Incest/Taboo My First (Time) Taboo

As you can tell from the fact that I am typing another chapter, my life has changed a little. Well the rest of my summer was great. Jessica and I spent a lot of time together and everything was great. I spent a lot less time with my mom and that freed up time for me to spend with other friends as well, though Jessica was with me most of the time. Jessica actually came out to her two best friends, asking them not to tell anyone. They are good friends and as far as I know they never did. They stuck with her which was great and they seemed to like me even more, so that gave me the courage to come out to my friends.

That didn't go quite as well. Not that they were rude or that they wrote me off, but they were completely surprised and sort of disappointed it seemed. Still it felt good to be honest to them. They of course met Jessica, but they rarely seemed to want to do anything with the two of us. In fact they almost acted like they wanted to forget I was a lesbian.

Jessica and I have really changed in our love making as well. At first we were very mild, but by the end of the summer we were using strap-on dildos and double dildos and I even licked her ass a few times. I enjoy sex that way and I found out quickly enough that she was ready to experiment.

We also became very daring at her house and on more than one occasion were interrupted with a knock on her door by her mother or her father and we had to scramble to get dressed. Once I even hid in her closet as I was wearing a strap-on and doing her in her bedroom with the door locked.

Her parents I think were suspicious as we were doing a poor job at hiding our intimacy and finally Jessica admitted to them that she was a lesbian. Her mom had sat her down one morning and started asking her questions when I wasn't around and she told her all about our relationship and that she was a lesbian.

Her mom was horribly upset, though her father seemed to take it pretty well. I was surprised. Her mom would hardly look at me the last few weeks of summer and when she did she had a disgusted look like I had brainwashed and warped her daughter into something she wasn't. Luckily the dad was very cool.

Ironically her brother thought it was hot that I was a lesbian, and he still seemed to flirt with me, what a moron.

Denise continued to visit though I avoided being alone with her and my mom most of the time as I somewhat worried that I might be tempted. Though Jessica and Denise have now become friends and Jessica doesn't seem jealous of her too often, though I know there is still some jealousy there.

My mom and I never touched each other the rest of the summer, though admittedly I spent a few nights masturbating thinking about her breasts after I'd see her come out of the bathroom half naked. And then it happened at the end of summer. I was ready to get down to college and was leaving the first day I could, and so would Jessica. The night before I left I stayed home with my mom and I really enjoyed being with her. We laughed a lot and it was like old times all over again.

Then she suddenly got very sad and I knew she was really going to miss me. She knew that I was planning on moving in with Jessica the next summer in an apartment and we might never live together again. We started hugging and then we were kissing, but it was only light pecks some on the forehead, some on the lips, or nose, but then suddenly our lips parted and my tongue entered her mouth and hers in mine and our hands were massaging one another. When we stopped, which was after some time, she told me she was sorry, but I told her I was not. Then I slipped her strap off her shoulder and began to caress her heavy breasts. I had forgotten just how big and soft and wonderful they were and I suddenly attacked them with my mouth. Her nipple grew large between my lips and I sucked her as she leaned back on the couch.

Then she took me to her bed and made love to me. It was very lustful and wild and she did everything to me she had done in the past. We even used two double dildos and fucked both our holes at the same time, something I have never even thought about doing with Jessica. I didn't feel like I was cheating on Jessica at the time. This was my mother. How could this be cheating?

When we were finished we showered together and of course I licked her asshole just like old times and then we snuggled together in her bed and I slept like a baby. When I woke up she was staring at me and we kissed, but after that we went back to normal. She was my mom again and not my lover and it was almost like it had never happened, but of course it had.

So school started and I loved sharing a room with Jessica. She is awesome to live with and we slept in the same bed every night. I loved it. It was like we were married.

We actually came out to people early on as to just avoid all the problems and most people are very cool about it. Ironically Denise wasn't thrilled that we had, but she ended up being fine and she even hangs out in our room almost as much as her own.

Her sister Lyndsey is our friend as well, and I have to admit that when I first saw her again I immediately began to picture what she would look like naked. Her breasts are just so big, and she is so pretty and she wears clothes that show off her body all the time. She had a boyfriend from back home, but she ended that after being at school for a week and has guys coming to her room all the time, which Denise can't stand. (Which is one of the reasons why she is with us so often.)

