Update 03
Shiva used to see Shyamalavathy during his occasional visits to Lakshmi's house and saw Shyamalavathy. Shiva asked her Lakshmi to introduce Shyamala. She told Shiva about Shyamalavathy husband's suspicious nature that was well known in the colony, when she observed Shiva gazing at her and obviously interested to have her. Lakshmi being Shiva's mistress for ten years is envious of Shyamalavathy because of her beauty and does not want to introduce him to Shyamalavathy.
Shiva's knowledge about female psychology, language skills and poetic writing style very much impressed Shyamala. He even wrote poetry praising her beauty. In his letters he describes her with beautiful words phrases what he saw in her body, her style of walking, the way her thick braid moves on her hips. Shiva skillfully uses the language to express his emotions, feelings, love and sexual desire for her. He writes how he is going to treat her as sex goddess, worship her beautiful body and make passionate love to her. His letters aroused her sexual desire. It was like reading erotic romantic sexually explicit pornographic novels stimulating her core banal desire. Her unsatisfied hunger for sex has become pronounced and surfaced. She felt that she is being chased and courted by him who wants her so much that he wants take her and devour her. She wants to be taken by him. She wants to submit herself to him. The thought of submission to him is so pleasurable and exciting.
Dear Sir
I am again surprised to learn that you are younger to me by fourteen years and you have been Lakshmi's lover. I fell in love with you through your letters communicating romantic intimate passionate deep love and desire for me. I am also honored that you recognize my inner qualities as described by you with so many praising adjectives. I have to look up dictionary to understand the meaning of phrases you used to describe me. Even the derogatory and debauchery words you wrote electrified me, twisted my nerves sending shocking sex waves through my mind and body. I wonder whether I deserve and qualify to be described like this. You also have awakened my desires. It seems you are an expert mind reader.
I remember seeing you many a time during your visits to my colleague, the bitchy Lakshmi. I noticed you gazing at me with intense desire every day when I go to the college and return. I could not reciprocate. I had been aware that you have been observing me from the terrace of Lakshmi's house. You are young, tall, handsome irresistible masculine man. I envy that bitch Lakshmi for having you as lover. My desire to be your lover becomes more intensified because you are Lakshmi's lover. The fact that Lakshmi's lover desires me more gives me pleasure and a feeling of triumph. It is a feeling of triumph and victory over Lakshmi. I feel jealous of Lakshmi because she was bold to divorce her husband and found you, seven year younger young man as her lover.
I saw many a time you and Lakshmi going to movies whenever you visit as if you both are husband and wife. You are a handsome hunk and a stud. She flaunts and told everyone in the college that you are her lover. I wish I was at TTTI Madras during that one year FIP instead of Lakshmi when you were staying there in the Hostel. We could have had wonderful time at least during that one year together. I am sure you would have chosen me instead of Lakshmi if I were there. Did that bitch trapped you then? I think so! You were only twenty two then, young, virile, and bubbling with uncontrollable desire and stamina. She provided her body to you to release your youthful sexual energies into her. If I were there instead of her I could have been your lover instead of her. I missed the opportunity.
My dear sir, It gives me immense colossal pleasure to note that you think I am more beautiful, sexy, desirable and erotic than Lakshmi. I know that you regularly write letters to Lakshmi. Have you informed that bitch about us. She does not seem to know yet, that you have been writing to me, had she known she must have spread the news like a wildfire by now. Does she know that you love me more than her and prefer me? I wonder what do you like in that abominable, belligerent, obscene, cheap, contentious, cunning, deplorable, disgusting, loose malicious, resentful, tongued, vindictive, vengeful, wicked bitch Lakshmi. She is amoral, depraved, perverted, lewd, malicious gossipmonger. She uses abusive, blasphemous, desecrate, profanatory sacrilegious words and hurls a volley of invectives against colleagues. I know her and she was my student. She got fucked by many men. Whenever You visit her she behaves as if her husband came home after long time and proudly tells everyone, inviting her other depraved divorced degenerated deceitful deplorable friends home to show you off. I am sure you know about her nature and psychology and the type of women she is friendly with.. It seems that you bring her beautiful costly saris from various places that you visit on you business tours. She tells everyone that you brought such saris for her. I am sure you control and tame her wild nature. Whenever you visit her, you must be fucking her thoroughly many a time the whole night, because the next day everyone can see that she has not slept the previous night and looks like thoroughly and mercilessly used by you. It seems she tells her friends in vivid details how you fuck her. She records your conversation with her while fucking and plays them to her friends. She is happy to be used by you.
I know that she is sexy in a way, though lean, with smaller breasts, and smaller ass than me. Men get attracted to her by her animal magnetism. She traps men. She of course has long hair reaching her calves. Are you attracted to her and her sisters because of their long hair. I am aware many men are attracted to longhaired women. You must be enjoying her Sisters, her Sister's daughters and her friends Bharathalakshmi, Vasundhara, Lathadevi, Shubhalakashmi and her neighbor Kusuma She must be arranging women for you. You may not know about Lakshmi's real character. Everyone says that She got fucked by all her brother-in-laws before her marriage, which was the reason her husband divorced her. She must have been fucked by all her brother-in-laws from teenage. She still continue to get fucked by her brother-in-laws , getting fucked by her tenant, one of our young colleague and the Mason who constructed her house. She traps young male students to satisfy her nymphomania. She perhaps likes variety and needs a man to fuck her every night. Surprisingly, she tells everyone that You are her only lover. I wonder how and why you love her. Do you continue to have relationship with her because she arranges her relatives and friends for your sexual pleasure. She has long hair. Are you obsessed with long haired women?
You are aware that I too have hip length thick hair and I think you will like the feel and texture of my hair. I should take care of my body more carefully to look sexy and present to you. I am doing more exercises to keep me fit for your use and abuse. I am surprised at myself that I enjoy and get excited with uncontrollable desire reading your raunchy, explicit, uninhibited, erotic, vulgar letters and filthy words you use. The letters filled with dirty, filthy vulgar derogatory words and phrases which would normally makes a woman feel offended and humiliated. I am enjoying thoroughly reading them. You have definitely helped me learn, improve and enjoy indecent, vulgar, filthy and obscene vocabulary.
Sir, The very thought of you dominating me arouses me to the core. It's not just pain or forceful physical dominance that get me going. The power is also in your words-in the triggers. In the real world I don't approve of the words like whore or slut being used to shame me. I also don't like being told what to do. Tell me not to do something, say something, or wear something and I'll immediately want to do it. That's how it used to be with my late husband. With you, though, the things I can't abide in real life become eroticized. Strongly delivered, these words are a major turn on. I long to be told what to do by you. I want to give you, my Sir complete control of me. I want you to dominate me, control me and order me. I enjoy every 'Please, Sir' and 'Thank you, Sir' I utter. I'm aroused by the fear of being punished for not completing a task or forgetting to ask permission. These triggers are strong and working for me when I am writing. I've been reduced to a wet mess with just reading your letters. My kama juices overflows from my cunt making my petticoat drenched. I have no choice but to masturbate to orgasm thinking of you. It has become essential for me to read your letters, imagine you and masturbate to endless multiple orgasms every night without which I can't sleep. I am eagerly waiting to actual experience of your young virile hard huge monstrous long thick big gigantic cock penetrating, forcing, opening, widening, expanding, filling deep into my cunt and then fuck me hard and deep long time making me reach ecstatic orgasms. You enquired about my physical measurements. I think you already knew. I am 160 cm height, 67 kg Wt., 36DD-26-40., BMI 26.2.
Lovingly and eagerly waiting to be Yours - K. Shyamalavathy
Chapter 7
Shyamalavathy and Shiva exchanged letters almost every day. She started sharing her thoughts uninhibitedly, her troubled life controlled by her suspicious dominating husband, secrets, memories and other feelings which she never shared with anyone else for the fear of misunderstood. In him, she found a close intimate friend and soul mate with whom she can share anything and everything. The question that puzzled her is whether or not he is as wonderful, romantic, passionate, chivalrous in person as he is in his letters, letters that were given much thought, letters written so romantically and eloquently, letters that touched her heart and excite her!
