sexy slut mother,' 'Did he think that I am a slut,' she said lifting her leg placing on my back and thrusting her mound. 'It is exciting to know that my son wanted you to fuck me.' He must have thought that I am sexually unsatisfied slut. Since he could not fuck me he selected and invited you to be my lover. I am also happy to know that my son approves our fucking and must have been eagerly waiting to see me happily fucked by you.
Shiva, 'do you think I am an amoral, amorous, cock crazy, concupiscent, debauched, depraved, iniquitous, insane, horny, kinky, incestuous, lascivious, lecherous, libidinous, lubricious, yearning, unethical, sex starved sizzling slut actively arousing, encouraging, inviting, indulging, seeking, giving, sharing and receiving carnal animalistic sexual pleasure to quench my sexual desires instead of feeling sorrow and pain, satisfying my desire instead of feeling depressed, satisfying my lust instead of lamenting, moaning with pleasure instead of mourning, cooing and crooning instead of crying, groaning instead of grieving, squirting instead of sobbing, rejoicing instead of refusing, wallowing instead of weeping, offering my cunt instead of objecting, opening up my cunt like a slut and giving myself shamelessly to an young man who wants to share my pain and agony, comfort and console me, young enough to be my son, on this fateful and sorrowful day when my son is dead and his cold lifeless body lying in a mortuary?'
Here I am in the arms of my dream man, my god. I opened and submitted myself completely shamelessly uninhibitedly surrendered to you like a slut, offering and opening myself and my cunt to my son's friend, a young man of my son's age, immensely enjoying being fucked thoroughly by your monstrous cock and enjoying carnal sinful pleasure of being fucked thoroughly like a cow ready for mating.' Shiva, I behaved like a selfish, self-centered self-indulgent slut, pleasure seeking wanton woman with carnal desire. Do I deserve to receive and enjoy such love, heavenly pleasure and feel happy especially today?
I listened to her every word attentively and fascinated by her feelings as she revealed her inner most thoughts. It was as if she was pouring out her feelings and inner most thoughts, she was afraid of admitting to herself in the form of words loudly. She continued her monologue, pouring out her feelings. It was like catharsis and abreaction. She was in the process of self-analyzing, self-criticizing, absolution, purification and seeking my approval of her behavior, trying to absolve herself from guilt conscious.
Amma, do not criticize yourself. You are not guilty. We have not committed any sin. There is no reason for you to blame yourself. You have not done anything wrong to feel guilty or blame yourself. Because energy knots from emotional wounds are found in the area of the body where feelings are held and processed and also associated with sexuality the sacred intimacy and sexual healing process uses sexual energy to reveal, clear, and release any "energy knots" The conscious activation of these energy knots allows the previous pent-up energy to flow naturally and return the receiver to vitality and full experience of their sexuality. The benefits of which are: less stress, fear and anxiety while adding greater self-awareness and capacity for intimacy in relationship. Breath, sensual touch, movement, sound and visualization create opportunities for discovery, release, and integration of the contracted energy knots, emotional wounds, or desperate feelings.
Amma, with the right partner the Receiver can relax and open to the wisdom of the body and spirit to direct the session's experience. For the Giver, it takes an understanding of the partner's needs with sincere intention and steadfast attentive presence to create the safe and sacred container where the partner feels safe and able to relax and open up within.
Amma, When experienced regularly, Sacred Intimacy sessions allow a person to stay in-touch with developing feelings while discovering previously hidden sources of compulsive behavior or unconscious motivation and clear or release what wants to be let go of, process and integrate disparate feelings —while providing more clarity and deeper connection in relationship not to mention personal understanding and empowerment. Amma, what you have experienced is called sexual healing.
Shiva, Have I not committed ultimate unpardonable sin fucking today? Is it not forbidden to get fucked today? When you hugged me, involuntarily my breasts became bigger and full with love to feed you. I wanted my breasts sucked and emptied by you. Surprisingly, I lactated when you sucked my breasts. I experienced pleasure similar to the higher state of bliss and pleasure achieved in yoga or meditation. You opened, filled and stretched my cunt completely. Shiva, I am surprised at myself submitting my body, to be fucked by you, opening all my pores experiencing the bliss, ultimate joy uninhibitedly and endlessly such an intense pleasure having continuous multiple endless orgasms hitherto unknown to me. You ignited fire in my mind and body and I could not help but melt in your indulging and intimate embrace and kissing. You made me forget all inhibitions, moral ethics and indulge in forbidden, sinful, abandoned and taboo sex.