But like the fool I am I was talking with Jessica one night and made the mistake of telling her that I made love to my mom the night before I came to school. She wasn't happy. I thought she'd be happy that I admitted it, but she was horribly hurt and I felt like such a bad person. It didn't help that I made it sound like it had been so wonderful. (Which it was.)

So then she started acting differently toward me and even though we were still sleeping together, we hadn't made love for several days. Then one day as we're studying out of no where she asks me, "How would you like it if I just decided to have sex with someone else one night?"

I didn't know how to answer that. Of course I wouldn't like it, but instead I just said, "Who?" which seemed to piss her off even more. So she says, "I don't know, how about Denise or your mom, or one of my friends." It shocked me that she even answered. All I could think of was anyone except my mom, but what I said was, "Do you want to?"

So then she stands up and I think she is going to leave, but instead she goes over and sits on the bed and looks like she's about ready to explode and says, "Part of me wants to."

I suddenly felt like the worst girlfriend in the world. I didn't want her to have sex with anyone else and she probably didn't either, but I had to admit that she had every reason to do it. I had cheated on her. Plus I had been with three different women other than her and I was her only lover.

I told her I was sorry and we both cried. We made love that night and it was very passionate, and afterwards I told her again I was sorry. She just kissed me and we went to sleep.

The next day I ran into Alley and Nikki. They were actually living in the dorm above ours and I hadn't even known it. Alley gave me a hug and Nikki acted weird like she was afraid I'd mention her proposal that she had given me over the summer. I didn't of course. I hung out in their room for a while and then when I left Nikki ended up chasing me down the stairs. She shocked the hell out of me. She asked me if I was still dating Denise. I told her no, but before I could say any more she tells me she broke up with her boyfriend and then she says she wondered if I'd like to go out with her sometime.

If I had been single I might have tore her shirt off and sucked her breasts right there in the stairwell. I have always loved her breasts. They're just as big as mine and so incredibly firm and I actually looked at her cleavage before I answered.

I told her I was seeing someone else, and was in love. She said that it was cool and then asked me not to tell Alley. I promised I wouldn't. Then I asked her if she was interested in Denise at all. Part of me I guess still wanted Denise and my mom to break up. I was surprised when Nikki said she wasn't. I can't imagine anyone not wanting Denise, but they did never really get along.

I made sure to tell Jessica right away and she acted jealous at first but seemed fine later. In the evening when Denise was in our room, Jessica was asking Denise all sorts of questions mostly about my mom and their relationship. Denise seemed happy to answer and she even teased me a bit which made me feel uncomfortable especially with how Jessica and I had been getting along.

Denise didn't normally talk about it, but now she was explaining what my mom does to her and how wonderful it is and I pretended to be reading and not even listening. Jessica however seemed completely turned on by it. I had the feeling she was trying to annoy me intentionally.

Then Jessica asked Denise if she loved my mom. Denise said yes. So Jessica asked her if she thinks they'll live together. Denise said she didn't know what the future would bring and I liked that answer.

Then Jessica started flirting with Denise for a while and I didn't like that much, but I didn't say anything. So when Denise left I thought about hugging her just to piss Jessica off, but I changed my mind. I talked with Jessica afterwards and asked her if she was trying to make me jealous. She at first acted like she was clueless, but then she admitted it. I told her I was sorry again for making love to my mom and that I wished I could take it back, but then I said it wasn't like I cheated on her with Denise. She didn't see a difference, but to me it was a major difference.

Anyway we kept fighting and I finally said, "Why don't you just sleep with someone else so we can get this passed us." I of course didn't mean it, and I also never expected her to want to, but she said, "I just might." So that sucked.

That was the first night we didn't share a bed the whole time since school started. I knew it was my fault, but I didn't know what to do. I told her that the next day and she said she didn't know either. So then I suggested that she have sex with someone. She didn't say anything for a while and she said she didn't want to hurt me. That made me feel happy and sad at the same time. So then I asked her if she did have sex with someone, who would it be?

She didn't answer me right away then she said she wasn't sure. We started talking about girls and who she was attracted to. Suddenly I was really horny and the thought of her having sex with someone else actually turned me on for the first time. I think she noticed because she asked me if I would want to watch her or if she should do it and tell me later. I wasn't sure if she was just asking me this to get me excited or jealous or if she really wanted to know.