His really powerful communication, that actually delivers to her the value of human connection is based in authenticity. it made Shyamalavathy to get to her authentic self through exploring and unleashing her inner self. He empowered her to be confident and true to herself. She was eagerly waiting for his letter.
While writing letter to him, Her mind opened, thoughts flowing into words. It was like water flowing out of a dam after opening the flood gates. She felt like purging out her deep rooted thoughts, memories, feelings from her mind.
Shiva wrote
My dearest darling Sexy Sensuous Sizzling Shy-am-a-lava-thy
The few times I had the opportunity to see you, from the opposite house terrace, and while you walk to college and back home, it had taken his breath away. Seeing your smooth, soft shiny skin, with your hip length long hair braid adorned with flowers oscillating like pendulum on your swinging hips, your big breasts and bigger ass had an unbelievable impact that my cock becomes hard and erect. Had I been near you, I might have taken you right there and then. Your flat stomach showed the discipline of years of exercise and yoga. Your lithe neck, collarbone and chin are so shapely - they simply cry out to be kissed and nibbled. Your beautiful breasts are so firm and sexy. I imagined licking up from your navel to between them, as I wondered about your nipples, whether they were a light rosy pink or a soft brown.
I cherish exactly who you are and what you are. I will bring out the real you hidden deep inside you. I will peel off the accumulated layers of resentment and perceptions to help know your real self. I know beneath your berated, calm, dutiful, mellowed, restrained, repressed, subdued, sober, solemn, somber, obdurate, orthodox external appearance you project, you are an untamed wild woman and should be tamed and trained.
I will be bringing out your crazy sexual wild slut side waiting to be unleashed, which perhaps you do not even know that exists within you yet. I know you are definitely a slut. Unleashing your inner slut that craves naughty, dirty sex side and make you orgasm over and over again and ask me for more. It's like magic. It seems that you have not been tamed and fucked properly by your late husband all these years, except abusing you physically and verbally since he could not satisfy you sexually. He has been suspicious of you because of your beauty and was afraid that you might have extramarital affairs. He abused you emotionally. Emotional abuse is any nonphysical behavior or attitude that controls, intimidates, subjugates, demeans, punishes or isolates another person by using degradation, humiliation or fear. Nonphysical behavior or attitude means neglect, invalidating another's thoughts and feelings, and refusing to acknowledge the needs of the other intentionally. Over a period of time, this kind of emotional climate in a marriage can squeeze the life out of a marriage and out of a wife. I understand that you have endured physical and emotional abuse all through married life. Yet, you did not submit yourself to your husband. But now
I will make you enjoy the same abuse you vehemently resented. Now that you are mine and you belong to me. I own you and possess you. I want to - be with you, abuse you, acquiescent you, acquiesce you, around you, admire you, adore you, align you, awake you, bang you, beat you, besiege you, command you, cuddle you, comfort you, coax you, debauch you, demand you, deprave you, drain you, dominate you, drill you, drink you, eat you, educate you, emancipate you, encircle you, engage you, endorse you, engorge you, enjoy you, enlarge you, enthrall you, enter you, entertain you, envelop you, evoke you, excite you, explore you, feel you, fill you, fondle you, free you, fuck you, give you, glamorize you, honor you, hump you, ignite you, imbibe you, induce you, incite you, indulge you, ingurgitate you, inveigle you, invoke you, involve you, kiss you, know you, lap you, lead you, lick you, love you, melt you, mount you, melt you, nibble you, open you, occupy you, pleasure you, peel you, procreate you, possess you, ram you, reach you, ride you, rip you, screw you, slurp you, subservient you, suck you, surround you, stroke you, squeeze you, tare you, taste you, tease you, tantalize you, teach you, treat you, tongue you, torment you, unite you, use you, and widen you. I want to make you happy and experience the ultimate sexual pleasure which you never thought possible and to make love every day and night. When I use and abuse you, You will be happy.
What stopped me so far? Fate, Time, Proximity and Distance I guess, or common sense. Because we were living in distant faraway places and you were someone else's wife, I did not want to cause trouble to your family life. I wanted to inform you about my love for you, earlier but knowing that you had suspicious husband stopped me to chase you. You may not be aware that I have waited for ten long years for you. Had we been living in the same town, I would have got enough time to comfort you, to make you confident and free, to chase, to seduce, to entice and fuck you. You would have become my mistress happily, even when your husband is alive. You would have divorced him, if he did not accept your extramarital affair with me. But, he would have become a voyeur, cuckold and be happy to see you fucked by me thoroughly. I would have impregnated you.
I understand how you feel now, having conflicting and confusing thoughts and thinking whether or not to accept me as your lover. I am sure you cannot think of rejecting my offer to be my slave. You need me. As a widow, having a illicit relationship with me may cause family problems to you, may disgrace your family social status and may cause obstacles for marriage of your two beautiful daughters. I assure you secrecy, if you so desire and do not do anything to tarnish your image. Let us meet to know each other. Tell me, share with me all your desires and fantasies, I will make them true. It is a promise. You cannot imagine the things I will do to you and make you to do willingly because you will be eager to please me and serve me. You will not regret having me as your lover. You will have psychological and physiological fulfillment of your needs, desires, dreams and fantasies.
My desire for you has been ever increasing in the last ten years. You have become more sexier as you mature. I want to experience the spirit of eternal beauty and tenderness mirrored in your eyes and fling you down under me on that softy belly of yours and fuck you up behind, like riding a horse, glorying in the very sweat that rises from your arse, of your flushed cheeks and tangled hair, to lie heads and tails with you feeling your fingers fondling and tickling his balls or stuck up in me behind and your hot lips sucking off my enormous monstrous long thick gargantuan gigantic cock while my head is wedged in between your fat thighs, my hands clutching the round cushions of your bum and my tongue licking ravenously up your rank red cunt. I will prompt your lips and tongue, to provoke me by obscene touches and noises, and even to do in his presence the most shameful and filthy act of the body. You will remember the day you pull up your clothes, bend over and beg me to fuck you. Then you will be ashamed even to meet my eyes. You are mine, darling, mine! I love you. I will make you my slave.
I will do everything possible to you and I want you to do everything and anything you want and desire. For me, every part of your body is precious and I will kiss, lick and lap your body. I will taste, lick, lap and slurp your sex juice. You resent your late husband because he is not enough of a man capable of fucking you, taming you, make you submit and surrender yourself to be used. That is the past.
I will show you what it means to get fucked and reach ecstatic whole body orgasm. Let me forewarn you, once I fuck you with or without your consent, you will be my slave for life. It is me who recognize the real slut in you, your inner self, You will be begging me for more and more because you need it and you want it. I am the man who can trigger simmering volcano and make you melt. Do not be afraid of knowing the real you in you, I will help you unleash your inner slut. You will definitely surrender and submit yourself to me and obey my orders.
You will enjoy the pleasure of submission like a horny bitch in heat or like an animal in mating season. You will enjoy and invite physical, verbal abuses by me, which you resented when meted out by your inept late husband without fucking you properly as you need. You are a woman born to be fucked. With me you will enjoy pleasure in pain. You will experience the ultimate pleasure of pain being submissive, controlled and ordered and fucked by me. You will enjoy when I use abusive, bawdy, cheap, derogatory, degenerated, dirty, gross, filthy, indecent, lewd, nasty, naughty, profane, repugnant, ribald, obscene and vulgar words. You are a real slut. You are whore. you are a tramp.
You will enjoy the kinky sex which you never heard or imagined that exists. I am not going to elaborate now on what kinky things I will do to you, because the surprise element makes it more pleasurable, when I do things to you. I want you so wrapped up in excruciating pleasure that the only thing that can occupy your mind is how to keep from bursting at the seams. You will explode like a simmering volcano triggered.
Shyamala, In fact, love, sex, pain and violence all stimulate the release of similar chemicals and hormones in the human body. Endorphins that are released in painful experiences are often perceived as pleasurable. Stress and pain can also stimulate the serotonin and melatonin production in the brain, which transforms painful experiences into pleasure. The release of epinephrine and norepinephrine in pain can also cause a pleasurable 'rush'. Human biological response supports the complex and mysterious link between pain and pleasure, which we see in the runner's high and the facial expressions during orgasmic release.
