Incest/Taboo Staying on the Farm With Mom

The prairies suck. At least, that's what I thought when I was coming of age at the end of the depression. My elder half-brother Hank left me behind on the farm when he ran off to fight the fascists in Spain. That caused considerable worry for our parents and hardship since his share of the work, more than a quarter, had to be shouldered by Pa and me. Hank's departure took Pa near the breaking point, the extra work and strain of making ends meet adding to the stress of worrying whether or not he'd ever see his oldest son alive again.

At first, if you listened to Pa, it served Hank right if he got himself killed but that was just talk. Many times out in the field, when he thought he was alone, I saw Pa pull out his handkerchief to wipe his eyes. At supper on those days his words for Hank were especially harsh and he would turn to me to lay down the law.

"Don't you go gittin any dumb idees like yor dumass brother. Now you gots twice the work to do 'cause he done left us for politics, and me with my sore back and all."

Ma would be particularly comforting the next day, putting a little something extra in Pa's lunch and stuff like that, and she'd tell me Pa didn't mean what he said and how much she and Pa really missed Hank.

I missed Hank too but I wasn't worried about him. Pa was way off the mark. Hank didn't give spit about politics, he was off having all the fun he'd always dreamed of. Hank wasn't a plodder like me. He was way too impatient for farming. If it hadn't been for Franco, Hank would have drifted off somewhere else anyway.

Ma was worried about Hank too, maybe even more than Pa, but she didn't talk about it. Ma rarely talked at all 'lessen she had something to say. She wasn't even as old as me when Pa married her after his Hank's real ma died of TB when Hank was only four. The thrill of getting away from home and not having to look after her little brothers and sisters quickly wore off for Ma 'cause she got pregnant right away. She would have had a few more to look after too if something hadn't happened so she couldn't have another baby after me. Yep, Ma didn't have much of a childhood but that wasn't rare in those days.

Pa and I had settled in to the extra work by the time we heard the news. Ma had made a pie, in the middle of the week, so I knew something was up. After we washed up and sat down, I saw the letter sitting on Pa's plate. It hadn't been opened yet and we all sat there staring at it. It was covered in post marks because it had been sent from Spain but had been re-addressed from England to here.

Pa finally picked opened the letter, with some difficulty because his knarled fingers shook so much, while Ma wept quietly. Pa's hands became rock steady for a moment, then his fingers started trembling again and the letter dropped from his hands He got up and walked away from the table to stand in front of the sink, staring out the window somewhere beyond the barn. Ma sobbed.

I picked up the letter and read it out loud so Ma could hear. It was from a friend of Hank's, a fellow adventurer. He was sorry he hadn't written sooner but he had been wounded and only recently got out of the hospital. He went on to say how bravely Hank had died at the hands of the fascists, the detail in which he described their exploits showing what close comrades they had been. He talked about how often Hank spoke about us and how much he had wanted to go back home. I knew that last part was written for my parents benefit. Hank would never have come back to the farm except maybe to visit, and then he wouldn't have stayed long, but it was nice for his friend to say he wanted to. He must have been a decent fellow.

Pa came back to the table after I finished reading the letter and started dishing out his supper. Ma and I followed suit. It was a quiet dinner. Pa didn't even compliment Ma or thank her for the pie. We all went to bed early.
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After that, Pa steadily lost steam. I had to work harder to make up for him slowing down but the worst part was that Pa didn't seem to care about farming anymore. He gave up on things easily and his thinking suffered. I began making decisions about the farm when he put things off too long. That's when I found out that I really was a farmer, not an adventurer like Hank. I enjoyed it when I got to say how things should get done.

Ma was quite worried when Pa couldn't brush off the depression that had fallen over him. Pies and special cookies couldn't break him out of it, nor could I work hard enough to dispel his conviction that the farm was done for. He was convinced I was going to follow in Hank's footsteps no matter how much I told him I wouldn't.