I told her I wasn't sure and it really depended on who it was. She asked me if I'd like to watch her have sex with Denise. I thought about it and I started getting so wet. I said I would. Then she asked me if I'd like to watch her with Lyndsey. And I immediately said yes, and she noticed how excited I seemed. We started touching one another and she started sucking my breasts. As we made love we fantasized about catching Denise and Lyndsey together and joining them. It was some of the hottest sex we've ever had.

Afterwards we talked some more. She knew I had left Denise and my mom, because I wanted a relationship with just one girl. She wondered that if we ended up ever doing anything like we just talked about, if I would leave her. I told her I loved her, and I explained that if she really wanted to do a threesome or something that it would be fine as long as it was just sex and there weren't feelings involved. She asked me if I could have sex with Denise and not fall back in love with her. To which I said, I didn't think I ever really loved her, or at least not like I feel for Jessica. That made her happy.

The next day we talked about it again, but she saw me talking with Alley and Nikki and afterwards she asked me if they were lesbians. I told her no, but then I said that Nikki was the one that had talked to me in the stairwell. Jessica asked me if we should have her come to the room some night. I actually really liked that idea. I had no feelings for Nikki other than sexual and Jessica didn't even know her. I told her maybe and then I told myself that I would make that happen.

Now I knew I was getting into dangerous ground here, but I understood how Jessica felt and I knew our relationship could survive this if she had understood all my past exploits. So that day I went to Alley and Nikki's room late in the afternoon. They were both there, but soon I got Nikki alone in the hall and I asked her if she wanted to come to my room tonight.

She acted all nervous and asked if I was still dating Jessica and I told her I was and that she might join if that was ok. She smiled big, but she looked even more nervous. I hung around longer, just to see Alley for a bit, and Nikki was noticeably stressed out and Alley kept asking her what was wrong. Luckily she never said anything.

When Nikki came down later, Jessica and I were just talking and I locked the door after she came in and all three of us were red in the face. I was starting to have second thoughts, but Jessica seemed more excited than nervous as did Nikki. We all sat and talked for a while and Nikki explained how she had often imagined being with a girl and that she had tried to several times with Alley when they were drunk, but nothing ever happened, mostly because Nikki was too afraid it would ruin their friendship.

Nikki couldn't get over how pretty Jessica was and she said so several times. Now Nikki is cute, but she is not pretty. Still her body is amazing and the longer we sat there the more I wanted to take her shirt off. She was wearing this white tank top with thin pink stripes and it made her breasts look huge. There was no way I was going to make the first move though.

After a long while I wondered if either of them would ever make the first move. Finally Jessica said that she thought Nikki's breasts were larger than mine. I said I thought they were the same size. So Jessica said she wanted to see for herself. Smart girl. We both had our shirts off and soon Jessica was feeling both our breasts, mine in her left hand and Nikki's in her right. I thought for a second when I looked at Nikki that she might kiss me so I looked away. I didn't want to do that and I think Nikki noticed and she said something. I don't remember what it was, but I remember her seeming nervous and embarrassed and maybe even scared or let down. It made me feel really uncomfortable for about two seconds and then Jessica started sucking Nikki's chest. It was so hot. I was so horny I couldn't feel jealous at all. I got behind Jessica and pulled her shirt off, and as soon as I did she went right back to Nikki's chest. So I started rubbing Jessica's breasts from behind and then I also started to pull down her shorts.

I rubbed her bare ass for a while and even ran my finger tip over her asshole a couple of times before I started sliding a couple fingers into her soaked pussy. As I did she started taking Nikki's shorts off and soon she was licking her clit. Nikki just lay on her back holding her own breasts and biting her lip. She made an occasional moan, but quietly and she kept stroking Jessica's hair off and on. Nikki climaxed after just a few minutes and when she did Jessica crawled up her body and started kissing her.

I wasn't sure if I liked it or not. It was a very passionate kiss and they kept pausing and breathing hard staring at one another and then they'd kiss again. It was totally hot, but of course I was a little jealous. I started touching both of their pussies and Jessica stood up and said she wanted to watch Nikki please me. I was ready. Nikki was a little apprehensive, but soon she was bent over and had her head between my spread legs and was tickling my clit with her tongue and fingers. It was good. She had no clue what she was doing, but that sort of excited me and soon she caught on what I liked and what was just ok.