The practice of combining painful techniques with sexuality is ancient. Kama Sutra refers to safe practices reflecting the ancient rituals of sexual dominance and submission.. Loving someone emotionally creates the same pain and pleasure experience that lives in the body while making love to them. The moments of deep connection and intimacy, vulnerability and nakedness are matched by their opposite experience, feeling deeply hurt by your lover, by what was said, or, just as often, what went unsaid. The act of loving in whatever form requires a willingness to experience both the pain and pleasure. This is the piece of sustaining loving relationships that is easy to miss, or at least misunderstand, and tragically the place where we walk away from the heart of what we want most. I will make you experience and enjoy blissful pleasurable pain.
You probably still think it's scary and that's okay. It's not for everyone. For you, It will be pleasure. You will love to indulge in all my fetishes and fantasy role-play, spanking. being tied up. and being treated as a pet. You will experience the ultimate joy of nirvana, like sublimating yourself to God.
I am your Lord, Master and God. Remember your sex energy is your lust for life! It's your passion! Get passionate, get sensuous! Love your beautiful body! but if you don't do it you'll never discover your Paradise Portal! Shyamala, your body is a portal to Paradise. Your body is an instrument that can create and experience pure unadulterated Bliss! Get in there and love it! Feel it, touch it, play with it, pleasure it, and savor the sensations that your body gives you as you kiss me, as you stroke my long thick monstrous gigantic cock, as you masturbate or as you are fucked by me mercilessly!
And if you have a problem with the Fuck word - practice saying, "I love to be fucked" hundred times a day until you can say it and take a dirty ribald pleasure in saying it! Love the life in you - it's really, really good! So learn to tease your desire and hold it at fever pitch, because arousal will benefit you mentally and spiritually and make yourself ready for me. You can do it with anything you want - it doesn't have to be sex, though sex is the most effective. When you are hungry, take a piece of fruit into your mouth and just "hold" it there ... see how long you can go without actually chewing it, just close your eyes and taste it, feel its texture, savor everything about it.
It's a well known fact that most of the artists, geniuses, creators, leaders and entrepreneurs of the past and present have very strong sex drives. You need to take action and get your juices flowing again! You've got to get your sex energy up and buzzing. I will make your abundant stored juices melt and flow.
You will not be having any conflicting thoughts or afraid of what the society will think of you. You will be happy to let know the society, colleagues, neighbors, family and friends that you are my slave, my kept woman and my mistress. You will enjoy being my lover, mistress and slave, despite the social stigma and condemnation you will face. You will enjoy being called a mistress of Me. You will actually tell your children and everyone that you are my mistress.
I suggest that you imagine the minute details of how I will eat you, treat you, worship your sexy beautiful body, abuse you, arouse you, fuck her, tame you, use you and make love to you to satisfy you desires, when we meet and do everything possible. You go to a temple and see the sculpture of various sex positions, read Kama Sutra and use your fertile imagination to know the things I will do. You will be in ultimate bliss. Nothing is taboo between us.
Do not worry much about my relationship with Lakshmi. I am capable of controlling her. She will do whatever I say. She is my slave. She is a bitch definitely. She cannot afford to be disobedient to me. What you said about her is true. She even asked me to marry her. My enjoying her sisters, relatives and friends is also true. She arranges women for me because she does not want to lose me.
I can come to your house and let everyone in the colony know that now you are my new mistress. Do you like that? Both you and Lakshmi want to fight with each other for my love? For your information She was not the only lover I had during that one year at Madras. I had other lovers too.
You mentioned about Lakshmi's friends and your colleagues too who have been fucked by me. You may be knowing about them. I will tell you what type of persons they are when we meet. If you want to compare yourself with my lovers whom you know, I can tell you that you are a better bitch, Sexy slut, Tantalizing temptress, and whore. Be happy that I consider you as unique and want you to be mine, My slave.
Lovingly yours Shiva
Chapter 8
She was happy and thrilled that at forty seven years age, Shiva, an young highly educated handsome man found her beautiful, irresistibly sexy and desirable. He is seeking, chasing and pursuing her relentlessly to take her, to have her, to experience her feminine beauty, to own her and to fuck her. She has become obsessed with him, waiting everyday for his letter.
Despite having grownup adult children, she could not control thinking of her new found lover, whom she never met socially. Her children knew about the mysterious man, as she happily discussed about him with them. They were happy that their mother changed from moody to happy and friendly person. They even started teasing her when she goes into room to read his letter immediately after coming back from college. Waiting for his letters became unbearable, It has become an obsession for her. Every day when she comes back from college in the evening, she asks her children for uncle's letter. She reads his letter many a time and writes detailed reply expressing her feelings, emotions and thoughts in detail. The following morning she gives the letter to her son to mail.
Prompted by her new found freedom as a widow, her dormant suppressed sexual desires surfaced and the love letters further triggered her romantic feelings despite deep conflicts, religious faith, beliefs, traditions, moral ethics, social honor and her needs which she found hard to reconcile. The content of letters between them became more romantic, explicit, sexy and raunchy. She started thinking of him always, the mere thought of him made her sexual desire mount to unbearable heights and her pussy becomes wet.
He wrote erotic intimate feelings about her and encouraged her to express herself uninhibitedly all her thoughts and feelings and her refluxes while reading his letter. She responded with equal enthusiasm describing her thoughts about him and her desires and fantasies, which she never shared with anyone else, the deepest desires which she was not aware exists in her mind and perhaps afraid of admitting to even herself so far. While reading his erotic descriptive letters, she feels he is already making love to her, get excited, her body and mind responding with uncontrollable sexual desire and invariably masturbated to orgasm. It has become a habit for her to read his letters with her fingers in her pussy.
She is aware that she is considered attractive, beautiful and sexy by men, but all these years she felt completely out of touch with what really turns her on, what actually makes her body feel good. Her mind-body connection that lies at the heart known as 'erotic intelligence' is all about having the capacity to trust herself, to be in touch with her own body, her boundaries, her values and how she feels her own sexual energy. She has taken the first step to enhancing her sexual awareness and became aware of what her mind and body is trying to tell. Her letter writing to Shiva is like a letter to her own body, telling him how she feels about it and what she likes about it. She shared her feelings, imaginations and body reactions uninhibitedly in vivid details in her letters.
Inspired by new awakening of her sexual energy, Shyamalavathy started taking care of her body, grooming herself to be a pretty, attractive, beautiful and sexy woman. When her husband was alive, she did not have freedom to buy saris of her choice and present herself as she wants. With financial freedom, she bought new thin transparent silk, georgette, chiffon and lustrous linen saris and got stitched low deep cut wide neck designer blouses. She started wearing sari well below her prominent fleshy navel revealing and flaunting her curvaceous body. Instead of tight braid or bun which she dressed her hair earlier as instructed by her late husband, she dressed her hair in loose bewitching thick braid. She did intense exercises to maintain her midriff. The overall effect is that she transformed herself into a sexy woman flaunting her beauty. Her new look surprised everyone. Men of all ages including her students looked at her with awe, desire and lust. She enjoyed the attention, male gazing and sexy comments she is getting now. She being available widow, men known to her started talking with her suggestively offering intimate friendship and companionship. Some men even visited her home suggesting her friendship and more. She enjoyed the comments at her back calling her kama sundari, Kama Shyamala, kinky slut, Kakinada sweet, Kakinada sundari, Kala Sundari, and Cleopatra. Women colleagues scorned and gossiped at her new sexy slut look and said that instead of being a gloomy desolate weepy widow she has changed into a sexy sizzling slut available widow inviting men's gaze at her. She is preparing to present herself to her young mysterious lover. She started doing more vigorous exercises to keep fit, reduce her tummy and waist fat. She has thick arms, but she could not do anything about that. She bought a weighing machine to watch her weight.
Her children including her son commented that she is becoming more beautiful and sexy. Her son said, his friends are saying that he has a sexy mother. 'I hope Shiva finds me sexy too' she said to son and daughters
It has been three months since he wrote his first letter. He influenced and guided her to change gradually, entered her mind, encouraged to open up her mind and share with him all her apprehensions, aspirations, cravings, desires, dreams, fears, feelings, fantasies, likes, memories, moods, motives, perceptions, preferences, opinions, tastes, wild thoughts. She thought it is time to meet Shiva. She wants him. She is happy that he desired her and understands her and accepts her as she is. He has become a great friend and soul mate. She wondered about her needs and desires. As he said, he brought out the slut in her. she wants a man in her life. Her mind and body needs love and sex. surprisingly Shiva recognized her needs and desires.