Shiva, I did not object, rather I welcomed, and submitted to you willingly and uninhibitedly. Don't you think that I should have objected.
Yes, Amma, I thought you would object. I was afraid that you would chide me while I was hugging and pressing my cock against you. You did not object. You reciprocated willingly with equal enthusiasm and eagerness when you felt hardness of my cock and hugged me tightly.
Any sane woman would have got offended, objected, avoided, refused fucking today. If our fucking happened on any other day it is different. Why did I not object? You may also think I am insane. I have to tell you that I was thinking of you yesterday night while travelling, recalled our first meeting and mutual fatal attraction we had, knowing we will meet today. I am glad that I did not object. However I did not imagine that we will have such a romantic passionate mating. I submitted and surrendered to you, despite strange and unbelievable circumstances, I now feel happy and lucky that you fucked and made me orgasm thrice continuously in one fucking session, which I never knew or imagined I could experience. Your cock is so big that you almost raped me. It is so intensive that all my juices have been drained out. I never imagined that a woman can have such continuous multiple intense orgasms.
'Shiva, Is it not insane and sin to get fucked by you and experience such incredible pleasures today?'
Padma, it is not a sin to have passionate sex and pleasure on any day, even today. Time and place does not matter. Sex is beautiful and divine experience. We enjoyed the experience. If it is a sin, let it be. It is necessary sin for us. We both committed the pleasurable sin. We should continue to have pleasures of sin.
Shiva, 'Do you think so? Getting fucked by you may not be a sin. But, It is definitely immoral and unethical to have an extramarital affair with an young man of my son's age. Is not a sin that a mother getting fucked by her son's friend on the day even before the funeral when her son is dead and his body is lying on cold slab in a mortuary? What can be more sinful act that a mother can commit on a day like this? If someone else comes to know about what happened now between us, they would think that I am an amoral, indecent, insatiable, selfish, sinful, sex hungry horny slut, cock crazy unethical bitch and a wanton whore. People may even think that I am a sex maniac, having abnormal psyche seduced you, an young man that too her son's best friend. They may think I am a slut having many lovers. They may think that we have been lovers having extramarital affair and you have been fucking me for years, and I could not wait to get fucked by you today. I would not have imagined and definitely not endorsed if someone else tells me such incident could happen. Tell me Shiva, 'what do you think of me honestly. Am I not an immoral and unethical slut? Tell me, Shiva that I am your slut only''
Padma, You may be called immoral and unethical for cheating your husband. 'You are a lovely sex goddess an angel. You have denied yourself having sexual pleasure so long. I suggest you should unnecessarily not worry about what others will think of us. No one will know. We will not be telling the world. What happened today is between you and me and important to us. It is divine intervention. We love each other. We are definitely not abnormal, crazy, immoral and unethical. You and I are perfectly normal people who are madly in love with each other. We want to experience, enjoy and have each other. We did not imagine that we would meet again in such circumstances. We have not done anything to be ashamed. What happened today is natural and normal expression of loving, romantic passionate union and unique expression of love between us. We have been in love with each other ever since we met for the first time. We are soul mates. We are made for each other. We are perfect couple. We have been in love with each other ever since we met. We have been waiting to meet again and today we have met. It really does not matter that I am younger to you and happens to be your son's friend. It might be divine interference that we should make love today, especially today.
Shiva, Do you think that our inevitable meeting and mating today is because of divine intervention. I think it is your intervention. I have been dreaming about you. Today you have become my God and Master.
Amma, I am not a stranger to you. We have been in love with each other ever since we met first time. We are soul mates. We have been lovers ever since. You being married, and being mother of my best friend does not change my affection, desire and love for you. It is extramarital. Yes. It may be unethical and immoral to have sex with an young man other than your husband as per societal standards.