I started sucking my own tits and that turned Nikki on. She kept saying stuff like, "Oh yeah stuff that tit up your mouth," and other things I can't remember, but that showed she was loving every second of what we were doing. I was starting to think that Nikki must be a lesbian, and not just a horny girl that wanted to fool around with anything that walked.

I spotted Jessica putting on a strap-on and I almost orgasmed just thinking about what she was going to do. Luckily I didn't, because Nikki was completely concentrating on me when Jessica slid it easily into Nikki's awaiting pussy. Jessica drove it in deep right away, which was easy with Nikki's soaked pussy and Nikki forgot about me for a bit as she moaned at the new pleasure from behind. Jessica must have pumped her four or five times before Nikki turned around to see her. Then after watching Jessica's beautiful face for a while she tried to go back to licking me, but she just couldn't. Jessica started pounding her so hard and I actually had to sit up and cover Nikki's mouth because she was moaning so loudly.

So I started kissing Nikki to get her to stop, but she could barely concentrate on me. Jessica reached down and started squeezing Nikki's breasts from behind and occasionally she grabbed mine too. I missed this. I loved having sex with more than one girl at a time and I was glad I was doing it again. I maneuvered out from underneath Nikki and began to put on a different strap-on we had. I wanted to make this a night Nikki would never forget. I mouthed to Jessica to have Nikki get on top of her. Soon Jessica was on her back on the bed and Nikki was riding her dildo. She was leaning over her and Jessica was sucking her nipples. So after I lubed the dildo I crawled up on the bed and started rubbing Nikki's asshole with my finger. She seemed to like it so then I started rubbing the tip of the dildo against it as she rocked back and forth on Jessica. Finally I started to slide the dildo into Nikki's ass.

She said more than once that she wasn't sure she wanted me to do it and flat out for me to pull it out once, but I didn't. I knew once I got going she'd like it and soon I was fucking her ass and Jessica was thrusting up into her pussy. Nikki was moaning now hard and we were all so into it that we forgot to keep her quiet. We just hoped no one was standing outside the door.

Jessica kept squeezing Nikki's breasts and reaching around her and clasping mine too and then she said suddenly, "I think they are the same size," but then she winked at me and I laughed. I don't think Nikki even heard her. She was in her own little world of pleasure and now the way she was rocking her pussy back and forth on Jessica I figured she was going to orgasm soon or was already doing so. I started pounding her even harder and she reached around and squeezed my ass. I wasn't sure if she was telling me to stop or asking me to go harder, but I did go harder. She put her hand down and started cussing repeatedly and saying or sorts of stuff and we were both telling her to keep her voice down.

Finally I got tired and as I slowed Nikki sat up and leaned her back against me. I reached around and held her breasts. (Just to let you know, my breasts are just a little bigger than hers, but I'll admit hers are more firm than mine.) She turned her head and our lips met. I kissed her and felt weird doing it, but she was a good kisser. I pressed the dildo deep into her ass and squeezed her tits and she said, "Oh, I should have done this with you a long time ago. You're better than any dick I've ever had."

I just smiled and winked at Jessica who was staring at us and smiling. We had to clean up a bit and we all went to the bathroom one at a time. I actually walked out first and thank goodness no one was in the hall, but diagonally there was a door open and I'm sure they had to have heard us. I didn't care though.

I was surprised that Nikki came back to our room, but I got the feeling that she wasn't done with us. As we got closer to ten and I was tired and ready for bed, Nikki said she wanted to please Jessica. And they both got naked again and I watched Nikki lick Jessica's clit. I sucked Jessica's breasts for a while, but mostly left the two of them alone and just watched. I ended up masturbating and sucking my own breasts as I watched them and it was amazing. Jessica had a good long cum and again they kissed afterwards, but no where near as long as when Jessica had pleased Nikki. And soon I was kissing them.

Nikki almost spent the night, but then decided to go back to her and Alley's room. Jessica and I talked for a long time after she left and she wanted to make sure I was ok and of course I wanted to know if she was glad we had done it. She said she loved it, but she didn't plan on being with Nikki ever again. I thought that was a good idea, because I didn't want to take a chance on feelings coming into play. Jessica did admit that she might be up for doing it with some one else though if I wanted. We both smiled a lot and talked about how good it had been.

