Update 02
Through practice, you will know when I am thinking of you and I will know when you are thinking of me. There will be no question, there will be just love, there will be pure bliss, there will be a release and experience of pure joy. Experience me. I am with you whenever you think of me, though not physically. But you can feel me with you and in you.
You are an erotic beauty. Every inch of you exudes raw sexuality. You seduce with your eyes, that slight smile, walking style and your mannerisms. Despite that fact you are elder to me by fourteen years and that you are a widow now makes me think that our relationship can flourish now. I can marry you and make you my wife for which you may say that society does not accept and approve. We can be lovers and soul mates forever. Do you think having clandestine love affair at this stage of your life is improper, immoral and illicit. You know very well that age does not matter.
In fact sexual intercourse between a matured woman and young man is more pleasurable. Come to me my darling, I will show you the heaven, make all your sexual dreams and fantasies come true. I envy the men who has the opportunity to see and enjoy your beautiful sexy figure every day. Had I met you eleven years ago, at Madras during your one year FIP, I would have definitely seduced and fucked you then, you would have happily become my lover committing adultery having an extramarital affair cheating your husband and betraying him. We could have enjoyed one year of living and fucking together. Later on he could have even enjoyed seeing you fucked by me. He would not have objected to your parallel extramarital relationship with me. You could have turned your husband to be a Voyeur and Cuckold. He would happily become your slave. You missed the opportunity.
It is not obvious how to explain this phenomenon as emotions are typically partial and exclusive. This is especially so in romantic love which requires a lot of energy and resources. People sometimes express the difficulty in loving two people at the same time, by posing it as a logical contradiction: "He cannot romantically love both me and her at the same time."
A plausible way of explaining this difficulty is to claim that romantic love is based upon a few significant characteristics of the beloved, and hence loving more than one person at a time may not be entirely unfeasible, as the additional love would be based upon a different set of characteristics, and thus the two loves could be considered complementary rather than contradictory. Another context for such polyamorous love is having two or more romantic relationships which are at a different stage: one could be at the infatuation stage and the other at a later, more mature stage. It seems that there is no logical contradiction in romantically loving two or more people at the same time, and the issue here is psychological, as it generates profound emotional dissonance. The dissonance stems from the fact that by definition, emotions demand partiality, that is, the preference of one over another, which entails some sort of exclusivity. Emotionally, it is extremely painful to imagine your lover in the arms of another person. Indeed, most of those who are being romantically in love or having multiple lovers with two or more people at the same time and pleased with the experience also claimed that they would do not find it enormously difficult and is possible, to share their beloved with someone else.
How can human society cope with such emotional dissonances? One approach may be to adapt our accepted norms concerning romantic and sexual exclusivity to reflect the occasional dissonances of our reality, a change which has indeed begun to take place in modern society. People now allow their spouses to have more freedom in their personal relationships with others, and attitude is more flexible also concerning sex. In many societies extramarital sex is disapproved socially, nevertheless, the transgressor is only mildly criticized for such activity. Indeed, extramarital affairs begin to be described in more neutral terms. Instead of the highly negative terms of adultery and betrayal, some people begin to use the more neutral term of parallel relationships. I have had parallel relationships with women without any problems.
I met your colleague Lakshmi eleven years ago at Technical Teachers Training Institute (TTTI), Madras while she was doing FIP, and she became my lover. I used to fuck her during that one year and continued thereafter. I know both you and Lakshmi are not on friendly terms. Ten years back, during one of my visits to Lakshmi I saw you. I fell in love with you at the first sight. It was fatal attraction and I decided to have you as mine. Lakshmi told me that before marriage, you used to come to college with your hair in two braids. The image of you in my mind in two braids at the age of twenty two was thrilling and exciting, I am anxious to see you now in two braids. I have been aware of animosity between two of you. Strangely, She was the reason I had the opportunity to see you. She is aware of my intense desire for you. I think, the reason of animosity between two of you is that 'both of you are beautiful and sexy'. You envy her because she was bold to divorce her inept tormenting husband, and has been able to get a lover of her choice, which you could not do. Now you know that I love you and desire you, envious feelings about Lakshmi should cease and both of should become my loving mistresses and sisters in sin.
I have seen you few days after your husband's demise when you came to Lakshmi 's house. There was no sadness or grief in your eyes. I saw immense relief in you. Despite being a new widow you are looking happy and beautiful exuding raw sexuality. You aroused my intense deep carnal desire for you. It is visible that the sudden demise of your husband brought out the real woman hidden inside you. I know that you were ready for me, and now available for me. You ready to be mine. I was sure that you noticed the desire for you in my eyes when I looked at you. I recognized the pent up desire in you and the real you in you. I think you are have felt that your wishful thinking became true when your husband died. It may sound sadistic and cruel but you can tell me. You are now free to do and live the way you desire. Your thoughts now are free galloping like wild horse with new found freedom.
You are like a wild horse. You need to be tamed. I am the man who can tame you. I know you are in an emotional and biological need that must be gratified. The perception of need begins with a rise in emotional intensity, you feel more strongly about being with someone who loves you, dominates you, protects you and possess you. As the intensity increases, it can feel like you need to have it, for one compelling reason: It's the same emotional process as biological need. When emotion suddenly rises, your biological needs increases. In other words, the perception of need becomes self-reinforcing: "I feel it, therefore, I need it, and if I need it, I have to feel it more."To love freely and safely, get in touch with your deepest desires, lurking beneath surface feelings of loneliness. Your deepest desires will lead you to a relationship with me based on compassion, kindness, fairness, intimacy, and love, rather than temporary excitement or relief from shame and loneliness. Do not be ashamed to recognize your need. You need a man who can tame you. It is me who can tame you. Any other man ca not tame you, control you, and dominate you. You need me.
You will enjoy the erotic humiliation by me. You are ultimate bitch and a Cunt. You need to be humiliated, degraded by me so that you realize what you really are. I urge you to awaken your erotic life. Embracing your erotic soul and deepening the intimacy in your life is both a consequence of deep presence and its gift. Healing yourself in your deepest erotic space can only be a deliberate act, and the doing of it miraculously heals everything else. Tapping into the courage to know your own deepest sexual thoughts and feelings, and offering them with your whole being, is both a life work and lasting gift.
Shyamala, You may wonder why am I using erotic filthy dirty obscene abusive words. I know you like them. If you want a simple answer, it is because You have come to recognize humiliation or humiliating treatment as a sexual behavior in the same way that most others would recognize flirting, or personal contact, or even a style of revealing dress or other behavior. You like a man to be in charge. All sex has an emotional aspect and humiliation is a very powerful emotion. You like humiliation and have probably learned to associate belittling treatment with the sex you are attracted to. It is possible this could come from trauma, but it may more commonly come from the personalities they have encountered in early life. It may be perhaps that you were abused in your childhood by a relative. You were definitely mistreated and abused by your husband. This desire is fairly common. So far you did not enjoy submission and humiliation.
The liking of humiliation varies from just enjoying some very specific fantasies, up to a liking for extreme and repeated mistreatment, but despite this it is really just part of the emotional aspect of human sexuality, though it can become quite addictive and a problem in some people. For you I am there to guide, direct, command, teach you to enjoy your journey of erotic humiliation.
Do you want to further waste your life living like a celibate without pleasure thinking of ethics, morals, traditions and social restrictions. Are you afraid of the disgrace that you may face socially and consequences, if you are in love affair now.
Men around you may be looking at you with desire but do not have capacity to recognize the real adventurous, amative, amazing, amorous, aphrodisiac, ardent, aroused, bewitching, carnal, concupiscent, desirous, enchanting, erotic, exotic, fascinating, fervid, hot, kinky, lascivious, libidinous, loving, lustful, lubricious, maudlin, romantic, passionate, prurient, sexy, sensual, steamy, stimulated, slut, sultry, voluptuous, wanton, wild, wistful person hidden in you. I recognized the hidden qualities in you long back and I want to have you as mine and I am sure you want to be mine.
I will help you to be a desirable and dazzling woman instead of desolate, sexy instead of being a seclusive, raunchy instead of being reclusive woman, and celebrate every moment of your life instead of being a celibate. So let's celebrate everything we are and everything we have with mind, body and soul! Once you learn to enjoy, you will not be afraid of the society, you will be confident and proud to announce to the world that you are now having an affair with young lover in your life.