Padma, People may also obviously assume that I have taken undue advantage of a helpless grieving mother, misused the opportunity and in the name of showing empathy and consoling seduced you and fucked you. But I feel that I have to do it.
Amma, 'today your long awaited love and dormant desires flared up. I understand, your desire after losing your son, your need to have your son back in you, especially now, you want your son in you, you wanted to take him back into your body. You see your son in me. Since you could not take him back into you, you have opened yourself to me, desired me and invited me to enter you, taken me into you, allowed me to enter your open cunt, to explore your depths, your body and soul, receiving me into you and opening up for me. Your abundant love for your son and pent up sexual desire simmering like volcano for a long time as a woman prompted you to have a man to fill you and fulfill you.
Shiva, You only can understand me completely, my inner thoughts, appreciate my feelings and know my mind so well, Shiva you have put my feelings into words so clearly and succulently better than I could have expressed. You make me confess, pour out my secret desires and dreams. I need you. I have been waiting for you to satisfy my desires, to share and shower my love and to make my dreams come true. It happened on this peculiar day in an unbelievable way.
Shiva, I would have definitely submitted and surrendered myself to you, invited you to have me, had there been an occasion to meet you again, after our first meeting. If you had stayed one more day after the wedding I would have definitely invited you and offered myself to you. You would have fucked me. Today, the loss of my son triggered both my motherly instinct and long awaited desire for you, actually flared up when you hugged and kissed me showering love. I was not thinking, It so happened in such a natural way. You did not give me a chance even to sort out my feelings. You excited me to an uncontrollable state of desire and I was ready and in urgent need to take you into me. Your kissing me with so much love flared up my desire. You entered me, opened me and filled me with your cock. It was like you actually opened me psychologically and physically today.
I would have come into your arms instantly the moment we meet second time in normal circumstances. You have become my god and my religion. I have been thinking of you, about you, about us ever since I saw you. Even yesterday night while travelling all through journey, I thought of you, knowing that you will be there to meet me with your handsome personality, charming chivalrous confident attitude. I remembered our first meeting and I am not ashamed to confess to you that I had feelings of anticipation, sexual tension, feeling of pining, a deliciously uncomfortable sensation that was both exciting and excruciating. Instead of feelings of depression, I was expecting you to be with me when I arrive here. Ever since our first meeting I was expecting you would take me and fuck me in the second meeting. Oblivious of today's circumstances disregarding logic and reason, in my mind I was expecting that you would take me. I was surprised at my own self having such thoughts. The moment I got down from the car, I was relieved to see you and instantly came into your strong protective arms, as if it was the most natural thing to do. I was upset and angry with my son, knowing the reason of his death was that he could not fuck his wife. He could have taken help, undergone medical treatment and could have been cured of his ED problem. I was angry with my husband because he passed on his weak genes. Despite of having anger, grief and helplessness your thoughts surrounded me. I remembered your charming, confident, handsome, masculine, irresistible personality. In the night, while travelling, I recalled feeling your male hardness pressing against my hips when you stood behind me during the wedding ceremony, which excited me and aroused me. I did not expect this intense spark of chemistry and romantic love and lust leading to amazing sexual experience and satisfaction because I did know such heavenly experience of continuous orgasms can exist.
Shiva, 'Would you have fucked to console any other woman in similar situation, if it is not me. Would you have fucked your own mother in similar circumstances?'
Why did you stay back with me, when all your friends went to the Hospital.
Padma, it is a strange and hypothetical question. Every circumstance is unique. Perhaps I would have fucked any other woman to console, even my mother, if the woman responds like you have to my touch, hugging and cuddling. I would have fucked my own mother or any other woman too without any inhibition to heal them sexually. However, I never felt such an intense strong desire to fuck and love at first sight with any other woman, except you. For me Love between a man and woman means fuck. I do not believe in so called platonic relationship between a man and woman.
Padma, the first time we met I felt that we knew each other for a long time, , longing and waiting to meet, know of each other's existence, familiar with each other, and know about each other intimately for many years but separated by unknown forces. Perhaps our relationship extends beyond this life, existing for so many janmas. Perhaps you were my wife, mother, sister, niece, friend or lover in earlier janmas. It might be you are related to me one way or other in each reincarnation. I feel we have been waiting for an occasion to meet and unite. Padma, Sex is sacred and not a sin. Sex has to be considered as a beautiful unique positive expression of the life force.