Then Jessica started asking me if that was how it had been with Denise and my mom. I said yeah, that was about what it was like, although obviously Denise and my mom had way bigger boobs. Jessica knows I love huge boobs and she always thinks it's funny that I ended up with her when I had Denise. I pointed out that I loved her and that what we had was more important than our sex lives. (I want to remind you though that Jessica still has D-cups and though smaller than mine they are perfect breasts, so believe me I didn't give up that much. Well I did in size, but that's all.)

Then Jessica said she could never even think about having sex with her mom, and I admitted that I had spied on Denise and my mom together and had learned that Denise and my mom fantasized about having sex with both her and Denise's mom. Jessica then brought up having sex with Denise and Lyndsey again. I could tell she really thought about that a lot, and I of course pointed out that Lyndsey was not a lesbian, but Jessica seems to think Lyndsey might be attracted to me. I told her I didn't think so, but she insisted that Lyndsey always acted weird when I was around. I pointed out that it was probably just because Denise and I used to be lovers. She admitted that that might be all it was, but that she still thought I could have sex with Lyndsey if I wanted to.

Believe me I've thought about it a lot, and now that Jessica is into threesomes I would probably consider it. But I would hate to hurt Denise, and I'm not sure I could go through with that, because I know it would bother Denise.

Then Jessica suggested that I should try to seduce Lyndsey. I was about to tell her why I thought that was a bad idea, but she followed it up with her having sex with Denise. My mind was a buzz with thoughts. Obviously Jessica must be very attracted to Denise and why wouldn't she be, or maybe she wanted to have sex with Denise, just because I did. Or maybe she wanted to know if I'd be jealous, or maybe she wanted to know if I was interested in Lyndsey. (Which of course sexually, I was.)

I tried to turn it around and asked her how long she had wanted to have sex with Denise. She surprised me with honesty and said ever since she first met her. I wasn't sure what to do, because I didn't want to hurt Denise. I didn't want to do a threesome with her because she might get the wrong idea, and I didn't want to go after Lyndsey and hurt her feelings that way either. I just explained it to Jessica and she seemed to understand, but then she asked me if I cared if she had sex with Denise, and she quickly pointed out that if it bothered me at all that she would never consider it. I realized then that Jessica was just as much of a horn dog as I was.

I had to really think about it and when I paused she immediately said, "Ok, I won't then." But I said, "Well, I don't know. Part of me would actually like to watch you have sex with her." Then she said she wouldn't want Denise to know I was watching them and that got me so horny I started touching myself. I really liked that idea. And then she said she'd really like to watch me have sex with my mom.

I couldn't believe it. After all the fights we had about that now suddenly she was ok with it. I wasn't angry, but relieved, but I had to ask her if she was serious. She said she was. I pointed out to her right then and there that I didn't want her to ever have sex with my mom, and she said she didn't think she could stand it if I ever had sex with Denise again, though she didn't sound as convincing, which made me suddenly very horny for Denise even though I certainly didn't want to even go down that road again.

Before we went to bed we did a sixty-nine and she went to town on me and I got her face so soaked with all my cum and I enjoyed licking her face clean afterwards.

Just to point out that the next day I remember being so tired for my classes, but it was worth it.

That weekend Denise was going home to be with my mom so I decided to go home and take Jessica. We talked about how we should approach this and I told her it would be easy for me to have sex with my mom, but we had no idea how we could get Denise out of the way. Plus I wasn't sure it would be a good idea for Jessica to flirt with Denise this weekend, because my mom might make a move on her if she found out and plus Denise might not want her and then everything would be horrible. We almost wished we hadn't gone home then, but since we were almost there we decided to anyway.

Denise was there before we were and we had not told her we were coming home so there was a surprise, but my mom was thrilled to see us. She hugged us both. The four of us sat and talked for a while. My mom sat practically on top of Denise and as I looked at them I could tell that they were really in love. It was nice to see my mom and Denise so happy, and they seemed to be happy for me too. It was great and no one seemed to feel uncomfortable.

Then my mom started getting really frisky with Denise and the two of them went upstairs and I'm sure they had sex, though we didn't hear them. I took Jessica to my room as well and we also had sex, but we talked about Denise and my mom and got each other off. As we did I came up with a plan, but I kept it to myself as I wanted to talk to my mom first and see if she was even interested in me, though I was sure she'd want me.