Is it that she wants to be fucked? If it is so, there are so many men including some of her colleagues waiting for an opportunity and ready to fuck her. She thought that She can have many lovers now that she is a widow and considered sexy by men. She could have had variety of lovers. Many men younger to her expressed their desire for her. Even some of her students are chasing her. Every man it seems is assuming that being a widow she is easily available for sex. More so with her because she is beautiful, sexy and desirable. But she wants to be fucked by Shiva. The desire for him has become uncontrollable need. It is he who stirred her emotions and ignited fire in her. It is strange that she wants him so much even without seeing him properly or even meeting him socially. Now she is not bothered about having an affair with him despite knowing that she will be scorned, and called an immoral slut. He has brought out all desires, fantasies and thoughts which she never thought that exists in her mind. He brought out and helped her to know her inner self as a submissive. He is not requesting her, he claims he owns and possesses her. He wants to dominate, command, control her and wants her as his slave. He has already took her into his control and directing her thoughts. She has been tuned by him to become his slave.
Chapter 9
She received another letter from him.
My dearest darling Sexy Sizzling Slut Shy-am-a-lava-thy
If you are still confused about my intention to own you, to dominate you, to possess you, to be your Master, to make my slave, I would like you to read the following and try to identify your needs and desires to be dominated. It is not just BDSM, It is Eroticized Dominance. I am offering you a golden opportunity to be my slave and serve me.
The eroticization of male dominance and female passivity and submission in couple relations is a game in which there are no winners, a luring erotic bond that makes human relationships human, an empathic connection, a hardwired drive to mutually know and compassionately understand one another that is rooted in our nature..
This capacity remains dormant, however, unless developed and nurtured. It is a learned ability that requires such skills as being open and vulnerable to one another, an essential aspect of growing the courage we need to love with our whole heart. To love with our whole heart, in a nutshell, means to develop our capacity to remain empathically connected to self and other, in moments when core fears, such as inadequacy or rejection, get triggered.
Our human brains are wired to move toward pleasure and avoid pain. We learn and adopt behavioral patterns that release feel-good hormones such as dopamine or oxytocin. We are also wired to learn from pain, to seek to eliminate or avoid what produces pain and anxious sensations, such as the stress hormone cortisol. These processes are regulated by the mind of the body, the subconscious. The body also releases feel-good hormones whenever we experience relief or lower anxiety through the specific ways we've learned to deal with stress, such as an angry outburst or an emotional shutdown.
Emotions shape and spark the firing and wiring of neurons that produce behaviors. Happy neurochemicals are released whenever our distress is relieved by behaviors that activate these feel-good neural patterns. The happy chemicals - Oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin develop synapses each time they are released, strengthening behavior patterns associated with feel-good sensations of relief and pleasure.
Essentially, beliefs are perception filters that our body relies on to know when to activate its sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system. Eroticized dominance in couple sexual relations, at least subconsciously, indicates that Sex is a beautiful and unique experience for personal pleasure to prove superiority via dominance and a key aspect of emotional intimacy in a couple relationship. Primary goal is to win by overpowering the will of another, to ensure they know their place and willing to be dominated. Love is regarded as overall sex-focused, sex is equated with intimacy. Women only respect and surrender happily and willingly to men who fuck them to satisfaction, dominate them, command them, and respect is associated or equated with obedience and submission. women also look beautiful, healthy and happy if they are fucked properly and thoroughly regularly. They become hysterical if they are not properly fucked to orgasm and satisfy their sexual desires. Sexual hysteria is the main symptom of sexual dissatisfaction. I understand that you have hysterical pangs some times.
My dear Slave baby, be prepared to be fucked, be dominated, be controlled, to obey my orders and to be my slave. You belong to me. I own you, your mind and body. You have not answered my question.. What type of woman are you? If still do not know, I will find out soon, when we meet, the qualities inherent in your mind and body. Padmini, Chitrini, Shankhini and Hastini. and Harini or Ashvini, Karini. What type of cunt you have - Gaja Yoni, Mriga Yoni, Ashva Yoni, Mesha Yoni, Sarpa Yoni, Vyaghra Yoni, Vaanar Yoni, Maheesha Yoni, Chaga Yoni, Shawan Yoni, Mushaka Yoni.
Lovingly Your Master - Shiva
She read the letter many a time, imagining him and thought of her married life with selfish unromantic inadequate husband. She could have become a slave to her husband, if he was enough of a man to fuck and control her. She thought 'Shiva understands me, my soul, my thoughts and my desires.' She never had satisfaction in sex with her husband. Her husband just fucked and ejaculated disregarding her sexual and emotional needs. She never had orgasm while fucked by her husband. She read the words and phrases in the letter, its meanings and imagined him. When she read the words, 'You are my slut and slave.' She got excited, her cunt became wet and she masturbated to orgasm thinking of what type of woman is she and what type of cunt she has. he said he will find out. She wondered what combination and characters she has based on Nakshtra.
She came out of the room and her daughters teased her, 'Mommy you have been spending so much time reading love letters from uncle. You are like a teenage girl falling in love for the first time. We are happy to see you like this. We want to see him.' She blushed, and said, 'I am eager and want to see him too and want him to see me at the earliest.'
During the dinner with children, she could not stop talking about Shiva. Shyamalavathy went to her bedroom read Shiva's letters thinking what type of woman she is, and what type of woman he likes and wants me to be. She is ready to become the woman he wants her to be, whatever Nakshtra she is born. She wants him to like her. She wants to become the best slave he ever had.
She wrote a reply. Writing to him made her excited and she inserted her finger so her left hand into her wet cunt, thinking of his massive long thick monstrous gigantic cock. The cock of Shiva - Shivalingam.
Chapter 10
My dear Master
You helped me to introspect myself, recognize and accept the real me. My life was not easy since the very beginning. A troubled childhood taught me how horrible it is to be born as a girl in a conservative family. My younger brother got all the attention and love from our dad and relatives, whereas girls always felt unwanted. In a way, we were used to being mistreated. For my dad, we were nothing but a curse, a burden. In spite of this negative atmosphere, the wonderful nature of my surroundings helped me dream a better future.
But that wasn't the end of it all, a challenging adulthood was waiting for me with open arms when I grew up. I was good in studies. Because of poor financial status, though I was working as a Lecturer, I was married as a second wife to a widower who was alcoholic, insecure, suspicious and abusive. Because I am beautiful, every man looks at me with desire. My husband suspects me. I was used and abused by him. I suffered and endured troubled life with him for the sake of son and daughters When my irresponsible, inept, selfish husband died, I got the tag of a widow. I couldn't escape the infamous tag in our society one way or the other but still, it was a great relief for me. I did not feel grief. I did not mourn. I don't feel ashamed feeling the way I did. Does it sound bad or cruel? Maybe, but I believe my long struggling life gives me the right to feel so. I never enjoyed sex with my husband.
I am a widow and let me tell you how society wants me to live my life. Society wants a widow to live her whole life without sex, regardless of when she lost the physical intimacy. But, nobody cares. I always found sex healthy and this taboo of not being able to do it suffocates me a little.
I am a forty seven year old widow with two daughters and a son. I do not wish to get remarried, but does that mean I have no sexual needs or I shouldn't have any? Finding an appropriate person as a life partner again is not an easy task for a widow in the orthodox Indian society. I fail to understand why I am not allowed to have a healthy sexual life. In a situation where most people don't want women to talk about sex and related topics, I can imagine how much hatred I might face if I express my thoughts on my sexual desires to others. But I recognize it is one of my basic needs. I don't deny it and I don't want to. I crave for your sexual touch every night I try hard to go to sleep. I have dreams, desires and erotic fantasies. I have fertile imagination. You prompted and invoked all my dormant desires surface. You have successfully unleashed, my inner slut, my animal instincts and entered my mind without asking my consent. Now in all my dreams you are the man of my life. I am happy that you found me. I appreciate that you have been waiting for me ten long years to take me. In the eyes of the society, accepting you as my lover, I may be called a slut and whore. I do not care. I want to be yours. I think I will enjoy being called your mistress!