She said, 'you are right. 'I also had similar feelings that I know you for a long time. You are an expert in mind reading and understanding others' inner feelings.
Shiva, "At the moment of orgasm I knew that I was in a great, golden light and I experienced myself as transparent, luminous energy. I saw seven star-like, golden, swirling points that lined up in my body. My energy centers looked like radiant golden lights in my body. Every inch of my body undergone blissful experience "
Padma, what you had visualized was the life force freely flowing through all seven energy centers that were illuminated and energized by your orgasm. Very few people can have such spiritual sexual experience and spontaneous ecstatic experiences like you. To have such experience repeatedly is rare and eternal.
Shiva, you gave me the ultimate unimaginable experience, you are my Lord and Master. I am your slave, dasi, bhaktha.
Shiva, thinking of my son, I should have helped my son with love. I could have taught him to fuck. It is so simple, because he could not fuck his wife during first three nights, and subsequently when they were together, he must have thought he was impotent. He came back to college probably depressed and frustrated. He should have told you, being his best friend.
Was he completely impotent? How do you know Amma?
He thought so. Perhaps he was. He wrote an apologetic letter to his wife, a week back and she showed it to me. I was planning to talk to him, help him fuck me with love, if necessary and he would have learnt how to fuck a woman. "He should have told me, come to me, I would have made his cock big and hard. She took my cock into her hands stroking it and said, 'He could have fucked me. I would have helped him enter my cunt and fuck me. I would have taught him how to fuck a woman. Why he did not share with me, talk to me in confidence, he knows I love him. I would have encouraged him to fuck me.
Padma, now I understand and guess he wanted to fuck you. He was in love with you. He used to see your photo album and admire your beauty. He saw you in his wife and wanted her to love him, and wanted her to show love and affection like a mother, fondle him like a lover, and make his cock erect and bigger, help him to enter her, guide him with love, and take him, his cock into her and fuck him like a mother. But he could not tell her and he could not fuck her unless she makes him big and hard lovingly. Padma, tell me honestly, you would have offered yourself to your son and fucked by him, had he expressed his desire?
Shiva, honestly yes, I would have fucked him. Had I known that he wants to fuck me, I would not have hesitated to fuck him though it is taboo and incest. I would have helped make his cock erect and bigger to fuck me. I should have known his desire for me. I should have fucked him to save his life.
Padma, he might have expected you to do just that, take the lead, initiate him lovingly, make his cock erect and bigger, seduce and fuck him. He desired you, wanted to fuck you or wanted you fuck him. He could not express his feelings to you because of taboo. He wanted you to know his feelings and initiate him. He was waiting for you to take his cock into your cunt. He was waiting for you to fuck him. He might have been afraid of expressing his desire for you and could not do so fearing your rejection and losing your motherly love too. you should have fucked him.
Shiva, how can I take the lead and intimate him being his mother? You know very well that a woman always wants and waits for the man to take the lead, initiate, seduce, praise and woo her to submit and make love. My son should have treated me like his girl friend and seduced me. You are an expert in this art of seducing and fucking women. You should have advised your friend that he should treat his mother like his girl friend, seduce and fuck his mother.
Yes. Padma, I know what a woman wants. Woman, whatever their age wants caring, to be treated like a young girl during the process of seduction and courtship. Do you mean that I should have advised your son to seduce and fuck you? I knew that he fantasized you and I saw him once masturbating looking at your photo. He loved you and desired you, however could not express his love to you. You were expecting him to seduce you? Padma, 'you should have sucked your son's cock like this to make him big, I said. 'Why you did not suck him?'
Shiva, Yes, I should have, I should have sucked his cock and make it bigger, but he did not show it to me like you have shown. See how big is yours like a horse's cock, you motherfucker. Talking about my son's desire to fuck me, you made me horny again. She took my cock in her hands and stroking, she said, he did not have such a big monstrous cock as yours to show and exhibit proudly so that even mother could not resist sucking. You are a stud and stallion. I wish my own son had a cock like this. You say that I should have fucked my son. Perhaps if he had such a big cock like yours I could have not resisted and got fucked him.