Later after dinner my mom and I cleaned up in the kitchen and who knows where Jessica and Denise went off to, but I was hoping she would at least flirt with her a little. I simply whispered in my mom's ears that she looked very sexy that night. Which she really did, and she was immediately horny for me. I kissed her neck and she turned and put her hands on my breasts and tried to kiss me. I told her not now, but that if she could sneak out of bed after Denise fell asleep that I would meet her down stairs in the den. She said she couldn't wait. Neither could I.

As much as I love Jessica, I love making love with my mom and if our society wasn't the way it was I would be her lover. I know I would, but since that isn't possible I know that what I have with Jessica is amazing too. So as night came, we went to my room and they went to my mom's and then I went down stairs and waited and Jessica waited in my room watching for my mom, but she never came.

The next day I found out that Denise had fallen asleep lying on my mom's chest and she had tried to sneak out, but woke Denise up and then she had fallen asleep herself. That sucked, cause I had not only bored myself to tears down stairs, but also all these thoughts of her not wanting me crept in, plus I was exhausted.

Still we made plans to do it the next night. On Saturday we all went out to eat together and Jessica and I also went over to see her family for a bit. Her mom was her usual bitchy self, so it wasn't too much fun, but her dad gave me a hug and was super sweet to Jessica.

Jessica and I had some alone time then at home, but I reminded my mom before bed and this time she didn't disappoint me. When she came down stairs she whispered, "I've missed you so much," and I kissed her right away before we could even get to the den.

I never really looked at the glass doors to see if Jessica had snuck down to watch us for the longest time. I didn't want my mom to see me for one and also I was so into my mom I didn't care. My mom had brought a little bag along with some toys and after we licked each other's pussies she fucked me from behind with a strap-on. She squeezed my tits from behind and just jammed it in so hard over and over and as I looked back at her I saw Jessica peeking in through the glass doors.

I decided then and there that I was going to give Jessica the show of her life. I loved being watched and I know Jessica thought it was so dirty that I was having sex with my own mother. It turned me on so bad. Plus it was exciting that we were sneaking behind Denise's back, as wrong as that is.

I let my mom pound me for the longest time, but then she had me lay on her desk and I spread my legs as she slid her hand inside me. I wanted this so bad I actually was shivering, just convulsing with ecstasy. My mom was fisting my pussy and I was just laying there squeezing and sucking my own breasts. My mom was so good to me. She drove it in deep and I held on to my ankles after a while and just let her give it to me.

I sucked my juices off her hand and we kissed for the longest time, but then she fisted me again and I grabbed her wrist and guided her in and out of me. I had completely forgotten about Jessica and I know my mom had asked me something like, "Only I can please you like this," and I had agreed with her. I looked over and Jessica's face looked like she was having an orgasm.

Then after my mom took off the strap-on I had her lay on her back on the carpet and I pushed her legs up and tongued her ass and pussy a bit before I fingered her, but soon we were sliding a double dildo up both of our asses and fucking each other.

I am so glad my mom talked me into it, because I love having anal sex now. It's not as good as my pussy, but still just amazing. We fucked hard and my mom kept saying, "Oh I love this," and "I love you," and I know I did the same.

We kissed a lot afterwards and I sucked her breasts just like forever. I missed her huge soft breasts and I wasn't sure when I'd have her again so I wanted to spend a long time on them. Then we started grinding our pussies together and I climaxed again and I think she might have too, and we kissed so passionately and I just held her so long.

I know it's crazy, but I love my mom like I love Jessica. I would love to spend the rest of my life making love to her body and kissing her and just being with her.

When we were done I told her not to tell Denise, and she said she wouldn't. I have to admit that the secrecy of sneaking behind Denise's back was actually just as hot as having sex in front of Jessica.

When we left the room Jessica wasn't there. I kissed my mom at the top of the stairs and then we went our separate ways. The lights were all off, but as soon as I crawled into my bed Jessica started talking to me. She couldn't get over what she had seen. She sounded so horny and we ended up having sex, but it was mostly me pleasing her and talking about her having sex with Denise. But Jessica afterwards kept talking about watching me. She seemed like she was nervous or concerned that she couldn't please me like my mom does. I told her she already did, but in reality my mom is just more experienced and a little wilder. I think Jessica will get there.

Even the next morning, Jessica still couldn't believe that she had seen me have sex with my own mom, and I wasn't entirely sure she approved. It was like it turned her on, but she wasn't happy with her self for feeling that way. I guess I felt that way at first too with myself.