My desire for you is so intense, many a time I wish I could have been your Neighbor, Colleague, Student or one of your family member, may be a Uncle, Uncle's son, Cousin, Brother, Brother-in-law, Nephew, Step-son or Son so that I can see you, talk to you, have you and know the real you in you. You may feel that I am thinking of taboo incestuous relationship with you. Whatever the relationship I want to have you. even if its incestuous, immoral, and taboo. You are celebration of feminine sexuality. Our relationship extends beyond this life. Perhaps we were related in our earlier janmas. You might have been my Mother, Aunt, Sister, Sister-in-law, Mother-in-law, Cousin, Lover, wife, Mistress or even Courtesan.
I would like to know you - your mind and body. What are the most sensitive erogenous zones of your body. I will find out when we meet. I will explore each and every minute part of your body and mind to know you. You may be thinking whether I will be able to satisfy your insatiable desires. Your mouth and pouting thick lips indicate that you have large and deep Cunt, thick cunt lips and prominent protruding big clitoris. You will be able to take a big horse's cock and needs to be fucked for very long time to reach vaginal, clitoral and whole body orgasm. I am endowed with humongously hung long thick fat monstrous magnificent special cock with huge knob. Your cunt will stretched, torn, deepened, widened once I fuck you. I will fuck you baby, so much that you plead for mercy. You will love it so much that you will become my slave, baby.
Women are the receiving sex and women want to submit to a dominant man. The shared animating impulse described by all these ideas is the innate compulsion of women to be desired. Desired so strongly that a man loses control of himself. Women are, by their very nature, irredeemably solipsistic, and this solipsism is a function of their genetic prime directive: to use their bodies and their beauty to capture the seed and the services of a high value man. This aspect of female sexuality explains the prevalence of Ra*e fantasies in the female fantasy repertoire. Ra*e fantasies, in this understanding, are actually fantasies about surrender, not out of masochistic yearnings to be harmed or punished, but out of the female desire to be desired by a man to the point of driving him out of control.
There are plenty of women who yearn to be punished, even if their yearning operates mostly on the subconscious level of cognition, It's as if a woman's desire to be desired is, when taken to extremes, warped into a need for punishing treatment as the only demonstrations of male desire that will mean anything to her. I want to fulfill your desires. You are submissive by nature and realize and bring out the real self from subconscious level.
Lovingly Your Master
Shiva
P.S:
Your date of Birth September 14, indicates that your Zodiac sign is Virgo. Virgos have a deep buried sensuality. Outwardly they maintain a cool and calm composure but buried deep inside are great passions. Virgos are very choosy about their lover. In sexual relationship they are very caring and controlling too and can make their partner feel the most wanted person on the earth. They are perfectionists and secretive by nature. The sexual relationship with a Virgo lover may not be a bed of roses. The effort has to be made to unearth and stir the deep buried passions and then you become the vortex of their life.
Chapter 6
TTTI-FIP
Lakshmi, a former student later became colleague of Shyamalavathy in the same department was not on friendly terms with her. Both stay in the opposite houses in the colony. Forty year old Lakshmi, a beautiful lean sexy divorcee with knee length hair has been a mistress of Shiva for eleven years. They met in Madras when Lakshmi was doing one year FIP. They were staying in TTTI hostel.
Technical Teachers Training Institute (TTTI) is also known as 'Tantalizing Temptress Teachers Institute.' Most of the women lecturers from various colleges who opt one year Faculty Improvement Program (FIP) on deputation are Single, Unmarried, Spinsters, Married but unhappy, Married and Separated, divorced or Widows. They are away from family and place work and their known environment for one year and free to acquire and enjoy lovers. They are hungry for sex and look for a mate. Extramarital affairs and illicit sex relationships happen during the FIP. FIP is also known as 'Fucking included Program.'
Some of the women who come to TTTI for one year FIP may not have intentions initially to acquire lovers, have extramarital affairs and enjoy sex. Convenience, Proximity and opportunity influence and induce them to look for sexual adventures. Both men and women live in the same hostel having common mess and common indoor auditorium. Men and Women opt for this one year FIP, to improve their knowledge and teaching methodologies and also as a prerequisite for their career advancement. Whether they really are benefited improving their pedagogical skills, most certainly they improve their tantalizing skills enjoying the freedom and sex with new partners immensely. Once they go back to their home towns they continue their established affairs or use effectively and implement newly acquired erotic skills during one year FIP to acquire more lovers and to have adulterous, amorous, clandestine, illicit, illegitimate, secret and extramarital affairs. They become more tantalizing temptress, provocative, sexy and seductive. The sexual experiences during FIP make them more hungry for sex looking for variety in sex and normally will have multiple partners. Some of them of use these acquired skills for the advancement of their career using sex once they go back. There is lot of competition for women at TTTI since the number of women are less compared to men. Women can select the partners as per their choice and desire. Some Women FIP candidates change their lovers in that one year and some women have multiple lovers concurrently.
I joined as a Research scholar in the adjoining CSIR Research Institute. Since the Institute I joined did not have Hostel facilities, We were provided hostel facilities in TTTI on request.
Lakshmi, a Lecturer aged 29, a divorcee, mother of a six year old son, joined FIP. Being a divorce and celibate for four years, TTTIFIP program offered the best opportunity. Lakshmi is 160 cm tall, lean, skinny fair woman with oily smooth, clear, unblemished and radiant glowing skin, beautiful round face, well defined thick eye brows, large expressive eyes, full wide mouth, juicy thick lips. Her lower lip being thicker is very exciting and erotic. She has smooth neck, thin long smooth arms, and long artistic fingers. Her breasts hung from lean chest and big nipples extend out of her slender lean frame made her brazenly top heavy. Her very narrow thin taut waist curvaceously spread onto firm bottom and hemispherical protruding round hips. Her bewitchingly beautiful, tantalizing thick, long, soft, silky, jet-black, lustrous, shining, wavy, voluminous and uniformly thick hair reaches her knees. Her lean curvaceous body firm yet full at the bosom and wide hips and long legs are erotic. She has blemish less radiant and glowing smooth translucent skin. She is extremely curvy with everything being tight, toned, and feminine, with low body fat, low BMI, extremely narrow thin waist and wide hips. She has sweet, melodious sexy voice. She is every inch an exuberant,, sexy, sensuous, vivacious, glowing and exuding and oozing charming feminine sexuality.
Lakshmi was at her sexual peak. She befriended and fell deeply in love with Shiva. Shiva got attracted to her. She needs man to fuck and satisfy her sexual desires. They soon became lovers. He especially liked Lakshmi's knee length thick hair. Lakshmi is wild in bed and Shankhini woman. The hostel was common for both men and women. For one year Lakshmi enjoyed fucking with Shiva. They used to go to movies and outing on weekends. She actually started treating Shiva as her husband. They went to Tirumala and stayed there for three days in the cottage. It was like a honeymoon. They stayed a cottage at Golden beach for two nights and enjoyed fucking on a full moon night on the beach. They have five day week. Every weekend, over the course of their year-long honeymoon, Lakshmi and her lover husband Shiva visited Kanchipuram, Madurai, Kodaikanal, Ooty, Connor, Thanjavur, Mahabaleswaram, Rameswaram, Coimbatore, Tuticorin, Tirunelveli and Kanyakumari. On some weekends Subhalakshmi Lakshmi colleague another FIP candidate also joined them.
After the one year FIP program, Lakshmi went to her home town. Shiva used to visit her place regularly. She introduced him to all her friends inviting them for Lunch or dinner when he visited. Everyone in the College, Colony and her family know about the affair between Lakshmi and Shiva. Lakshmi told everyone that She is Shiva's mistress.
Shiva used to see Shyamalavathy during his occasional visits to Lakshmi's house and saw Shyamalavathy. Shiva asked her Lakshmi to introduce Shyamala. She told Shiva about Shyamalavathy husband's suspicious nature that was well known in the colony, when she observed Shiva gazing at her and obviously interested to have her. Lakshmi being Shiva's mistress for ten years is envious of Shyamalavathy because of her beauty and does not want to introduce him to Shyamalavathy.