Shiva's knowledge about female psychology, language skills and poetic writing style very much impressed Shyamala. He even wrote poetry praising her beauty. In his letters he describes her with beautiful words phrases what he saw in her body, her style of walking, the way her thick braid moves on her hips. Shiva skillfully uses the language to express his emotions, feelings, love and sexual desire for her. He writes how he is going to treat her as sex goddess, worship her beautiful body and make passionate love to her. His letters aroused her sexual desire. It was like reading erotic romantic sexually explicit pornographic novels stimulating her core banal desire. Her unsatisfied hunger for sex has become pronounced and surfaced. She felt that she is being chased and courted by him who wants her so much that he wants take her and devour her. She wants to be taken by him. She wants to submit herself to him. The thought of submission to him is so pleasurable and exciting.
Dear Sir
I am again surprised to learn that you are younger to me by fourteen years and you have been Lakshmi's lover. I fell in love with you through your letters communicating romantic intimate passionate deep love and desire for me. I am also honored that you recognize my inner qualities as described by you with so many praising adjectives. I have to look up dictionary to understand the meaning of phrases you used to describe me. Even the derogatory and debauchery words you wrote electrified me, twisted my nerves sending shocking sex waves through my mind and body. I wonder whether I deserve and qualify to be described like this. You also have awakened my desires. It seems you are an expert mind reader.
I remember seeing you many a time during your visits to my colleague, the bitchy Lakshmi. I noticed you gazing at me with intense desire every day when I go to the college and return. I could not reciprocate. I had been aware that you have been observing me from the terrace of Lakshmi's house. You are young, tall, handsome irresistible masculine man. I envy that bitch Lakshmi for having you as lover. My desire to be your lover becomes more intensified because you are Lakshmi's lover. The fact that Lakshmi's lover desires me more gives me pleasure and a feeling of triumph. It is a feeling of triumph and victory over Lakshmi. I feel jealous of Lakshmi because she was bold to divorce her husband and found you, seven year younger young man as her lover.
I saw many a time you and Lakshmi going to movies whenever you visit as if you both are husband and wife. You are a handsome hunk and a stud. She flaunts and told everyone in the college that you are her lover. I wish I was at TTTI Madras during that one year FIP instead of Lakshmi when you were staying there in the Hostel. We could have had wonderful time at least during that one year together. I am sure you would have chosen me instead of Lakshmi if I were there. Did that bitch trapped you then? I think so! You were only twenty two then, young, virile, and bubbling with uncontrollable desire and stamina. She provided her body to you to release your youthful sexual energies into her. If I were there instead of her I could have been your lover instead of her. I missed the opportunity.
My dear sir, It gives me immense colossal pleasure to note that you think I am more beautiful, sexy, desirable and erotic than Lakshmi. I know that you regularly write letters to Lakshmi. Have you informed that bitch about us. She does not seem to know yet, that you have been writing to me, had she known she must have spread the news like a wildfire by now. Does she know that you love me more than her and prefer me? I wonder what do you like in that abominable, belligerent, obscene, cheap, contentious, cunning, deplorable, disgusting, loose malicious, resentful, tongued, vindictive, vengeful, wicked bitch Lakshmi. She is amoral, depraved, perverted, lewd, malicious gossipmonger. She uses abusive, blasphemous, desecrate, profanatory sacrilegious words and hurls a volley of invectives against colleagues. I know her and she was my student. She got fucked by many men. Whenever You visit her she behaves as if her husband came home after long time and proudly tells everyone, inviting her other depraved divorced degenerated deceitful deplorable friends home to show you off. I am sure you know about her nature and psychology and the type of women she is friendly with.. It seems that you bring her beautiful costly saris from various places that you visit on you business tours. She tells everyone that you brought such saris for her. I am sure you control and tame her wild nature. Whenever you visit her, you must be fucking her thoroughly many a time the whole night, because the next day everyone can see that she has not slept the previous night and looks like thoroughly and mercilessly used by you. It seems she tells her friends in vivid details how you fuck her. She records your conversation with her while fucking and plays them to her friends. She is happy to be used by you.
I know that she is sexy in a way, though lean, with smaller breasts, and smaller ass than me. Men get attracted to her by her animal magnetism. She traps men. She of course has long hair reaching her calves. Are you attracted to her and her sisters because of their long hair. I am aware many men are attracted to longhaired women. You must be enjoying her Sisters, her Sister's daughters and her friends Bharathalakshmi, Vasundhara, Lathadevi, Shubhalakashmi and her neighbor Kusuma She must be arranging women for you. You may not know about Lakshmi's real character. Everyone says that She got fucked by all her brother-in-laws before her marriage, which was the reason her husband divorced her. She must have been fucked by all her brother-in-laws from teenage. She still continue to get fucked by her brother-in-laws , getting fucked by her tenant, one of our young colleague and the Mason who constructed her house. She traps young male students to satisfy her nymphomania. She perhaps likes variety and needs a man to fuck her every night. Surprisingly, she tells everyone that You are her only lover. I wonder how and why you love her. Do you continue to have relationship with her because she arranges her relatives and friends for your sexual pleasure. She has long hair. Are you obsessed with long haired women?
You are aware that I too have hip length thick hair and I think you will like the feel and texture of my hair. I should take care of my body more carefully to look sexy and present to you. I am doing more exercises to keep me fit for your use and abuse. I am surprised at myself that I enjoy and get excited with uncontrollable desire reading your raunchy, explicit, uninhibited, erotic, vulgar letters and filthy words you use. The letters filled with dirty, filthy vulgar derogatory words and phrases which would normally makes a woman feel offended and humiliated. I am enjoying thoroughly reading them. You have definitely helped me learn, improve and enjoy indecent, vulgar, filthy and obscene vocabulary.
Sir, The very thought of you dominating me arouses me to the core. It's not just pain or forceful physical dominance that get me going. The power is also in your words-in the triggers. In the real world I don't approve of the words like whore or slut being used to shame me. I also don't like being told what to do. Tell me not to do something, say something, or wear something and I'll immediately want to do it. That's how it used to be with my late husband. With you, though, the things I can't abide in real life become eroticized. Strongly delivered, these words are a major turn on. I long to be told what to do by you. I want to give you, my Sir complete control of me. I want you to dominate me, control me and order me. I enjoy every 'Please, Sir' and 'Thank you, Sir' I utter. I'm aroused by the fear of being punished for not completing a task or forgetting to ask permission. These triggers are strong and working for me when I am writing. I've been reduced to a wet mess with just reading your letters. My kama juices overflows from my cunt making my petticoat drenched. I have no choice but to masturbate to orgasm thinking of you. It has become essential for me to read your letters, imagine you and masturbate to endless multiple orgasms every night without which I can't sleep. I am eagerly waiting to actual experience of your young virile hard huge monstrous long thick big gigantic cock penetrating, forcing, opening, widening, expanding, filling deep into my cunt and then fuck me hard and deep long time making me reach ecstatic orgasms. You enquired about my physical measurements. I think you already knew. I am 160 cm height, 67 kg Wt., 36DD-26-40., BMI 26.2.
Lovingly and eagerly waiting to be Yours - K. Shyamalavathy
Chapter 7
Shyamalavathy and Shiva exchanged letters almost every day. She started sharing her thoughts uninhibitedly, her troubled life controlled by her suspicious dominating husband, secrets, memories and other feelings which she never shared with anyone else for the fear of misunderstood. In him, she found a close intimate friend and soul mate with whom she can share anything and everything. The question that puzzled her is whether or not he is as wonderful, romantic, passionate, chivalrous in person as he is in his letters, letters that were given much thought, letters written so romantically and eloquently, letters that touched her heart and excite her!
His really powerful communication, that actually delivers to her the value of human connection is based in authenticity. it made Shyamalavathy to get to her authentic self through exploring and unleashing her inner self. He empowered her to be confident and true to herself. She was eagerly waiting for his letter.