Shiva, Your monstrous and magnificent cock is always ready to fuck woman under any circumstances. Your cock is already erect and ready to enter and open me up again. You make any woman irrespective of their age, mother or grandmother open up and offer her cunt to enter her with your monstrous cock. I never imagined a man could have such a big cock as yours. I am happy that I have your cock.
Let me suck your cock, my son. Kneeling down, she took my cock into her hands kissed the beautiful big pink knob, she said, "Shiva, your cock is so big, enormous, magnificent, long, thick and beautiful. Your cock is so big like a horse's cock. You must have been a horse in earlier janma. She ran her tongue along the shaft, licked my scrotum and balls, then took my cock into her mouth and sucked. I allowed her to suck my cock for some time.
I took hold of her long hair and pulled her up, asked her to bend. She obeyed, bent, her ass high up, her legs and thighs spread wide, resting her hands on the bed, and her hair fell down on both sides of her shoulders touching the floor. Her juicy cunt spread wide, wet and inviting. It was erotic and exciting. I bent down and could smell her scent - the cunt of a horny woman. I licked her cunt, lapped and inserted my tongue into her cunt. I slurped up her cunt juice with loud noise. She doesn't just have a cunt between her legs. Every inch she is a cunt! And I mean it as in 'she is a hot, feminine, delicious, sexy, and I need to be eaten and fucked hard cunt.' She is a walking piece of sex! Her legs were spread wide despite her trying to close them and my mouth and nose were pressing into her labium. I could actually feel my face pressing ever so slightly inside her body!
She said, moaning, Oh, son, You are actually eating my cunt. I cannot wait. Fuck me my son, with your horse's cock.
I entered her juicy cunt holding her hips, doggy style, slowly firmly opening her cunt, deep filling her cunt to the bottom.
Oh! Shiva, you filled me up to my belly button. Fuck me hard. Fuck me, my son. I took her hair in my hands, holding her luxurious thick hair wrapped around my wrist pulling it with one hand and other hand holding her hip, I fucked leisurely enjoying each stroke. She was also enjoying immensely with her groaning throaty noise. She was like bitch in heat receiving, submitting her cunt for fucking.
"Oh god yes... fuck me Jim... fuck me hard... yeah, right there... oh god... I love your cock... Oooohhhh... fuck me..."
The tightness in her tummy increased as her release continued to build. Her head began to spin. Her pussy tightened around my cock. Padma bit her lip and started to shake. Her hands looked for something to grasp as though she needed to anchor her body to absorb the impact.
An explosion ripped through her pussy. Padma screamed out from the unbearable pleasure that surged through every muscle in her body. She gasped for air. Her body jerked hard, then again and again. My big cock continued to pound into her over and over. She could feel her pussy twitch and gush around my swollen girth.
She reached orgasm violently, I could feel her cunt muscles contracting and expanding, gripping my cock tightly, and her whole body in ecstatic spasms, her cunt muscles all of a sudden gripping my cock, squeezing my cock. I stood still, allowing her to enjoy the long drawn multiple orgasms and then allowed myself to ejaculate hot loads of thick juice filling her cunt.
Her orgasm didn't stop it just slowed. Juices streamed down her thighs. My hands moved up to her tits and pinched her nipples sending her off on another wave of uncontrollable spasms. It was almost surreal, as if Padma was standing outside her body watching my cock pound into her yet being able to feel it in every nerve ending in her pussy. When I finally pulled out it was almost a relief from the intense pleasure. At the same time her pussy felt empty.
We lay on the bed, I took her into my arms, and her head buried on to my chest, the she looked up into my eyes, expressing shyness, satisfaction and contentment.
She said, 'I want to have a son like you. 'I am fertile, I wish today you might have already impregnated me. Somehow, I feel it, because it is the right time for me.
I laughed and said, 'Amma, You are greedy. You mean You want to have my son with a big cock? I promise you I try my best to impregnate you to give you my son with big cock'
She smiled, 'You are a mother fucking son. Do not laugh. I do not mean that I also want to fuck our son'. Shiva, woman could feel safe, protected, satisfied and forever happy with you. You know how to make a woman happy and satisfied.'