Shiva's knowledge about female psychology, language skills and poetic writing style very much impressed Shyamala. He even wrote poetry praising her beauty. In his letters he describes her with beautiful words phrases what he saw in her body, her style of walking, the way her thick braid moves on her hips. Shiva skillfully uses the language to express his emotions, feelings, love and sexual desire for her. He writes how he is going to treat her as sex goddess, worship her beautiful body and make passionate love to her. His letters aroused her sexual desire. It was like reading erotic romantic sexually explicit pornographic novels stimulating her core banal desire. Her unsatisfied hunger for sex has become pronounced and surfaced. She felt that she is being chased and courted by him who wants her so much that he wants take her and devour her. She wants to be taken by him. She wants to submit herself to him. The thought of submission to him is so pleasurable and exciting.
Dear Sir
I am again surprised to learn that you are younger to me by fourteen years and you have been Lakshmi's lover. I fell in love with you through your letters communicating romantic intimate passionate deep love and desire for me. I am also honored that you recognize my inner qualities as described by you with so many praising adjectives. I have to look up dictionary to understand the meaning of phrases you used to describe me. Even the derogatory and debauchery words you wrote electrified me, twisted my nerves sending shocking sex waves through my mind and body. I wonder whether I deserve and qualify to be described like this. You also have awakened my desires. It seems you are an expert mind reader.
I remember seeing you many a time during your visits to my colleague, the bitchy Lakshmi. I noticed you gazing at me with intense desire every day when I go to the college and return. I could not reciprocate. I had been aware that you have been observing me from the terrace of Lakshmi's house. You are young, tall, handsome irresistible masculine man. I envy that bitch Lakshmi for having you as lover. My desire to be your lover becomes more intensified because you are Lakshmi's lover. The fact that Lakshmi's lover desires me more gives me pleasure and a feeling of triumph. It is a feeling of triumph and victory over Lakshmi. I feel jealous of Lakshmi because she was bold to divorce her husband and found you, seven year younger young man as her lover.
I saw many a time you and Lakshmi going to movies whenever you visit as if you both are husband and wife. You are a handsome hunk and a stud. She flaunts and told everyone in the college that you are her lover. I wish I was at TTTI Madras during that one year FIP instead of Lakshmi when you were staying there in the Hostel. We could have had wonderful time at least during that one year together. I am sure you would have chosen me instead of Lakshmi if I were there. Did that bitch trapped you then? I think so! You were only twenty two then, young, virile, and bubbling with uncontrollable desire and stamina. She provided her body to you to release your youthful sexual energies into her. If I were there instead of her I could have been your lover instead of her. I missed the opportunity.
My dear sir, It gives me immense colossal pleasure to note that you think I am more beautiful, sexy, desirable and erotic than Lakshmi. I know that you regularly write letters to Lakshmi. Have you informed that bitch about us. She does not seem to know yet, that you have been writing to me, had she known she must have spread the news like a wildfire by now. Does she know that you love me more than her and prefer me? I wonder what do you like in that abominable, belligerent, obscene, cheap, contentious, cunning, deplorable, disgusting, loose malicious, resentful, tongued, vindictive, vengeful, wicked bitch Lakshmi. She is amoral, depraved, perverted, lewd, malicious gossipmonger. She uses abusive, blasphemous, desecrate, profanatory sacrilegious words and hurls a volley of invectives against colleagues. I know her and she was my student. She got fucked by many men. Whenever You visit her she behaves as if her husband came home after long time and proudly tells everyone, inviting her other depraved divorced degenerated deceitful deplorable friends home to show you off. I am sure you know about her nature and psychology and the type of women she is friendly with.. It seems that you bring her beautiful costly saris from various places that you visit on you business tours. She tells everyone that you brought such saris for her. I am sure you control and tame her wild nature. Whenever you visit her, you must be fucking her thoroughly many a time the whole night, because the next day everyone can see that she has not slept the previous night and looks like thoroughly and mercilessly used by you. It seems she tells her friends in vivid details how you fuck her. She records your conversation with her while fucking and plays them to her friends. She is happy to be used by you.
I know that she is sexy in a way, though lean, with smaller breasts, and smaller ass than me. Men get attracted to her by her animal magnetism. She traps men. She of course has long hair reaching her calves. Are you attracted to her and her sisters because of their long hair. I am aware many men are attracted to longhaired women. You must be enjoying her Sisters, her Sister's daughters and her friends Bharathalakshmi, Vasundhara, Lathadevi, Shubhalakashmi and her neighbor Kusuma She must be arranging women for you. You may not know about Lakshmi's real character. Everyone says that She got fucked by all her brother-in-laws before her marriage, which was the reason her husband divorced her. She must have been fucked by all her brother-in-laws from teenage. She still continue to get fucked by her brother-in-laws , getting fucked by her tenant, one of our young colleague and the Mason who constructed her house. She traps young male students to satisfy her nymphomania. She perhaps likes variety and needs a man to fuck her every night. Surprisingly, she tells everyone that You are her only lover. I wonder how and why you love her. Do you continue to have relationship with her because she arranges her relatives and friends for your sexual pleasure. She has long hair. Are you obsessed with long haired women?
You are aware that I too have hip length thick hair and I think you will like the feel and texture of my hair. I should take care of my body more carefully to look sexy and present to you. I am doing more exercises to keep me fit for your use and abuse. I am surprised at myself that I enjoy and get excited with uncontrollable desire reading your raunchy, explicit, uninhibited, erotic, vulgar letters and filthy words you use. The letters filled with dirty, filthy vulgar derogatory words and phrases which would normally makes a woman feel offended and humiliated. I am enjoying thoroughly reading them. You have definitely helped me learn, improve and enjoy indecent, vulgar, filthy and obscene vocabulary.
Sir, The very thought of you dominating me arouses me to the core. It's not just pain or forceful physical dominance that get me going. The power is also in your words-in the triggers. In the real world I don't approve of the words like whore or slut being used to shame me. I also don't like being told what to do. Tell me not to do something, say something, or wear something and I'll immediately want to do it. That's how it used to be with my late husband. With you, though, the things I can't abide in real life become eroticized. Strongly delivered, these words are a major turn on. I long to be told what to do by you. I want to give you, my Sir complete control of me. I want you to dominate me, control me and order me. I enjoy every 'Please, Sir' and 'Thank you, Sir' I utter. I'm aroused by the fear of being punished for not completing a task or forgetting to ask permission. These triggers are strong and working for me when I am writing. I've been reduced to a wet mess with just reading your letters. My kama juices overflows from my cunt making my petticoat drenched. I have no choice but to masturbate to orgasm thinking of you. It has become essential for me to read your letters, imagine you and masturbate to endless multiple orgasms every night without which I can't sleep. I am eagerly waiting to actual experience of your young virile hard huge monstrous long thick big gigantic cock penetrating, forcing, opening, widening, expanding, filling deep into my cunt and then fuck me hard and deep long time making me reach ecstatic orgasms. You enquired about my physical measurements. I think you already knew. I am 160 cm height, 67 kg Wt., 36DD-26-40., BMI 26.2.
Lovingly and eagerly waiting to be Yours - K. Shyamalavathy
Chapter 7
Shyamalavathy and Shiva exchanged letters almost every day. She started sharing her thoughts uninhibitedly, her troubled life controlled by her suspicious dominating husband, secrets, memories and other feelings which she never shared with anyone else for the fear of misunderstood. In him, she found a close intimate friend and soul mate with whom she can share anything and everything. The question that puzzled her is whether or not he is as wonderful, romantic, passionate, chivalrous in person as he is in his letters, letters that were given much thought, letters written so romantically and eloquently, letters that touched her heart and excite her!
His really powerful communication, that actually delivers to her the value of human connection is based in authenticity. it made Shyamalavathy to get to her authentic self through exploring and unleashing her inner self. He empowered her to be confident and true to herself. She was eagerly waiting for his letter.
While writing letter to him, Her mind opened, thoughts flowing into words. It was like water flowing out of a dam after opening the flood gates. She felt like purging out her deep rooted thoughts, memories, feelings from her mind.