While writing letter to him, Her mind opened, thoughts flowing into words. It was like water flowing out of a dam after opening the flood gates. She felt like purging out her deep rooted thoughts, memories, feelings from her mind.
Shiva wrote
My dearest darling Sexy Sensuous Sizzling Shy-am-a-lava-thy
The few times I had the opportunity to see you, from the opposite house terrace, and while you walk to college and back home, it had taken his breath away. Seeing your smooth, soft shiny skin, with your hip length long hair braid adorned with flowers oscillating like pendulum on your swinging hips, your big breasts and bigger ass had an unbelievable impact that my cock becomes hard and erect. Had I been near you, I might have taken you right there and then. Your flat stomach showed the discipline of years of exercise and yoga. Your lithe neck, collarbone and chin are so shapely - they simply cry out to be kissed and nibbled. Your beautiful breasts are so firm and sexy. I imagined licking up from your navel to between them, as I wondered about your nipples, whether they were a light rosy pink or a soft brown.
I cherish exactly who you are and what you are. I will bring out the real you hidden deep inside you. I will peel off the accumulated layers of resentment and perceptions to help know your real self. I know beneath your berated, calm, dutiful, mellowed, restrained, repressed, subdued, sober, solemn, somber, obdurate, orthodox external appearance you project, you are an untamed wild woman and should be tamed and trained.
I will be bringing out your crazy sexual wild slut side waiting to be unleashed, which perhaps you do not even know that exists within you yet. I know you are definitely a slut. Unleashing your inner slut that craves naughty, dirty sex side and make you orgasm over and over again and ask me for more. It's like magic. It seems that you have not been tamed and fucked properly by your late husband all these years, except abusing you physically and verbally since he could not satisfy you sexually. He has been suspicious of you because of your beauty and was afraid that you might have extramarital affairs. He abused you emotionally. Emotional abuse is any nonphysical behavior or attitude that controls, intimidates, subjugates, demeans, punishes or isolates another person by using degradation, humiliation or fear. Nonphysical behavior or attitude means neglect, invalidating another's thoughts and feelings, and refusing to acknowledge the needs of the other intentionally. Over a period of time, this kind of emotional climate in a marriage can squeeze the life out of a marriage and out of a wife. I understand that you have endured physical and emotional abuse all through married life. Yet, you did not submit yourself to your husband. But now
I will make you enjoy the same abuse you vehemently resented. Now that you are mine and you belong to me. I own you and possess you. I want to - be with you, abuse you, acquiescent you, acquiesce you, around you, admire you, adore you, align you, awake you, bang you, beat you, besiege you, command you, cuddle you, comfort you, coax you, debauch you, demand you, deprave you, drain you, dominate you, drill you, drink you, eat you, educate you, emancipate you, encircle you, engage you, endorse you, engorge you, enjoy you, enlarge you, enthrall you, enter you, entertain you, envelop you, evoke you, excite you, explore you, feel you, fill you, fondle you, free you, fuck you, give you, glamorize you, honor you, hump you, ignite you, imbibe you, induce you, incite you, indulge you, ingurgitate you, inveigle you, invoke you, involve you, kiss you, know you, lap you, lead you, lick you, love you, melt you, mount you, melt you, nibble you, open you, occupy you, pleasure you, peel you, procreate you, possess you, ram you, reach you, ride you, rip you, screw you, slurp you, subservient you, suck you, surround you, stroke you, squeeze you, tare you, taste you, tease you, tantalize you, teach you, treat you, tongue you, torment you, unite you, use you, and widen you. I want to make you happy and experience the ultimate sexual pleasure which you never thought possible and to make love every day and night. When I use and abuse you, You will be happy.
What stopped me so far? Fate, Time, Proximity and Distance I guess, or common sense. Because we were living in distant faraway places and you were someone else's wife, I did not want to cause trouble to your family life. I wanted to inform you about my love for you, earlier but knowing that you had suspicious husband stopped me to chase you. You may not be aware that I have waited for ten long years for you. Had we been living in the same town, I would have got enough time to comfort you, to make you confident and free, to chase, to seduce, to entice and fuck you. You would have become my mistress happily, even when your husband is alive. You would have divorced him, if he did not accept your extramarital affair with me. But, he would have become a voyeur, cuckold and be happy to see you fucked by me thoroughly. I would have impregnated you.
I understand how you feel now, having conflicting and confusing thoughts and thinking whether or not to accept me as your lover. I am sure you cannot think of rejecting my offer to be my slave. You need me. As a widow, having a illicit relationship with me may cause family problems to you, may disgrace your family social status and may cause obstacles for marriage of your two beautiful daughters. I assure you secrecy, if you so desire and do not do anything to tarnish your image. Let us meet to know each other. Tell me, share with me all your desires and fantasies, I will make them true. It is a promise. You cannot imagine the things I will do to you and make you to do willingly because you will be eager to please me and serve me. You will not regret having me as your lover. You will have psychological and physiological fulfillment of your needs, desires, dreams and fantasies.
My desire for you has been ever increasing in the last ten years. You have become more sexier as you mature. I want to experience the spirit of eternal beauty and tenderness mirrored in your eyes and fling you down under me on that softy belly of yours and fuck you up behind, like riding a horse, glorying in the very sweat that rises from your arse, of your flushed cheeks and tangled hair, to lie heads and tails with you feeling your fingers fondling and tickling his balls or stuck up in me behind and your hot lips sucking off my enormous monstrous long thick gargantuan gigantic cock while my head is wedged in between your fat thighs, my hands clutching the round cushions of your bum and my tongue licking ravenously up your rank red cunt. I will prompt your lips and tongue, to provoke me by obscene touches and noises, and even to do in his presence the most shameful and filthy act of the body. You will remember the day you pull up your clothes, bend over and beg me to fuck you. Then you will be ashamed even to meet my eyes. You are mine, darling, mine! I love you. I will make you my slave.
I will do everything possible to you and I want you to do everything and anything you want and desire. For me, every part of your body is precious and I will kiss, lick and lap your body. I will taste, lick, lap and slurp your sex juice. You resent your late husband because he is not enough of a man capable of fucking you, taming you, make you submit and surrender yourself to be used. That is the past.
I will show you what it means to get fucked and reach ecstatic whole body orgasm. Let me forewarn you, once I fuck you with or without your consent, you will be my slave for life. It is me who recognize the real slut in you, your inner self, You will be begging me for more and more because you need it and you want it. I am the man who can trigger simmering volcano and make you melt. Do not be afraid of knowing the real you in you, I will help you unleash your inner slut. You will definitely surrender and submit yourself to me and obey my orders.
You will enjoy the pleasure of submission like a horny bitch in heat or like an animal in mating season. You will enjoy and invite physical, verbal abuses by me, which you resented when meted out by your inept late husband without fucking you properly as you need. You are a woman born to be fucked. With me you will enjoy pleasure in pain. You will experience the ultimate pleasure of pain being submissive, controlled and ordered and fucked by me. You will enjoy when I use abusive, bawdy, cheap, derogatory, degenerated, dirty, gross, filthy, indecent, lewd, nasty, naughty, profane, repugnant, ribald, obscene and vulgar words. You are a real slut. You are whore. you are a tramp.
You will enjoy the kinky sex which you never heard or imagined that exists. I am not going to elaborate now on what kinky things I will do to you, because the surprise element makes it more pleasurable, when I do things to you. I want you so wrapped up in excruciating pleasure that the only thing that can occupy your mind is how to keep from bursting at the seams. You will explode like a simmering volcano triggered.
Shyamala, In fact, love, sex, pain and violence all stimulate the release of similar chemicals and hormones in the human body. Endorphins that are released in painful experiences are often perceived as pleasurable. Stress and pain can also stimulate the serotonin and melatonin production in the brain, which transforms painful experiences into pleasure. The release of epinephrine and norepinephrine in pain can also cause a pleasurable 'rush'. Human biological response supports the complex and mysterious link between pain and pleasure, which we see in the runner's high and the facial expressions during orgasmic release.