It was the lunchtime and I was hungry.
I said, Padma I am hungry.
She smiled and said, 'you are always hungry to eat. Get some food to eat. Otherwise you will eat me again.'
I brought lunch for both of us from hostel mess. We both had a light lunch and she relaxed in my arms. I was sitting, her head resting on my lap while we were talking.
She was still concerned and confused about her inner contradictory, conflicting thoughts and feelings about her abnormal sinful behavior. She was trying to analyze and sort out her own psyche and behavior prompted by hidden desires. She was surprised at her own body responding to me with desire seeking and enjoying pleasure. Her mind as a mother feeling the pain having lost her son, at the same time her joy thinking about the experience she had with the young man in whose lap she was lying resting on her head. Why she was not feeling the acute pain a mother normally supposed to feel as everyone says when she loses her son? Is it because her sinful pleasure overshadowed her pain or his son was not a worthy man did not live up to her expectations? She was confused that she was experiencing intense pleasure instead of pain. Is it because she had such a unique, unbelievable, pleasurable experience on that day? She was not feeling pain or agony but feeling pleasure and satisfaction. The feelings of submission, attachment, love, togetherness, romance, fatal attraction overwhelmingly filled her mind overshadowing the pain, which surprised her.
I asked her, 'Padma, what if your husband see us like this now?'
'So what, if he see us now? he may think I am being consoled by you. I do not care even if he see us fucking. Actually he should watch me getting fucked by you. He should feel happy, finally his wife is getting fucked properly and thoroughly by a stud. He will thank you. He knows that I have been faithful to him all these years. It is you who made me like this-a slut, whore, tramp and what not.'
I said ' what if he objects?"
If he objects, I do not care. Will you take me as your mistress. I do not care what people say, she replied.
Someone knocked the door and I opened. It was Padma's husband. He looked at Padma, and said, Let us go down, you will see your son. We went down stairs to see her son's body lying in the vehicle in front of the hostel gate. She was allowed to see only her son's face briefly because the body turned black due to poisonous effect. She burst into tears. Her husband requested me to take care of her.
I took hold of her placing my hands on her shoulders protectively and brought her back to the room. Padma's husband followed us to the room and told her to travel by train, requested me accompany her to their hometown for which I agreed. He said, Please take care of her. He took Mohan's body by taxi, to their village. Our friends went to railway station to arrange train tickets for Padma and me.
Padma and I were again in the room. We were on the bed lying down, her head on my chest and my hands around her cuddling possessively. One of her legs was in between my legs interlocked. It was a caring, loving and protective cuddle to communicate reassurance of my love.
She was silent and after some time, said, Shiva, Do you really love me?
I hugged her tightly, and said, 'Padma, you are mine now.'
She smiled, 'I am yours and only yours. Surprisingly I do not feel that I am cheating my husband because I feel that I am your wife. I belong to you. It is like I have been waiting for you all these years, and now you found me, living with someone else temporarily. I should look beautiful to my man and want to take bath and shampoo my long hair which you love.'
I said, 'I would help you. Your husband left you with me and asked me to take care of you'
She said smilingly, 'my husband did not ask you to fuck me. Taking care does not include fucking, eating my cunt and bathing. You want to help me bathing. You are certainly a caring and romantic lover.'
She sat on a stool nude in the bathroom, her long hair touching the floor. I took her hair in my hands, poured warm water on her head and rinsed thoroughly twice. Poured shampoo lathered up her long hair from roots to ends in straight stroking motions running my fingers through her hair with care and love. I rinsed her hair twice thoroughly with normal water and opened the shower. I arranged her wet hair into a bun.
I applied soap on her body. Standing at the back and holding her huge hanging heavy breasts, slowly massaged her breasts from the bottom and with my fingers stroked her nipples. Her nipples became hard and engorged.
I said, Amma, You have beautiful big bouncing breasts, placing my hands under her breasts lifting them.
I soaped her face, lovingly cleaned with light massage. I soaped and cleaned her every inch and corner of her body with soap. Her nude curvaceous body was beautiful and erotic.
Shiva, You are so considerate and loving.