Shiva wrote
My dearest darling Sexy Sensuous Sizzling Shy-am-a-lava-thy
The few times I had the opportunity to see you, from the opposite house terrace, and while you walk to college and back home, it had taken his breath away. Seeing your smooth, soft shiny skin, with your hip length long hair braid adorned with flowers oscillating like pendulum on your swinging hips, your big breasts and bigger ass had an unbelievable impact that my cock becomes hard and erect. Had I been near you, I might have taken you right there and then. Your flat stomach showed the discipline of years of exercise and yoga. Your lithe neck, collarbone and chin are so shapely - they simply cry out to be kissed and nibbled. Your beautiful breasts are so firm and sexy. I imagined licking up from your navel to between them, as I wondered about your nipples, whether they were a light rosy pink or a soft brown.
I cherish exactly who you are and what you are. I will bring out the real you hidden deep inside you. I will peel off the accumulated layers of resentment and perceptions to help know your real self. I know beneath your berated, calm, dutiful, mellowed, restrained, repressed, subdued, sober, solemn, somber, obdurate, orthodox external appearance you project, you are an untamed wild woman and should be tamed and trained.
I will be bringing out your crazy sexual wild slut side waiting to be unleashed, which perhaps you do not even know that exists within you yet. I know you are definitely a slut. Unleashing your inner slut that craves naughty, dirty sex side and make you orgasm over and over again and ask me for more. It's like magic. It seems that you have not been tamed and fucked properly by your late husband all these years, except abusing you physically and verbally since he could not satisfy you sexually. He has been suspicious of you because of your beauty and was afraid that you might have extramarital affairs. He abused you emotionally. Emotional abuse is any nonphysical behavior or attitude that controls, intimidates, subjugates, demeans, punishes or isolates another person by using degradation, humiliation or fear. Nonphysical behavior or attitude means neglect, invalidating another's thoughts and feelings, and refusing to acknowledge the needs of the other intentionally. Over a period of time, this kind of emotional climate in a marriage can squeeze the life out of a marriage and out of a wife. I understand that you have endured physical and emotional abuse all through married life. Yet, you did not submit yourself to your husband. But now
I will make you enjoy the same abuse you vehemently resented. Now that you are mine and you belong to me. I own you and possess you. I want to - be with you, abuse you, acquiescent you, acquiesce you, around you, admire you, adore you, align you, awake you, bang you, beat you, besiege you, command you, cuddle you, comfort you, coax you, debauch you, demand you, deprave you, drain you, dominate you, drill you, drink you, eat you, educate you, emancipate you, encircle you, engage you, endorse you, engorge you, enjoy you, enlarge you, enthrall you, enter you, entertain you, envelop you, evoke you, excite you, explore you, feel you, fill you, fondle you, free you, fuck you, give you, glamorize you, honor you, hump you, ignite you, imbibe you, induce you, incite you, indulge you, ingurgitate you, inveigle you, invoke you, involve you, kiss you, know you, lap you, lead you, lick you, love you, melt you, mount you, melt you, nibble you, open you, occupy you, pleasure you, peel you, procreate you, possess you, ram you, reach you, ride you, rip you, screw you, slurp you, subservient you, suck you, surround you, stroke you, squeeze you, tare you, taste you, tease you, tantalize you, teach you, treat you, tongue you, torment you, unite you, use you, and widen you. I want to make you happy and experience the ultimate sexual pleasure which you never thought possible and to make love every day and night. When I use and abuse you, You will be happy.
What stopped me so far? Fate, Time, Proximity and Distance I guess, or common sense. Because we were living in distant faraway places and you were someone else's wife, I did not want to cause trouble to your family life. I wanted to inform you about my love for you, earlier but knowing that you had suspicious husband stopped me to chase you. You may not be aware that I have waited for ten long years for you. Had we been living in the same town, I would have got enough time to comfort you, to make you confident and free, to chase, to seduce, to entice and fuck you. You would have become my mistress happily, even when your husband is alive. You would have divorced him, if he did not accept your extramarital affair with me. But, he would have become a voyeur, cuckold and be happy to see you fucked by me thoroughly. I would have impregnated you.
I understand how you feel now, having conflicting and confusing thoughts and thinking whether or not to accept me as your lover. I am sure you cannot think of rejecting my offer to be my slave. You need me. As a widow, having a illicit relationship with me may cause family problems to you, may disgrace your family social status and may cause obstacles for marriage of your two beautiful daughters. I assure you secrecy, if you so desire and do not do anything to tarnish your image. Let us meet to know each other. Tell me, share with me all your desires and fantasies, I will make them true. It is a promise. You cannot imagine the things I will do to you and make you to do willingly because you will be eager to please me and serve me. You will not regret having me as your lover. You will have psychological and physiological fulfillment of your needs, desires, dreams and fantasies.
My desire for you has been ever increasing in the last ten years. You have become more sexier as you mature. I want to experience the spirit of eternal beauty and tenderness mirrored in your eyes and fling you down under me on that softy belly of yours and fuck you up behind, like riding a horse, glorying in the very sweat that rises from your arse, of your flushed cheeks and tangled hair, to lie heads and tails with you feeling your fingers fondling and tickling his balls or stuck up in me behind and your hot lips sucking off my enormous monstrous long thick gargantuan gigantic cock while my head is wedged in between your fat thighs, my hands clutching the round cushions of your bum and my tongue licking ravenously up your rank red cunt. I will prompt your lips and tongue, to provoke me by obscene touches and noises, and even to do in his presence the most shameful and filthy act of the body. You will remember the day you pull up your clothes, bend over and beg me to fuck you. Then you will be ashamed even to meet my eyes. You are mine, darling, mine! I love you. I will make you my slave.
I will do everything possible to you and I want you to do everything and anything you want and desire. For me, every part of your body is precious and I will kiss, lick and lap your body. I will taste, lick, lap and slurp your sex juice. You resent your late husband because he is not enough of a man capable of fucking you, taming you, make you submit and surrender yourself to be used. That is the past.
I will show you what it means to get fucked and reach ecstatic whole body orgasm. Let me forewarn you, once I fuck you with or without your consent, you will be my slave for life. It is me who recognize the real slut in you, your inner self, You will be begging me for more and more because you need it and you want it. I am the man who can trigger simmering volcano and make you melt. Do not be afraid of knowing the real you in you, I will help you unleash your inner slut. You will definitely surrender and submit yourself to me and obey my orders.
You will enjoy the pleasure of submission like a horny bitch in heat or like an animal in mating season. You will enjoy and invite physical, verbal abuses by me, which you resented when meted out by your inept late husband without fucking you properly as you need. You are a woman born to be fucked. With me you will enjoy pleasure in pain. You will experience the ultimate pleasure of pain being submissive, controlled and ordered and fucked by me. You will enjoy when I use abusive, bawdy, cheap, derogatory, degenerated, dirty, gross, filthy, indecent, lewd, nasty, naughty, profane, repugnant, ribald, obscene and vulgar words. You are a real slut. You are whore. you are a tramp.
You will enjoy the kinky sex which you never heard or imagined that exists. I am not going to elaborate now on what kinky things I will do to you, because the surprise element makes it more pleasurable, when I do things to you. I want you so wrapped up in excruciating pleasure that the only thing that can occupy your mind is how to keep from bursting at the seams. You will explode like a simmering volcano triggered.
Shyamala, In fact, love, sex, pain and violence all stimulate the release of similar chemicals and hormones in the human body. Endorphins that are released in painful experiences are often perceived as pleasurable. Stress and pain can also stimulate the serotonin and melatonin production in the brain, which transforms painful experiences into pleasure. The release of epinephrine and norepinephrine in pain can also cause a pleasurable 'rush'. Human biological response supports the complex and mysterious link between pain and pleasure, which we see in the runner's high and the facial expressions during orgasmic release.
The practice of combining painful techniques with sexuality is ancient. Kama Sutra refers to safe practices reflecting the ancient rituals of sexual dominance and submission.. Loving someone emotionally creates the same pain and pleasure experience that lives in the body while making love to them. The moments of deep connection and intimacy, vulnerability and nakedness are matched by their opposite experience, feeling deeply hurt by your lover, by what was said, or, just as often, what went unsaid. The act of loving in whatever form requires a willingness to experience both the pain and pleasure. This is the piece of sustaining loving relationships that is easy to miss, or at least misunderstand, and tragically the place where we walk away from the heart of what we want most. I will make you experience and enjoy blissful pleasurable pain.