The practice of combining painful techniques with sexuality is ancient. Kama Sutra refers to safe practices reflecting the ancient rituals of sexual dominance and submission.. Loving someone emotionally creates the same pain and pleasure experience that lives in the body while making love to them. The moments of deep connection and intimacy, vulnerability and nakedness are matched by their opposite experience, feeling deeply hurt by your lover, by what was said, or, just as often, what went unsaid. The act of loving in whatever form requires a willingness to experience both the pain and pleasure. This is the piece of sustaining loving relationships that is easy to miss, or at least misunderstand, and tragically the place where we walk away from the heart of what we want most. I will make you experience and enjoy blissful pleasurable pain.
You probably still think it's scary and that's okay. It's not for everyone. For you, It will be pleasure. You will love to indulge in all my fetishes and fantasy role-play, spanking. being tied up. and being treated as a pet. You will experience the ultimate joy of nirvana, like sublimating yourself to God.
I am your Lord, Master and God. Remember your sex energy is your lust for life! It's your passion! Get passionate, get sensuous! Love your beautiful body! but if you don't do it you'll never discover your Paradise Portal! Shyamala, your body is a portal to Paradise. Your body is an instrument that can create and experience pure unadulterated Bliss! Get in there and love it! Feel it, touch it, play with it, pleasure it, and savor the sensations that your body gives you as you kiss me, as you stroke my long thick monstrous gigantic cock, as you masturbate or as you are fucked by me mercilessly!
And if you have a problem with the Fuck word - practice saying, "I love to be fucked" hundred times a day until you can say it and take a dirty ribald pleasure in saying it! Love the life in you - it's really, really good! So learn to tease your desire and hold it at fever pitch, because arousal will benefit you mentally and spiritually and make yourself ready for me. You can do it with anything you want - it doesn't have to be sex, though sex is the most effective. When you are hungry, take a piece of fruit into your mouth and just "hold" it there ... see how long you can go without actually chewing it, just close your eyes and taste it, feel its texture, savor everything about it.
It's a well known fact that most of the artists, geniuses, creators, leaders and entrepreneurs of the past and present have very strong sex drives. You need to take action and get your juices flowing again! You've got to get your sex energy up and buzzing. I will make your abundant stored juices melt and flow.
You will not be having any conflicting thoughts or afraid of what the society will think of you. You will be happy to let know the society, colleagues, neighbors, family and friends that you are my slave, my kept woman and my mistress. You will enjoy being my lover, mistress and slave, despite the social stigma and condemnation you will face. You will enjoy being called a mistress of Me. You will actually tell your children and everyone that you are my mistress.
I suggest that you imagine the minute details of how I will eat you, treat you, worship your sexy beautiful body, abuse you, arouse you, fuck her, tame you, use you and make love to you to satisfy you desires, when we meet and do everything possible. You go to a temple and see the sculpture of various sex positions, read Kama Sutra and use your fertile imagination to know the things I will do. You will be in ultimate bliss. Nothing is taboo between us.
Do not worry much about my relationship with Lakshmi. I am capable of controlling her. She will do whatever I say. She is my slave. She is a bitch definitely. She cannot afford to be disobedient to me. What you said about her is true. She even asked me to marry her. My enjoying her sisters, relatives and friends is also true. She arranges women for me because she does not want to lose me.
I can come to your house and let everyone in the colony know that now you are my new mistress. Do you like that? Both you and Lakshmi want to fight with each other for my love? For your information She was not the only lover I had during that one year at Madras. I had other lovers too.
You mentioned about Lakshmi's friends and your colleagues too who have been fucked by me. You may be knowing about them. I will tell you what type of persons they are when we meet. If you want to compare yourself with my lovers whom you know, I can tell you that you are a better bitch, Sexy slut, Tantalizing temptress, and whore. Be happy that I consider you as unique and want you to be mine, My slave.
Lovingly yours Shiva
Chapter 8
She was happy and thrilled that at forty seven years age, Shiva, an young highly educated handsome man found her beautiful, irresistibly sexy and desirable. He is seeking, chasing and pursuing her relentlessly to take her, to have her, to experience her feminine beauty, to own her and to fuck her. She has become obsessed with him, waiting everyday for his letter.
Despite having grownup adult children, she could not control thinking of her new found lover, whom she never met socially. Her children knew about the mysterious man, as she happily discussed about him with them. They were happy that their mother changed from moody to happy and friendly person. They even started teasing her when she goes into room to read his letter immediately after coming back from college. Waiting for his letters became unbearable, It has become an obsession for her. Every day when she comes back from college in the evening, she asks her children for uncle's letter. She reads his letter many a time and writes detailed reply expressing her feelings, emotions and thoughts in detail. The following morning she gives the letter to her son to mail.
Prompted by her new found freedom as a widow, her dormant suppressed sexual desires surfaced and the love letters further triggered her romantic feelings despite deep conflicts, religious faith, beliefs, traditions, moral ethics, social honor and her needs which she found hard to reconcile. The content of letters between them became more romantic, explicit, sexy and raunchy. She started thinking of him always, the mere thought of him made her sexual desire mount to unbearable heights and her pussy becomes wet.
He wrote erotic intimate feelings about her and encouraged her to express herself uninhibitedly all her thoughts and feelings and her refluxes while reading his letter. She responded with equal enthusiasm describing her thoughts about him and her desires and fantasies, which she never shared with anyone else, the deepest desires which she was not aware exists in her mind and perhaps afraid of admitting to even herself so far. While reading his erotic descriptive letters, she feels he is already making love to her, get excited, her body and mind responding with uncontrollable sexual desire and invariably masturbated to orgasm. It has become a habit for her to read his letters with her fingers in her pussy.
She is aware that she is considered attractive, beautiful and sexy by men, but all these years she felt completely out of touch with what really turns her on, what actually makes her body feel good. Her mind-body connection that lies at the heart known as 'erotic intelligence' is all about having the capacity to trust herself, to be in touch with her own body, her boundaries, her values and how she feels her own sexual energy. She has taken the first step to enhancing her sexual awareness and became aware of what her mind and body is trying to tell. Her letter writing to Shiva is like a letter to her own body, telling him how she feels about it and what she likes about it. She shared her feelings, imaginations and body reactions uninhibitedly in vivid details in her letters.
Inspired by new awakening of her sexual energy, Shyamalavathy started taking care of her body, grooming herself to be a pretty, attractive, beautiful and sexy woman. When her husband was alive, she did not have freedom to buy saris of her choice and present herself as she wants. With financial freedom, she bought new thin transparent silk, georgette, chiffon and lustrous linen saris and got stitched low deep cut wide neck designer blouses. She started wearing sari well below her prominent fleshy navel revealing and flaunting her curvaceous body. Instead of tight braid or bun which she dressed her hair earlier as instructed by her late husband, she dressed her hair in loose bewitching thick braid. She did intense exercises to maintain her midriff. The overall effect is that she transformed herself into a sexy woman flaunting her beauty. Her new look surprised everyone. Men of all ages including her students looked at her with awe, desire and lust. She enjoyed the attention, male gazing and sexy comments she is getting now. She being available widow, men known to her started talking with her suggestively offering intimate friendship and companionship. Some men even visited her home suggesting her friendship and more. She enjoyed the comments at her back calling her kama sundari, Kama Shyamala, kinky slut, Kakinada sweet, Kakinada sundari, Kala Sundari, and Cleopatra. Women colleagues scorned and gossiped at her new sexy slut look and said that instead of being a gloomy desolate weepy widow she has changed into a sexy sizzling slut available widow inviting men's gaze at her. She is preparing to present herself to her young mysterious lover. She started doing more vigorous exercises to keep fit, reduce her tummy and waist fat. She has thick arms, but she could not do anything about that. She bought a weighing machine to watch her weight.
Her children including her son commented that she is becoming more beautiful and sexy. Her son said, his friends are saying that he has a sexy mother. 'I hope Shiva finds me sexy too' she said to son and daughters
It has been three months since he wrote his first letter. He influenced and guided her to change gradually, entered her mind, encouraged to open up her mind and share with him all her apprehensions, aspirations, cravings, desires, dreams, fears, feelings, fantasies, likes, memories, moods, motives, perceptions, preferences, opinions, tastes, wild thoughts. She thought it is time to meet Shiva. She wants him. She is happy that he desired her and understands her and accepts her as she is. He has become a great friend and soul mate. She wondered about her needs and desires. As he said, he brought out the slut in her. she wants a man in her life. Her mind and body needs love and sex. surprisingly Shiva recognized her needs and desires.