Soaping her beautiful thighs, and her cunt hair, I said, Padma, Your fat cunt lips are very sexy. your pubic hair is so thick and sexy. You do not shave your cunt and armpits.
No she said, 'I never shaved my pubic hair till now.'
I will do it now for you, I said.
I would enjoy that, but not now, Shiva, some other day, you are in a hurry to do everything possible now.
I asked her to stand, and soaped her thighs and legs, poured water and cleaned thoroughly including her ass. I cleaned her cunt hair and inserted fingers in her cunt. I kneeled down and kissed her cunt, clitoris and ass hole.
'Oh! God, Shiva, You are cleaning my ass hole too,' she said.
I started licking her cunt and inserted my tongue inside her cunt. She raised her leg placed on my shoulder and pressed my head with her hand. I devoured and ate her cunt, slurped up her cunt juice. She was ecstatic, and her cunt muscles quivered. I could feel the sensations of orgasms.
Padma, I really want to fuck you now.
Shiva, you ate my cunt and I can see that your cock is up and erect and ready. I want to you to fuck me. We shall get ready to go the station. Once you start fucking, you will never stop. You have me now. I am yours. You can do whatever you want later.
I oened the shower cleaned her body and washed her hair thoroughly, toweled her body. We came out of the room and dried her hair with a towel. She put on petticoat and a lacy bra, and stood in front of full-length mirror. I combed her hair carefully enjoying the feel of her long silky thick jet-black luxurious lustrous shining hair. Her hair became puffy, more voluminous was more beautiful.
Shiva, you are the first man to bathe me, eat my cunt and comb my hair and I am very happy to receive all your love.
I am at your service, Amma and I enjoy doing all these things for you, my sweet lovely baby. I took her into my arms, and kissed her. You look beautiful and sexy. I smelled her hair and said, 'arrange your hair into a braid'.
She said, 'I wish I can, but not now dear hubby, what everyone will think of me? 'I am not a wife travelling with husband on a pleasure trip. I am a grieving mother and should dress and behave like one in public.
'No one in the train will know that you are a grieving mother and our relationship, especially strangers once we are in the train, Padma, you look sexy when you arrange your hair into a bun. You look sexier and much younger if you arrange your hair into a braid or in ponytail or leave it loose, I said.
I took her to the bed and made her sit on my lap, her flowing hair spread on the bed and touching the floor.
She smiled, what people unknown to us think if they see you and me in this position.
Padma, my dear sweet darling, It depends on their imagination. They may assume that you are my loving wife or we are lovers having a secret steamy extramarital illicit affair. Some may also think that we are mother and son or aunty and nephew or brother and sister or brother and sister=in-law, or mother and son-in-law having extramarital affair, illicit incestuous immoral taboo sinful sex.
'Do I look young enough to be your wife, Shiva? You are saying that only to make me happy. I look definitely elder to you. People may think that I am a sex-starved slut having extramarital illicit affair with an young stud and lover boy to get fucked, I am of your mother's age. If any of your friends see us now, they think that I am a crazy sexy slut nymphomaniac to be fucked by you especially today.' she said.
You definitely look younger than your actual age. You are an ageless angelic beauty. Some women like you look more beautiful, sexier, glamorous, gorgeous, and desirable as they mature. Women like you are like wine. They taste better as they mature. If you arrange your long beautiful hair in a braid adorned with jasmine flowers, you look definitely young enough to be my sweet darling, adorable and loving wife. However, age does not matter when a man and woman are in deep love.
Shiva, you are chivalrous, romantic man and know how to win a girl's heart. I wish you were my husband. I want to be your wife. Do you love me and take me as your wife permanently. Even if I divorce my husband and then marry you, people may think I am crazy to marry my son's friend. I don't mind if people come to know about our relationship and call me your mistress. Actually, I will be happy and it will be more exciting, if people call me your mistress. The best way to keep you as my resident stud love is to adapt you as my son. You can fuck my daughter-in-law and me every day.
Yes, my sweet darling, I want you to be mine, my wife, my lover, my mistress forever. I felt you belong to me, the first time I saw you. I possess you and I want you forever. I will marry you if you divorce your husband.