You are an erotic beauty. Every inch of you exudes raw sexuality. You seduce with your eyes, that slight smile, walking style and your mannerisms. Despite that fact you are elder to me by fourteen years and that you are a widow now makes me think that our relationship can flourish now. I can marry you and make you my wife for which you may say that society does not accept and approve. We can be lovers and soul mates forever. Do you think having clandestine love affair at this stage of your life is improper, immoral and illicit. You know very well that age does not matter.
In fact sexual intercourse between a matured woman and young man is more pleasurable. Come to me my darling, I will show you the heaven, make all your sexual dreams and fantasies come true. I envy the men who has the opportunity to see and enjoy your beautiful sexy figure every day. Had I met you eleven years ago, at Madras during your one year FIP, I would have definitely seduced and fucked you then, you would have happily become my lover committing adultery having an extramarital affair cheating your husband and betraying him. We could have enjoyed one year of living and fucking together. Later on he could have even enjoyed seeing you fucked by me. He would not have objected to your parallel extramarital relationship with me. You could have turned your husband to be a Voyeur and Cuckold. He would happily become your slave. You missed the opportunity.
It is not obvious how to explain this phenomenon as emotions are typically partial and exclusive. This is especially so in romantic love which requires a lot of energy and resources. People sometimes express the difficulty in loving two people at the same time, by posing it as a logical contradiction: "He cannot romantically love both me and her at the same time."
A plausible way of explaining this difficulty is to claim that romantic love is based upon a few significant characteristics of the beloved, and hence loving more than one person at a time may not be entirely unfeasible, as the additional love would be based upon a different set of characteristics, and thus the two loves could be considered complementary rather than contradictory. Another context for such polyamorous love is having two or more romantic relationships which are at a different stage: one could be at the infatuation stage and the other at a later, more mature stage. It seems that there is no logical contradiction in romantically loving two or more people at the same time, and the issue here is psychological, as it generates profound emotional dissonance. The dissonance stems from the fact that by definition, emotions demand partiality, that is, the preference of one over another, which entails some sort of exclusivity. Emotionally, it is extremely painful to imagine your lover in the arms of another person. Indeed, most of those who are being romantically in love or having multiple lovers with two or more people at the same time and pleased with the experience also claimed that they would do not find it enormously difficult and is possible, to share their beloved with someone else.
How can human society cope with such emotional dissonances? One approach may be to adapt our accepted norms concerning romantic and sexual exclusivity to reflect the occasional dissonances of our reality, a change which has indeed begun to take place in modern society. People now allow their spouses to have more freedom in their personal relationships with others, and attitude is more flexible also concerning sex. In many societies extramarital sex is disapproved socially, nevertheless, the transgressor is only mildly criticized for such activity. Indeed, extramarital affairs begin to be described in more neutral terms. Instead of the highly negative terms of adultery and betrayal, some people begin to use the more neutral term of parallel relationships. I have had parallel relationships with women without any problems.
I met your colleague Lakshmi eleven years ago at Technical Teachers Training Institute (TTTI), Madras while she was doing FIP, and she became my lover. I used to fuck her during that one year and continued thereafter. I know both you and Lakshmi are not on friendly terms. Ten years back, during one of my visits to Lakshmi I saw you. I fell in love with you at the first sight. It was fatal attraction and I decided to have you as mine. Lakshmi told me that before marriage, you used to come to college with your hair in two braids. The image of you in my mind in two braids at the age of twenty two was thrilling and exciting, I am anxious to see you now in two braids. I have been aware of animosity between two of you. Strangely, She was the reason I had the opportunity to see you. She is aware of my intense desire for you. I think, the reason of animosity between two of you is that 'both of you are beautiful and sexy'. You envy her because she was bold to divorce her inept tormenting husband, and has been able to get a lover of her choice, which you could not do. Now you know that I love you and desire you, envious feelings about Lakshmi should cease and both of should become my loving mistresses and sisters in sin.
I have seen you few days after your husband's demise when you came to Lakshmi 's house. There was no sadness or grief in your eyes. I saw immense relief in you. Despite being a new widow you are looking happy and beautiful exuding raw sexuality. You aroused my intense deep carnal desire for you. It is visible that the sudden demise of your husband brought out the real woman hidden inside you. I know that you were ready for me, and now available for me. You ready to be mine. I was sure that you noticed the desire for you in my eyes when I looked at you. I recognized the pent up desire in you and the real you in you. I think you are have felt that your wishful thinking became true when your husband died. It may sound sadistic and cruel but you can tell me. You are now free to do and live the way you desire. Your thoughts now are free galloping like wild horse with new found freedom.
You are like a wild horse. You need to be tamed. I am the man who can tame you. I know you are in an emotional and biological need that must be gratified. The perception of need begins with a rise in emotional intensity, you feel more strongly about being with someone who loves you, dominates you, protects you and possess you. As the intensity increases, it can feel like you need to have it, for one compelling reason: It's the same emotional process as biological need. When emotion suddenly rises, your biological needs increases. In other words, the perception of need becomes self-reinforcing: "I feel it, therefore, I need it, and if I need it, I have to feel it more."To love freely and safely, get in touch with your deepest desires, lurking beneath surface feelings of loneliness. Your deepest desires will lead you to a relationship with me based on compassion, kindness, fairness, intimacy, and love, rather than temporary excitement or relief from shame and loneliness. Do not be ashamed to recognize your need. You need a man who can tame you. It is me who can tame you. Any other man ca not tame you, control you, and dominate you. You need me.
You will enjoy the erotic humiliation by me. You are ultimate bitch and a Cunt. You need to be humiliated, degraded by me so that you realize what you really are. I urge you to awaken your erotic life. Embracing your erotic soul and deepening the intimacy in your life is both a consequence of deep presence and its gift. Healing yourself in your deepest erotic space can only be a deliberate act, and the doing of it miraculously heals everything else. Tapping into the courage to know your own deepest sexual thoughts and feelings, and offering them with your whole being, is both a life work and lasting gift.
Shyamala, You may wonder why am I using erotic filthy dirty obscene abusive words. I know you like them. If you want a simple answer, it is because You have come to recognize humiliation or humiliating treatment as a sexual behavior in the same way that most others would recognize flirting, or personal contact, or even a style of revealing dress or other behavior. You like a man to be in charge. All sex has an emotional aspect and humiliation is a very powerful emotion. You like humiliation and have probably learned to associate belittling treatment with the sex you are attracted to. It is possible this could come from trauma, but it may more commonly come from the personalities they have encountered in early life. It may be perhaps that you were abused in your childhood by a relative. You were definitely mistreated and abused by your husband. This desire is fairly common. So far you did not enjoy submission and humiliation.
The liking of humiliation varies from just enjoying some very specific fantasies, up to a liking for extreme and repeated mistreatment, but despite this it is really just part of the emotional aspect of human sexuality, though it can become quite addictive and a problem in some people. For you I am there to guide, direct, command, teach you to enjoy your journey of erotic humiliation.
Do you want to further waste your life living like a celibate without pleasure thinking of ethics, morals, traditions and social restrictions. Are you afraid of the disgrace that you may face socially and consequences, if you are in love affair now.
Men around you may be looking at you with desire but do not have capacity to recognize the real adventurous, amative, amazing, amorous, aphrodisiac, ardent, aroused, bewitching, carnal, concupiscent, desirous, enchanting, erotic, exotic, fascinating, fervid, hot, kinky, lascivious, libidinous, loving, lustful, lubricious, maudlin, romantic, passionate, prurient, sexy, sensual, steamy, stimulated, slut, sultry, voluptuous, wanton, wild, wistful person hidden in you. I recognized the hidden qualities in you long back and I want to have you as mine and I am sure you want to be mine.
I will help you to be a desirable and dazzling woman instead of desolate, sexy instead of being a seclusive, raunchy instead of being reclusive woman, and celebrate every moment of your life instead of being a celibate. So let's celebrate everything we are and everything we have with mind, body and soul! Once you learn to enjoy, you will not be afraid of the society, you will be confident and proud to announce to the world that you are now having an affair with young lover in your life.