Then we got the news about the new war in Europe. Hitler had invaded Poland and Britain and France had declared war on Germany. So had Canada, and we didn't live far from the border. Pa was sure Hank had gone to Canada on his way to join the fight against the fascists. Now there were more fascists to fight and this time there was a lot more excitement because Germany was involved. Pa was more animated that day, mumbling 'I knew it' to himself all day long which interfered with how much we got done. Nevertheless, Pa just refused to leave the field until it was too dark to see.

It was late when we got back to the house for supper which was kind of dried out. I was shit tired. After washing up, I ate and went outside to the check on the animals. On the way back to the house, I heard Pa ranting about Hank leaving.

"I told you, din't I?"

I couldn't hear Ma's response, if there was one. Pa railed on, "He would have stayed if'n you tried."

Ma said something but I couldn't make out what it was.

"We got no choice. If Donny goes, where we gonna be? I ain't no spring chicken no more and my back's gittin worse. We gots to keep him here, no matter what."

Almost to the door, I slowed my pace and started to whistle. When I opened the screen door, Ma and Pa weren't talking anymore. It was another quiet dinner.

"I think I'm going to hit the sack right away. I'm dog tired," I said.

"Don't you want some puddin?" Ma asked.

"No thanks, Ma. I'm real tired."

"That was a good day's work today, son," Pa said. "Tomorrow, we shouldn't have to work so hard."

"That's ok, Pa. I don't mind," hoping to reassure him that I wasn't going to leave. I walked up the stairs but paused at the top to listen to see if he believed me this time.

"He wants to go," Pa said. "I can see it in his eyes."

"He's young, Harv, but he's not a dreamer like Hank. He'll stay and help."

"We don't know for sure. Maybe Hank woulda stayed if'n..."

"We don't know that and I don't want to hear about it no more," Ma angrily cut him off.

"Well, the way he was..."

"Lord a'mighty, watch your tongue, Harvey Thompson."

"I'm jest sayin, if'n you had..."

"That's enough."

"Well, I guess it ain't like he was your own flesh and blood. Where I growed up..."

"I said, that's enough! We're done talking about that."

I was stunned. I had never heard Ma so agitated, especially when talking to Pa. He was always the boss in the house and sometimes got grumpy but he usually treated Ma pretty good and she knew how to get him out of his grumpy moods pretty quick anyway. This was a switch in roles and, clearly, Pa wasn't as good at lightening things up.

What was going on? It sounded like Pa was blaming Ma for Hank leaving but she had nothing to do with it, it was all Hank's doing. Couldn't he see that? Sure, Hank wasn't her flesh and blood but she always treated him like he was even though she wasn't near old enough to be Hank's real ma. Hell, I was barely old enough, Ma being so young and all when she married Pa. Hank was just a dreamer, a born adventurer. I went up to bed, still troubled about what I'd heard.
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I didn't sleep well that night and morning came early. Ma was moody at breakfast which was odd for her. She was usually at her brightest at the start of the day. On the other hand, Pa was quite chipper. Even in the good old days, he was typically downbeat in the morning and didn't cheer up until we got more work done that he had thought we would. Things were changing and I wasn't sure I liked it.

We got all the way out to the back quarter before we found out we didn't have enough barbed wire to fix the fences. I had been sure there was an extra roll in the pickup, our trusty Cornbinder, but seeing was believing. Pa insisted on staying to work on the fence alone with the half roll we had while I went back to get another one despite the fact that I could fix half again as much fence as he could in the same time.

"I can handle this," he said, "and I like doin it. You go back, and have an early lunch at the house."

So I drove back to the house but parked on the far side of the barn to load the wire and a couple of other tools I noticed we were missing. It was too early for lunch and I hadn't worked up an appetite but I headed for the house anyway. As I neared the house, I could hear Ma singing. Figuring on surprising her, I snuck up to side of the house and peered through the side window instead of the one by the sink. What I saw shocked me.

Ma was standing in the tub we used for bathing, soaping her hair. My God. Her arms were lifted up to massage her scalp, causing her bare breasts to jiggle about on her chest. Big nipples stuck out from her tits which, though not big like I'd seen in some dirty pictures, were way bigger than I would have thought. Ma always wore long, drab dresses over top of thick white underdresses and socks. The only skin that ever showed was on her head, neck, and hands and here she was buck naked.