Shiva, You know that marriage between us is not possible. I want you to be my son and fuck me. You are an incestuous mother fucking son. She got up and said, Shiva I think we should get ready. I wish we had more time together. Shiva, tomorrow I will not be able to spend time with you at my house.
'I wish we can stay here forever, I want time to freeze. I know it will be difficult for us to see each other at your home with so many people around. Everyone will be coming to meet you to offer condolences', I said.
'Shiva, I do not know what my husband will tell people, definitely not the fact. Perhaps we shall tell people that he met with an accident. I will find a way for us to meet in my house,' she said.
'Did you discuss about me with my son. Did you tell my son, that you love his mother, about your love and desire for me and you want to fuck his mother? Did you actually discuss about me with my son.' She asked.
I said, 'How could I? I could not tell your son explicitly that I want to fuck you, but he knew or guessed from the way we were flirting during wedding ceremony and were later on talking on phone. Whenever he made a call to you, you enquired about me and asked to give phone to me so that you could talk to me. He was there while I was talking with you. He also noticed me following you during and after the marriage ceremony.'
I said, 'Padma, He asked me when we were looking at his wedding albums, 'Do you like my mother so much? I observed that you were always flirting with her during my wedding ceremony. You were standing next to her so closely always in the photographs as if you both were husband and wife. You were always there with my mom'
I said, 'yes, I like her. She is an extraordinarily beautiful woman, hesitated to say further for a while.
Mohan said, Please continue, say whatever you want to say.'
I said, 'she is very sexy and I like your mother.'
When I said that your son was not angry or upset, he just gave mischievous smile and said, "I know she is sexy. I am happy that you like her so much. He asked me to accompany him during the ensuing holidays. He said, 'She has been eagerly waiting for you. You will have enough time and opportunity to be with her. Both of you were like love birds. My mother actually asked me to bring you along with me. She has been eagerly waiting to meet you. I know that she likes you and is very fond of you.' Shiva, Tell me. Do you like her so much and you think she is sexy? He asked me.
I said to him, 'I love her, she is sexy'.
He said, 'I guessed and noticed that, the way you both were spending time together like love birds during and after my wedding ceremony. I have never seen her so happy and exuberant with any other man in all these years except with you. She likes you. She is like an young girl fell in love with you. She has been always enquiring about you, and asking me to bring you along with me during the holidays, whenever she talks to me on phone. Shiva, I want my mother to be happy.'
She said, 'Shiva, Did you actually say that 'you love me' to my son? 'I am surprised that he knew about my feelings of love and desire for you and approved. I just told him to bring you along with him during the holidays. Was it so obvious in my voice when I talk about you that I am deeply in love with you. Did he think that I asked him to bring you along with him, to get fucked by you. We do not know what he really thought about you and me. We will never know. He told me that he would bring you along with him to stay with me. Did he tell you anything else?
He said, you will be happy with me. He wanted you to be happy. He told me 'You will have time to spend with my mother when we visit our house. Make her happy.' Your son thought that I am the suitable lover to fuck his mother. He indicated that he saw us during the wedding ceremonies and noticed that we were attracted to each other. You were happy with me.' It was obvious he wanted us to meet and mate.
Shiva, 'It sounds like 'animal mating'. Do you mean he really wanted you to fuck me?' Did he say that or imply that he wanted you to fuck me?
Yes, Padma, He implied that he wants me to fuck you and make you happy.
Oh! God! He knew it. Shiva, Did he know that I have been asking him to bring you along with him to our home to get fucked by you? Did he think that I need a young man like you to get fucked. Yes, I am like a cow in a mating period and I need to be fucked by a stud like you. It is crazy, thrilling and very much exciting to know that my son knew my desire for you and wanted you to fuck me. Did I look like a woman who has to be fucked by a stallion like you to my son? Perhaps he thought that you are a perfect stud and stallion for mating and fucking his sexy slut mother,' 'Did he think that I am a slut,' she said lifting her leg placing on my back and thrusting her mound. 'It is exciting to know that my son wanted you to fuck me.' He must have thought that I am sexually unsatisfied slut. Since he could not fuck me he selected and invited you to be my lover. I am also happy to know that my son approves our fucking and must have been eagerly waiting to see me happily fucked by you.