My desire for you is so intense, many a time I wish I could have been your Neighbor, Colleague, Student or one of your family member, may be a Uncle, Uncle's son, Cousin, Brother, Brother-in-law, Nephew, Step-son or Son so that I can see you, talk to you, have you and know the real you in you. You may feel that I am thinking of taboo incestuous relationship with you. Whatever the relationship I want to have you. even if its incestuous, immoral, and taboo. You are celebration of feminine sexuality. Our relationship extends beyond this life. Perhaps we were related in our earlier janmas. You might have been my Mother, Aunt, Sister, Sister-in-law, Mother-in-law, Cousin, Lover, wife, Mistress or even Courtesan.
I would like to know you - your mind and body. What are the most sensitive erogenous zones of your body. I will find out when we meet. I will explore each and every minute part of your body and mind to know you. You may be thinking whether I will be able to satisfy your insatiable desires. Your mouth and pouting thick lips indicate that you have large and deep Cunt, thick cunt lips and prominent protruding big clitoris. You will be able to take a big horse's cock and needs to be fucked for very long time to reach vaginal, clitoral and whole body orgasm. I am endowed with humongously hung long thick fat monstrous magnificent special cock with huge knob. Your cunt will stretched, torn, deepened, widened once I fuck you. I will fuck you baby, so much that you plead for mercy. You will love it so much that you will become my slave, baby.
Women are the receiving sex and women want to submit to a dominant man. The shared animating impulse described by all these ideas is the innate compulsion of women to be desired. Desired so strongly that a man loses control of himself. Women are, by their very nature, irredeemably solipsistic, and this solipsism is a function of their genetic prime directive: to use their bodies and their beauty to capture the seed and the services of a high value man. This aspect of female sexuality explains the prevalence of Ra*e fantasies in the female fantasy repertoire. Ra*e fantasies, in this understanding, are actually fantasies about surrender, not out of masochistic yearnings to be harmed or punished, but out of the female desire to be desired by a man to the point of driving him out of control.
There are plenty of women who yearn to be punished, even if their yearning operates mostly on the subconscious level of cognition, It's as if a woman's desire to be desired is, when taken to extremes, warped into a need for punishing treatment as the only demonstrations of male desire that will mean anything to her. I want to fulfill your desires. You are submissive by nature and realize and bring out the real self from subconscious level.
Lovingly Your Master
Shiva
P.S:
Your date of Birth September 14, indicates that your Zodiac sign is Virgo. Virgos have a deep buried sensuality. Outwardly they maintain a cool and calm composure but buried deep inside are great passions. Virgos are very choosy about their lover. In sexual relationship they are very caring and controlling too and can make their partner feel the most wanted person on the earth. They are perfectionists and secretive by nature. The sexual relationship with a Virgo lover may not be a bed of roses. The effort has to be made to unearth and stir the deep buried passions and then you become the vortex of their life.
Chapter 6
TTTI-FIP
Lakshmi, a former student later became colleague of Shyamalavathy in the same department was not on friendly terms with her. Both stay in the opposite houses in the colony. Forty year old Lakshmi, a beautiful lean sexy divorcee with knee length hair has been a mistress of Shiva for eleven years. They met in Madras when Lakshmi was doing one year FIP. They were staying in TTTI hostel.
Technical Teachers Training Institute (TTTI) is also known as 'Tantalizing Temptress Teachers Institute.' Most of the women lecturers from various colleges who opt one year Faculty Improvement Program (FIP) on deputation are Single, Unmarried, Spinsters, Married but unhappy, Married and Separated, divorced or Widows. They are away from family and place work and their known environment for one year and free to acquire and enjoy lovers. They are hungry for sex and look for a mate. Extramarital affairs and illicit sex relationships happen during the FIP. FIP is also known as 'Fucking included Program.'
Some of the women who come to TTTI for one year FIP may not have intentions initially to acquire lovers, have extramarital affairs and enjoy sex. Convenience, Proximity and opportunity influence and induce them to look for sexual adventures. Both men and women live in the same hostel having common mess and common indoor auditorium. Men and Women opt for this one year FIP, to improve their knowledge and teaching methodologies and also as a prerequisite for their career advancement. Whether they really are benefited improving their pedagogical skills, most certainly they improve their tantalizing skills enjoying the freedom and sex with new partners immensely. Once they go back to their home towns they continue their established affairs or use effectively and implement newly acquired erotic skills during one year FIP to acquire more lovers and to have adulterous, amorous, clandestine, illicit, illegitimate, secret and extramarital affairs. They become more tantalizing temptress, provocative, sexy and seductive. The sexual experiences during FIP make them more hungry for sex looking for variety in sex and normally will have multiple partners. Some of them of use these acquired skills for the advancement of their career using sex once they go back. There is lot of competition for women at TTTI since the number of women are less compared to men. Women can select the partners as per their choice and desire. Some Women FIP candidates change their lovers in that one year and some women have multiple lovers concurrently.
I joined as a Research scholar in the adjoining CSIR Research Institute. Since the Institute I joined did not have Hostel facilities, We were provided hostel facilities in TTTI on request.
Lakshmi, a Lecturer aged 29, a divorcee, mother of a six year old son, joined FIP. Being a divorce and celibate for four years, TTTIFIP program offered the best opportunity. Lakshmi is 160 cm tall, lean, skinny fair woman with oily smooth, clear, unblemished and radiant glowing skin, beautiful round face, well defined thick eye brows, large expressive eyes, full wide mouth, juicy thick lips. Her lower lip being thicker is very exciting and erotic. She has smooth neck, thin long smooth arms, and long artistic fingers. Her breasts hung from lean chest and big nipples extend out of her slender lean frame made her brazenly top heavy. Her very narrow thin taut waist curvaceously spread onto firm bottom and hemispherical protruding round hips. Her bewitchingly beautiful, tantalizing thick, long, soft, silky, jet-black, lustrous, shining, wavy, voluminous and uniformly thick hair reaches her knees. Her lean curvaceous body firm yet full at the bosom and wide hips and long legs are erotic. She has blemish less radiant and glowing smooth translucent skin. She is extremely curvy with everything being tight, toned, and feminine, with low body fat, low BMI, extremely narrow thin waist and wide hips. She has sweet, melodious sexy voice. She is every inch an exuberant,, sexy, sensuous, vivacious, glowing and exuding and oozing charming feminine sexuality.
Lakshmi was at her sexual peak. She befriended and fell deeply in love with Shiva. Shiva got attracted to her. She needs man to fuck and satisfy her sexual desires. They soon became lovers. He especially liked Lakshmi's knee length thick hair. Lakshmi is wild in bed and Shankhini woman. The hostel was common for both men and women. For one year Lakshmi enjoyed fucking with Shiva. They used to go to movies and outing on weekends. She actually started treating Shiva as her husband. They went to Tirumala and stayed there for three days in the cottage. It was like a honeymoon. They stayed a cottage at Golden beach for two nights and enjoyed fucking on a full moon night on the beach. They have five day week. Every weekend, over the course of their year-long honeymoon, Lakshmi and her lover husband Shiva visited Kanchipuram, Madurai, Kodaikanal, Ooty, Connor, Thanjavur, Mahabaleswaram, Rameswaram, Coimbatore, Tuticorin, Tirunelveli and Kanyakumari. On some weekends Subhalakshmi Lakshmi colleague another FIP candidate also joined them.
After the one year FIP program, Lakshmi went to her home town. Shiva used to visit her place regularly. She introduced him to all her friends inviting them for Lunch or dinner when he visited. Everyone in the College, Colony and her family know about the affair between Lakshmi and Shiva. Lakshmi told everyone that She is Shiva's mistress.
Shiva used to see Shyamalavathy during his occasional visits to Lakshmi's house and saw Shyamalavathy. Shiva asked her Lakshmi to introduce Shyamala. She told Shiva about Shyamalavathy husband's suspicious nature that was well known in the colony, when she observed Shiva gazing at her and obviously interested to have her. Lakshmi being Shiva's mistress for ten years is envious of Shyamalavathy because of her beauty and does not want to introduce him to Shyamalavathy.