Sunday was fun. Jessica and I saw some of her friends and we told them all about college and how great it was living with me. I have to admit that made me feel very happy. We had dinner out with Denise and my mom again, and it was great. I went to the bathroom with my mom and she kissed me and rubbed my breasts a little, but nothing else. That night we sat around and played cards (Sorry if that sounds lame, but I love cards.) Then when my mom and Denise went up to bed my mom kissed Jessica on the cheek and when she kissed me on the lips it was very sexy. And she said goodnight to me and I thought I could just rip her top off and suck her breasts right in front of Denise and Jessica, but of course I didn't. Jess and I had sex that night and again I talked to her about her having sex with Denise, but she said she wanted Denise and Lyndsey at the same time. I ended up fucking her with a strap-on like my mom had done to me the night before and Jessica moaned so loud and I'm sure my mom and Denise could hear her.

On Monday Denise had to go back early and even though Jessica didn't really have to she pretended like she did and Denise drove her back to school and I stayed home with my mom.

I ended up having sex with my mom again and I joked with her that Denise and Jessica were probably having sex together just to see what she would say. It turned her on, but she said, "You'd just hate that wouldn't you," and I said I would, but I was actually hoping they would, though sad I wouldn't be watching it.

I spent hours in bed with my mom. We talked a lot and mostly just cuddled and enjoyed one another's company, but we had sex too and I know I am still in love with her. I know she is my mother and I know it is wrong, but I love her. I didn't want to go back to school. I wanted to just stay in bed with her, but I knew I had to. Plus it was killing me to find out what happened with Denise and Jessica.

So I left late in the afternoon. When I got there Jessica told me that nothing had happened. In fact Jessica hadn't even tried. I asked her if everything was ok, and she told me she was just confused about how she should feel about what I had done this weekend. I asked her if she regretted watching me with my mom. She told me she had loved it. That it seemed dirty and wrong, but that it had made her so horny. Then though she kind of changed her mind and said that she didn't think it was right that I had been with my mom. I was really confused, because ever since I had first told her about it, she had always been very accepting, but now she was acting like it really bothered her one minute and telling me she loved it the next.

I asked her if she was still interested in having sex with Denise. She told me she was and that she was just freaking out about nothing and I shouldn't worry about it. I didn't let it drop there though and she finally admitted that she was jealous of my mom. It wasn't because I had sex with her, but it was that she had assumed that it would only be sex, but she said after watching us it bothered her that I actually seemed like I had feelings for my mom in a "romantic girlfriend way". I knew right away that my face was giving me away so I admitted it to her.

She couldn't understand it. She thought my mom was very attractive and she could understand how I could want to make love to her, but she just couldn't believe that it had happened. She kept telling me she had liked watching it and how it made her horny, but she just had this sick feeling in her stomach about it.

I left for a while, but it wasn't like I stormed out. I went to go talk to Denise after spending some time in the lounge, but when I got there only Lyndsey was there. I talked with her for a while and she made me laugh and I felt better, but I didn't know what to do about what had happened and I was upset with myself for still having these feelings for my mom and yet just thinking about her makes me feel so horny and just like mush. I love being with her and I feel just as strongly toward her as I do Jessica.

So when I got back to the room Jessica was in bed. I crawled in with her and she started touching my breasts. She told me she was sorry for freaking out, and that she knew she shouldn't be jealous but she just was. I asked her if she thought we should just forget about having sex with other girls and would it end what we had. She said she didn't think so. She understood that it might cause some problems from time to time, but that she had loved doing a threesome with Nikki and she really had liked watching my mom fist me.

So I asked her if she wanted to do that to me and she said she did. So we did, and holy shit it was awesome. She kept talking about her having sex with Denise and she even mentioned her doing a threesome with Denise and Lyndsey. I loved picturing that. Then she asked me if I had any fantasies. I told her I wanted to be made love to in a crowded room with a lot of girls watching me. I don't know why that excites me, but it does. I said I'd like Jessica or my mom to fuck me with a dildo while girls stood in a circle around us and watched. She was a little surprised, but she seemed to get excited too and that made me climax so hard.

I tried fisting Jessica, but she isn't ready for that. I mean she wanted to, but she just was getting scared that I'd hurt her. I'll have to work on that, but I know it will happen.

So my life is now as crazy as ever but I am happier than ever as well. Not sure when the Jessica and Denise thing will happen, but I'll let you all know when it does.​