Is it that she wants to be fucked? If it is so, there are so many men including some of her colleagues waiting for an opportunity and ready to fuck her. She thought that She can have many lovers now that she is a widow and considered sexy by men. She could have had variety of lovers. Many men younger to her expressed their desire for her. Even some of her students are chasing her. Every man it seems is assuming that being a widow she is easily available for sex. More so with her because she is beautiful, sexy and desirable. But she wants to be fucked by Shiva. The desire for him has become uncontrollable need. It is he who stirred her emotions and ignited fire in her. It is strange that she wants him so much even without seeing him properly or even meeting him socially. Now she is not bothered about having an affair with him despite knowing that she will be scorned, and called an immoral slut. He has brought out all desires, fantasies and thoughts which she never thought that exists in her mind. He brought out and helped her to know her inner self as a submissive. He is not requesting her, he claims he owns and possesses her. He wants to dominate, command, control her and wants her as his slave. He has already took her into his control and directing her thoughts. She has been tuned by him to become his slave.
Chapter 9
She received another letter from him.
My dearest darling Sexy Sizzling Slut Shy-am-a-lava-thy
If you are still confused about my intention to own you, to dominate you, to possess you, to be your Master, to make my slave, I would like you to read the following and try to identify your needs and desires to be dominated. It is not just BDSM, It is Eroticized Dominance. I am offering you a golden opportunity to be my slave and serve me.
The eroticization of male dominance and female passivity and submission in couple relations is a game in which there are no winners, a luring erotic bond that makes human relationships human, an empathic connection, a hardwired drive to mutually know and compassionately understand one another that is rooted in our nature..
This capacity remains dormant, however, unless developed and nurtured. It is a learned ability that requires such skills as being open and vulnerable to one another, an essential aspect of growing the courage we need to love with our whole heart. To love with our whole heart, in a nutshell, means to develop our capacity to remain empathically connected to self and other, in moments when core fears, such as inadequacy or rejection, get triggered.
Our human brains are wired to move toward pleasure and avoid pain. We learn and adopt behavioral patterns that release feel-good hormones such as dopamine or oxytocin. We are also wired to learn from pain, to seek to eliminate or avoid what produces pain and anxious sensations, such as the stress hormone cortisol. These processes are regulated by the mind of the body, the subconscious. The body also releases feel-good hormones whenever we experience relief or lower anxiety through the specific ways we've learned to deal with stress, such as an angry outburst or an emotional shutdown.
Emotions shape and spark the firing and wiring of neurons that produce behaviors. Happy neurochemicals are released whenever our distress is relieved by behaviors that activate these feel-good neural patterns. The happy chemicals - Oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin develop synapses each time they are released, strengthening behavior patterns associated with feel-good sensations of relief and pleasure.
Essentially, beliefs are perception filters that our body relies on to know when to activate its sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system. Eroticized dominance in couple sexual relations, at least subconsciously, indicates that Sex is a beautiful and unique experience for personal pleasure to prove superiority via dominance and a key aspect of emotional intimacy in a couple relationship. Primary goal is to win by overpowering the will of another, to ensure they know their place and willing to be dominated. Love is regarded as overall sex-focused, sex is equated with intimacy. Women only respect and surrender happily and willingly to men who fuck them to satisfaction, dominate them, command them, and respect is associated or equated with obedience and submission. women also look beautiful, healthy and happy if they are fucked properly and thoroughly regularly. They become hysterical if they are not properly fucked to orgasm and satisfy their sexual desires. Sexual hysteria is the main symptom of sexual dissatisfaction. I understand that you have hysterical pangs some times.
My dear Slave baby, be prepared to be fucked, be dominated, be controlled, to obey my orders and to be my slave. You belong to me. I own you, your mind and body. You have not answered my question.. What type of woman are you? If still do not know, I will find out soon, when we meet, the qualities inherent in your mind and body. Padmini, Chitrini, Shankhini and Hastini. and Harini or Ashvini, Karini. What type of cunt you have - Gaja Yoni, Mriga Yoni, Ashva Yoni, Mesha Yoni, Sarpa Yoni, Vyaghra Yoni, Vaanar Yoni, Maheesha Yoni, Chaga Yoni, Shawan Yoni, Mushaka Yoni.
Lovingly Your Master - Shiva
She read the letter many a time, imagining him and thought of her married life with selfish unromantic inadequate husband. She could have become a slave to her husband, if he was enough of a man to fuck and control her. She thought 'Shiva understands me, my soul, my thoughts and my desires.' She never had satisfaction in sex with her husband. Her husband just fucked and ejaculated disregarding her sexual and emotional needs. She never had orgasm while fucked by her husband. She read the words and phrases in the letter, its meanings and imagined him. When she read the words, 'You are my slut and slave.' She got excited, her cunt became wet and she masturbated to orgasm thinking of what type of woman is she and what type of cunt she has. he said he will find out. She wondered what combination and characters she has based on Nakshtra.
She came out of the room and her daughters teased her, 'Mommy you have been spending so much time reading love letters from uncle. You are like a teenage girl falling in love for the first time. We are happy to see you like this. We want to see him.' She blushed, and said, 'I am eager and want to see him too and want him to see me at the earliest.'
During the dinner with children, she could not stop talking about Shiva. Shyamalavathy went to her bedroom read Shiva's letters thinking what type of woman she is, and what type of woman he likes and wants me to be. She is ready to become the woman he wants her to be, whatever Nakshtra she is born. She wants him to like her. She wants to become the best slave he ever had.
She wrote a reply. Writing to him made her excited and she inserted her finger so her left hand into her wet cunt, thinking of his massive long thick monstrous gigantic cock. The cock of Shiva - Shivalingam.
Chapter 10
My dear Master
You helped me to introspect myself, recognize and accept the real me. My life was not easy since the very beginning. A troubled childhood taught me how horrible it is to be born as a girl in a conservative family. My younger brother got all the attention and love from our dad and relatives, whereas girls always felt unwanted. In a way, we were used to being mistreated. For my dad, we were nothing but a curse, a burden. In spite of this negative atmosphere, the wonderful nature of my surroundings helped me dream a better future.
But that wasn't the end of it all, a challenging adulthood was waiting for me with open arms when I grew up. I was good in studies. Because of poor financial status, though I was working as a Lecturer, I was married as a second wife to a widower who was alcoholic, insecure, suspicious and abusive. Because I am beautiful, every man looks at me with desire. My husband suspects me. I was used and abused by him. I suffered and endured troubled life with him for the sake of son and daughters When my irresponsible, inept, selfish husband died, I got the tag of a widow. I couldn't escape the infamous tag in our society one way or the other but still, it was a great relief for me. I did not feel grief. I did not mourn. I don't feel ashamed feeling the way I did. Does it sound bad or cruel? Maybe, but I believe my long struggling life gives me the right to feel so. I never enjoyed sex with my husband.
I am a widow and let me tell you how society wants me to live my life. Society wants a widow to live her whole life without sex, regardless of when she lost the physical intimacy. But, nobody cares. I always found sex healthy and this taboo of not being able to do it suffocates me a little.
I am a forty seven year old widow with two daughters and a son. I do not wish to get remarried, but does that mean I have no sexual needs or I shouldn't have any? Finding an appropriate person as a life partner again is not an easy task for a widow in the orthodox Indian society. I fail to understand why I am not allowed to have a healthy sexual life. In a situation where most people don't want women to talk about sex and related topics, I can imagine how much hatred I might face if I express my thoughts on my sexual desires to others. But I recognize it is one of my basic needs. I don't deny it and I don't want to. I crave for your sexual touch every night I try hard to go to sleep. I have dreams, desires and erotic fantasies. I have fertile imagination. You prompted and invoked all my dormant desires surface. You have successfully unleashed, my inner slut, my animal instincts and entered my mind without asking my consent. Now in all my dreams you are the man of my life. I am happy that you found me. I appreciate that you have been waiting for me ten long years to take me. In the eyes of the society, accepting you as my lover, I may be called a slut and whore. I do not care. I want to be yours. I think I will enjoy being called your mistress!