Shiva's knowledge about female psychology, language skills and poetic writing style very much impressed Shyamala. He even wrote poetry praising her beauty. In his letters he describes her with beautiful words phrases what he saw in her body, her style of walking, the way her thick braid moves on her hips. Shiva skillfully uses the language to express his emotions, feelings, love and sexual desire for her. He writes how he is going to treat her as sex goddess, worship her beautiful body and make passionate love to her. His letters aroused her sexual desire. It was like reading erotic romantic sexually explicit pornographic novels stimulating her core banal desire. Her unsatisfied hunger for sex has become pronounced and surfaced. She felt that she is being chased and courted by him who wants her so much that he wants take her and devour her. She wants to be taken by him. She wants to submit herself to him. The thought of submission to him is so pleasurable and exciting.
Dear Sir
I am again surprised to learn that you are younger to me by fourteen years and you have been Lakshmi's lover. I fell in love with you through your letters communicating romantic intimate passionate deep love and desire for me. I am also honored that you recognize my inner qualities as described by you with so many praising adjectives. I have to look up dictionary to understand the meaning of phrases you used to describe me. Even the derogatory and debauchery words you wrote electrified me, twisted my nerves sending shocking sex waves through my mind and body. I wonder whether I deserve and qualify to be described like this. You also have awakened my desires. It seems you are an expert mind reader.
I remember seeing you many a time during your visits to my colleague, the bitchy Lakshmi. I noticed you gazing at me with intense desire every day when I go to the college and return. I could not reciprocate. I had been aware that you have been observing me from the terrace of Lakshmi's house. You are young, tall, handsome irresistible masculine man. I envy that bitch Lakshmi for having you as lover. My desire to be your lover becomes more intensified because you are Lakshmi's lover. The fact that Lakshmi's lover desires me more gives me pleasure and a feeling of triumph. It is a feeling of triumph and victory over Lakshmi. I feel jealous of Lakshmi because she was bold to divorce her husband and found you, seven year younger young man as her lover.
I saw many a time you and Lakshmi going to movies whenever you visit as if you both are husband and wife. You are a handsome hunk and a stud. She flaunts and told everyone in the college that you are her lover. I wish I was at TTTI Madras during that one year FIP instead of Lakshmi when you were staying there in the Hostel. We could have had wonderful time at least during that one year together. I am sure you would have chosen me instead of Lakshmi if I were there. Did that bitch trapped you then? I think so! You were only twenty two then, young, virile, and bubbling with uncontrollable desire and stamina. She provided her body to you to release your youthful sexual energies into her. If I were there instead of her I could have been your lover instead of her. I missed the opportunity.
My dear sir, It gives me immense colossal pleasure to note that you think I am more beautiful, sexy, desirable and erotic than Lakshmi. I know that you regularly write letters to Lakshmi. Have you informed that bitch about us. She does not seem to know yet, that you have been writing to me, had she known she must have spread the news like a wildfire by now. Does she know that you love me more than her and prefer me? I wonder what do you like in that abominable, belligerent, obscene, cheap, contentious, cunning, deplorable, disgusting, loose malicious, resentful, tongued, vindictive, vengeful, wicked bitch Lakshmi. She is amoral, depraved, perverted, lewd, malicious gossipmonger. She uses abusive, blasphemous, desecrate, profanatory sacrilegious words and hurls a volley of invectives against colleagues. I know her and she was my student. She got fucked by many men. Whenever You visit her she behaves as if her husband came home after long time and proudly tells everyone, inviting her other depraved divorced degenerated deceitful deplorable friends home to show you off. I am sure you know about her nature and psychology and the type of women she is friendly with.. It seems that you bring her beautiful costly saris from various places that you visit on you business tours. She tells everyone that you brought such saris for her. I am sure you control and tame her wild nature. Whenever you visit her, you must be fucking her thoroughly many a time the whole night, because the next day everyone can see that she has not slept the previous night and looks like thoroughly and mercilessly used by you. It seems she tells her friends in vivid details how you fuck her. She records your conversation with her while fucking and plays them to her friends. She is happy to be used by you.
I know that she is sexy in a way, though lean, with smaller breasts, and smaller ass than me. Men get attracted to her by her animal magnetism. She traps men. She of course has long hair reaching her calves. Are you attracted to her and her sisters because of their long hair. I am aware many men are attracted to longhaired women. You must be enjoying her Sisters, her Sister's daughters and her friends Bharathalakshmi, Vasundhara, Lathadevi, Shubhalakashmi and her neighbor Kusuma She must be arranging women for you. You may not know about Lakshmi's real character. Everyone says that She got fucked by all her brother-in-laws before her marriage, which was the reason her husband divorced her. She must have been fucked by all her brother-in-laws from teenage. She still continue to get fucked by her brother-in-laws , getting fucked by her tenant, one of our young colleague and the Mason who constructed her house. She traps young male students to satisfy her nymphomania. She perhaps likes variety and needs a man to fuck her every night. Surprisingly, she tells everyone that You are her only lover. I wonder how and why you love her. Do you continue to have relationship with her because she arranges her relatives and friends for your sexual pleasure. She has long hair. Are you obsessed with long haired women?
You are aware that I too have hip length thick hair and I think you will like the feel and texture of my hair. I should take care of my body more carefully to look sexy and present to you. I am doing more exercises to keep me fit for your use and abuse. I am surprised at myself that I enjoy and get excited with uncontrollable desire reading your raunchy, explicit, uninhibited, erotic, vulgar letters and filthy words you use. The letters filled with dirty, filthy vulgar derogatory words and phrases which would normally makes a woman feel offended and humiliated. I am enjoying thoroughly reading them. You have definitely helped me learn, improve and enjoy indecent, vulgar, filthy and obscene vocabulary.
Sir, The very thought of you dominating me arouses me to the core. It's not just pain or forceful physical dominance that get me going. The power is also in your words-in the triggers. In the real world I don't approve of the words like whore or slut being used to shame me. I also don't like being told what to do. Tell me not to do something, say something, or wear something and I'll immediately want to do it. That's how it used to be with my late husband. With you, though, the things I can't abide in real life become eroticized. Strongly delivered, these words are a major turn on. I long to be told what to do by you. I want to give you, my Sir complete control of me. I want you to dominate me, control me and order me. I enjoy every 'Please, Sir' and 'Thank you, Sir' I utter. I'm aroused by the fear of being punished for not completing a task or forgetting to ask permission. These triggers are strong and working for me when I am writing. I've been reduced to a wet mess with just reading your letters. My kama juices overflows from my cunt making my petticoat drenched. I have no choice but to masturbate to orgasm thinking of you. It has become essential for me to read your letters, imagine you and masturbate to endless multiple orgasms every night without which I can't sleep. I am eagerly waiting to actual experience of your young virile hard huge monstrous long thick big gigantic cock penetrating, forcing, opening, widening, expanding, filling deep into my cunt and then fuck me hard and deep long time making me reach ecstatic orgasms. You enquired about my physical measurements. I think you already knew. I am 160 cm height, 67 kg Wt., 36DD-26-40., BMI 26.2.
Lovingly and eagerly waiting to be Yours - K. Shyamalavathy
Chapter 7
Shyamalavathy and Shiva exchanged letters almost every day. She started sharing her thoughts uninhibitedly, her troubled life controlled by her suspicious dominating husband, secrets, memories and other feelings which she never shared with anyone else for the fear of misunderstood. In him, she found a close intimate friend and soul mate with whom she can share anything and everything. The question that puzzled her is whether or not he is as wonderful, romantic, passionate, chivalrous in person as he is in his letters, letters that were given much thought, letters written so romantically and eloquently, letters that touched her heart and excite her!
His really powerful communication, that actually delivers to her the value of human connection is based in authenticity. it made Shyamalavathy to get to her authentic self through exploring and unleashing her inner self. He empowered her to be confident and true to herself. She was eagerly waiting for his letter.
While writing letter to him, Her mind opened, thoughts flowing into words. It was like water flowing out of a dam after opening the flood gates. She felt like purging out her deep rooted thoughts, memories, feelings from her mind.