I remembered to breathe.

Her wet skin glistened and seemed littered shiny spots yet flickered with shadows. She stooped down to fill a small pitcher with water, tipped her head back, and doused her hair. The water spilled over her head and shoulders and dripped back into the tub but lots spilled over her face and ran down her chest and breasts, cascading off her nipples. Oh my God. My hand found my cock, which I had learned to enjoy over the last few years, and massaged it into hardness as I watched Ma spill several more containers onto her beautiful hair and gorgeous body. I had never seen anything so magnificent.

Ma squeezed the water out of her hair, working her way from the scalp down to the tips. I prepared to duck, not knowing which direction she might step out of the tub but was pleased to see her stoop down, tits dangling, while her hand searched for something in the tub. She came up with a bar of soap, started sliding it up and down her left arm, and began singing again.

After her left arm was done, Ma lifted it high to do her armpit. That was the best part because her tit stretched up and thrust its nipple way out. After doing the same for the other arm, Ma switched the soap back to her right hand and soaped her neck, shoulders and tummy. I was in awe watching her lather up and didn't even notice she had skipped her breasts until her hand began soaping her tits in a delicate, caressing manner.

To my enormous pleasure, Ma spent a lot more time soaping her tits. As she worked, her nipples grew even longer than their already noticeable length and her singing dropped to a murmur. I itched to touch them and wondered what they felt like—incredible, I imagined. Ma twisted her upper body to apply soap to the right half of her behind, an action that thrust the other side closer to me. I had never thought about a woman's bum before but that instant changed me forever. I couldn't believe the sudden strong urge that swelled up inside me to run into the kitchen and press my cock between those mysterious orbs.

Ma transferred the soap and lathered up the left side of her butt. Thankfully, she was looking down or she might have seen my head in the window. I pulled to the side a bit but not so much I couldn't keep watching. Ma twisted back to face frontwards and began soaping her legs, starting at her thighs and working down each leg in turn. Bent over, her bum looked even more fantastic. When she was done, she sat down in the tub. The singing, which had dwindled off considerably, started up again.

I watched for a while longer but Ma didn't stand up again so I carefully backed away from the house and about twenty feet away turned and walked briskly to the other side of the barn. I rolled the Cornbinder about fifty feet down the hill before starting it and drove back to meet Pa.

"What did your Ma make you for lunch," he asked as soon as I got out of the truck. "Did she give you a little something extra for me?"

I shook my head. "I didn't stop for lunch, Pa. Plumb forgot all about it," I said.

Pa was dumbfounded. "Forgot about it? Well, I done ate half of yours," he cried.

"That's ok, Pa. I ain't that hungry. I haven't done any work yet today anyway."

Pa tossed me the sandwich that was left. "Forgot to eat," he shook his head. "What on earth can make a growin' boy ferget to eat." He sauntered away and started pulling on a strand of wire with the wire-puller. "So what took you so long, then?"

"Nothing. I had some trouble with the truck is all," I replied.

"That damned Cornbinder. I shoulda got a Ford."

I missed the staple three times that afternoon, smashing up the thumb and finger on my left hand pretty good. I was having a hard time with the way I had spied on Ma, and then again, I couldn't stop running the little movie of her that was burned into my brainpan.

"Where's yor mind at, boy?" Pa asked each time.

All I could do was shrug and smile inside.
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That night back at the house, Pa and I were sitting at the table and Ma was still putting food from the pots into bowls.

"The boy plumb forgot to come in for lunch, can you believe that?"

"What?" Ma looked at Pa, glanced at me, then eyed Pa intently. "What did you say?"

Pa drained his glass and wiped the milk from his lips.

"I said, I sent the boy back to get some wire and he plumb forgot to come in for lunch. Never would have believed it," Pa shook his head and refilled his glass.

Ma turned back to filling the bowls. "This afternoon?" she asked.

"Nope, this morning. We gots all the way out there without 'nuff wire so's I sent him back to git some more right away."

Ma paused, then started dipping the spoon more vigorously into the pot.