Shiva wrote
My dearest darling Sexy Sensuous Sizzling Shy-am-a-lava-thy
The few times I had the opportunity to see you, from the opposite house terrace, and while you walk to college and back home, it had taken his breath away. Seeing your smooth, soft shiny skin, with your hip length long hair braid adorned with flowers oscillating like pendulum on your swinging hips, your big breasts and bigger ass had an unbelievable impact that my cock becomes hard and erect. Had I been near you, I might have taken you right there and then. Your flat stomach showed the discipline of years of exercise and yoga. Your lithe neck, collarbone and chin are so shapely - they simply cry out to be kissed and nibbled. Your beautiful breasts are so firm and sexy. I imagined licking up from your navel to between them, as I wondered about your nipples, whether they were a light rosy pink or a soft brown.
I cherish exactly who you are and what you are. I will bring out the real you hidden deep inside you. I will peel off the accumulated layers of resentment and perceptions to help know your real self. I know beneath your berated, calm, dutiful, mellowed, restrained, repressed, subdued, sober, solemn, somber, obdurate, orthodox external appearance you project, you are an untamed wild woman and should be tamed and trained.
I will be bringing out your crazy sexual wild slut side waiting to be unleashed, which perhaps you do not even know that exists within you yet. I know you are definitely a slut. Unleashing your inner slut that craves naughty, dirty sex side and make you orgasm over and over again and ask me for more. It's like magic. It seems that you have not been tamed and fucked properly by your late husband all these years, except abusing you physically and verbally since he could not satisfy you sexually. He has been suspicious of you because of your beauty and was afraid that you might have extramarital affairs. He abused you emotionally. Emotional abuse is any nonphysical behavior or attitude that controls, intimidates, subjugates, demeans, punishes or isolates another person by using degradation, humiliation or fear. Nonphysical behavior or attitude means neglect, invalidating another's thoughts and feelings, and refusing to acknowledge the needs of the other intentionally. Over a period of time, this kind of emotional climate in a marriage can squeeze the life out of a marriage and out of a wife. I understand that you have endured physical and emotional abuse all through married life. Yet, you did not submit yourself to your husband. But now
I will make you enjoy the same abuse you vehemently resented. Now that you are mine and you belong to me. I own you and possess you. I want to - be with you, abuse you, acquiescent you, acquiesce you, around you, admire you, adore you, align you, awake you, bang you, beat you, besiege you, command you, cuddle you, comfort you, coax you, debauch you, demand you, deprave you, drain you, dominate you, drill you, drink you, eat you, educate you, emancipate you, encircle you, engage you, endorse you, engorge you, enjoy you, enlarge you, enthrall you, enter you, entertain you, envelop you, evoke you, excite you, explore you, feel you, fill you, fondle you, free you, fuck you, give you, glamorize you, honor you, hump you, ignite you, imbibe you, induce you, incite you, indulge you, ingurgitate you, inveigle you, invoke you, involve you, kiss you, know you, lap you, lead you, lick you, love you, melt you, mount you, melt you, nibble you, open you, occupy you, pleasure you, peel you, procreate you, possess you, ram you, reach you, ride you, rip you, screw you, slurp you, subservient you, suck you, surround you, stroke you, squeeze you, tare you, taste you, tease you, tantalize you, teach you, treat you, tongue you, torment you, unite you, use you, and widen you. I want to make you happy and experience the ultimate sexual pleasure which you never thought possible and to make love every day and night. When I use and abuse you, You will be happy.
What stopped me so far? Fate, Time, Proximity and Distance I guess, or common sense. Because we were living in distant faraway places and you were someone else's wife, I did not want to cause trouble to your family life. I wanted to inform you about my love for you, earlier but knowing that you had suspicious husband stopped me to chase you. You may not be aware that I have waited for ten long years for you. Had we been living in the same town, I would have got enough time to comfort you, to make you confident and free, to chase, to seduce, to entice and fuck you. You would have become my mistress happily, even when your husband is alive. You would have divorced him, if he did not accept your extramarital affair with me. But, he would have become a voyeur, cuckold and be happy to see you fucked by me thoroughly. I would have impregnated you.
I understand how you feel now, having conflicting and confusing thoughts and thinking whether or not to accept me as your lover. I am sure you cannot think of rejecting my offer to be my slave. You need me. As a widow, having a illicit relationship with me may cause family problems to you, may disgrace your family social status and may cause obstacles for marriage of your two beautiful daughters. I assure you secrecy, if you so desire and do not do anything to tarnish your image. Let us meet to know each other. Tell me, share with me all your desires and fantasies, I will make them true. It is a promise. You cannot imagine the things I will do to you and make you to do willingly because you will be eager to please me and serve me. You will not regret having me as your lover. You will have psychological and physiological fulfillment of your needs, desires, dreams and fantasies.
My desire for you has been ever increasing in the last ten years. You have become more sexier as you mature. I want to experience the spirit of eternal beauty and tenderness mirrored in your eyes and fling you down under me on that softy belly of yours and fuck you up behind, like riding a horse, glorying in the very sweat that rises from your arse, of your flushed cheeks and tangled hair, to lie heads and tails with you feeling your fingers fondling and tickling his balls or stuck up in me behind and your hot lips sucking off my enormous monstrous long thick gargantuan gigantic cock while my head is wedged in between your fat thighs, my hands clutching the round cushions of your bum and my tongue licking ravenously up your rank red cunt. I will prompt your lips and tongue, to provoke me by obscene touches and noises, and even to do in his presence the most shameful and filthy act of the body. You will remember the day you pull up your clothes, bend over and beg me to fuck you. Then you will be ashamed even to meet my eyes. You are mine, darling, mine! I love you. I will make you my slave.
I will do everything possible to you and I want you to do everything and anything you want and desire. For me, every part of your body is precious and I will kiss, lick and lap your body. I will taste, lick, lap and slurp your sex juice. You resent your late husband because he is not enough of a man capable of fucking you, taming you, make you submit and surrender yourself to be used. That is the past.
I will show you what it means to get fucked and reach ecstatic whole body orgasm. Let me forewarn you, once I fuck you with or without your consent, you will be my slave for life. It is me who recognize the real slut in you, your inner self, You will be begging me for more and more because you need it and you want it. I am the man who can trigger simmering volcano and make you melt. Do not be afraid of knowing the real you in you, I will help you unleash your inner slut. You will definitely surrender and submit yourself to me and obey my orders.
You will enjoy the pleasure of submission like a horny bitch in heat or like an animal in mating season. You will enjoy and invite physical, verbal abuses by me, which you resented when meted out by your inept late husband without fucking you properly as you need. You are a woman born to be fucked. With me you will enjoy pleasure in pain. You will experience the ultimate pleasure of pain being submissive, controlled and ordered and fucked by me. You will enjoy when I use abusive, bawdy, cheap, derogatory, degenerated, dirty, gross, filthy, indecent, lewd, nasty, naughty, profane, repugnant, ribald, obscene and vulgar words. You are a real slut. You are whore. you are a tramp.
You will enjoy the kinky sex which you never heard or imagined that exists. I am not going to elaborate now on what kinky things I will do to you, because the surprise element makes it more pleasurable, when I do things to you. I want you so wrapped up in excruciating pleasure that the only thing that can occupy your mind is how to keep from bursting at the seams. You will explode like a simmering volcano triggered.
Shyamala, In fact, love, sex, pain and violence all stimulate the release of similar chemicals and hormones in the human body. Endorphins that are released in painful experiences are often perceived as pleasurable. Stress and pain can also stimulate the serotonin and melatonin production in the brain, which transforms painful experiences into pleasure. The release of epinephrine and norepinephrine in pain can also cause a pleasurable 'rush'. Human biological response supports the complex and mysterious link between pain and pleasure, which we see in the runner's high and the facial expressions during orgasmic release.
The practice of combining painful techniques with sexuality is ancient. Kama Sutra refers to safe practices reflecting the ancient rituals of sexual dominance and submission.. Loving someone emotionally creates the same pain and pleasure experience that lives in the body while making love to them. The moments of deep connection and intimacy, vulnerability and nakedness are matched by their opposite experience, feeling deeply hurt by your lover, by what was said, or, just as often, what went unsaid. The act of loving in whatever form requires a willingness to experience both the pain and pleasure. This is the piece of sustaining loving relationships that is easy to miss, or at least misunderstand, and tragically the place where we walk away from the heart of what we want most. I will make you experience and enjoy blissful pleasurable pain.