"What on earth did you do that for? What a waste of gas. Why didn't you have enough wire? There's always some in the truck."

That was quite a mouthful for Ma but she seemed quite agitated and I knew why. I felt blood rushing to my face and kept my eyes on the table.

"Usually is. I guess we just forgot, is all," Pa answered. "Anyhoo, the boy had trouble with the truck, so he hurried back," Pa said.

"Trouble with the truck?" Ma looked concerned but I knew she was worried about more than the truck.

"Uh, yeah," I piped up. "The battery went dead so I got the spare from the barn and took it back right away?"

Ma jabbed the spoon into the pot.

"So, you didn't even come up to the house?" she asked, then added, "to say hi to your Ma?"

"No," I replied. "Sorry Ma. I thought I should get back to Pa right away."

Ma looked relieved and I imagined the pot was too.

"That's ok. I guess I can wait until supper to see my son."

My face was getting redder so I tried to change the subject. I turned to Pa and said, "I think we should plow that field in the southwest corner tomorrow."

"So soon?" Dad asked.

"Yeah, I think it's ready."

"Well, I don't know," Pa mused, "but you seem to have a knack for farming, so, maybe so, maybe so."

Ma brought two bowls to the table and returned a few seconds later with two more. Pa said grace after that and we ate. Ma seemed edgy rather than quiet like she'd been the past few weeks but Pa was chipper. I was happy to let him ramble on about the vagaries of farming, then how he thought I just might be right about plowing that field, and what a natural born farmer he had raised.
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Two days later, Pa forgot the wire puller and sent me back to get it after lunch. I ran so Ma wouldn't be angry about us wasting gas. I was out of breath for more than running when I finally arrive at the barn and the house beyond it. Laundry fluttered in the light breeze but Ma wasn't anywhere in sight.

I entered the barn and walked through it to the big door nearest the house. The wire puller was leaning against the wall near the door and I wondered why Pa had taken it out of the truck. I picked it up and turned around to return to the truck. I stopped dead in my tracks.

That little movie started playing in my head again. I turned around and stepped toward the barn door, the one nearest the house. Again I stopped and shook my head. I turned back to the truck, took two steps and halted. The wire-cutter fell to the ground. My pants were already tenting as I peeked through the door to survey the yard. The coast was clear.

I hurried up to the house, bending over as I approached the side window and probably looking as suspicious as all get out. Holding my breath, I popped up and looked through the window. The kitchen was empty! No Ma and no tub. My chest deflated. Damn! I had nearly killed myself running all the way from the back quarter. Damn it!

Singing. Ma burst through the back door into the kitchen, carrying a bouquet of flowers which she carried over to the sink. Christ almighty, I had almost been caught. Ma had been outside while I was peeking through the window at the side of the house. I started to pull away but stopped. Ma wasn't wearing a dress. She was only wearing the white undergarment she wore underneath except in summertime.

Wow, it hung from straps slung over Ma's shoulders and didn't quite reach her knees, showing bare legs from there down. My cock straightened and the tip slid through the gap in my undies to poke into the rough wool of my pants. As Ma snipped the stems off the flowers and dropped them into a vase on the counter beside the sink, her underdress shook. Something was wiggling under the white material covering her behind—her bum! My hand closed over my cock and squeezed it through the pants. Despite the rough material, it felt good, real good.

While I stared, I rubbed myself as Ma prepared each flower, more than a dozen of them. It was unbelievable how tantalizing the jiggling under that white underdress was. I couldn't take my eyes off it. Eventually, Ma finished the flowers and took the vase over to the table, set it in the middle, and started arranging them. She moved them this way and that, and paused each time to look at them, though they were all yellow daffodils. After a longish appraisal, she leaned way forward to move some of the back ones them around.

That's when I saw something else. When Ma leaned forward, her breasts dropped against the loose underdress, pushing the front out and making their presence well known. I had seen them in their naked glory only two days earlier but that simply made seeing them covered but loose all the more exciting. I opened my fly and fished my cock out. God forgive me, I muttered to myself as I pulled on my prick.

Ma abruptly turned around and, thankfully, walked directly to the sink without looking my way. Returning to the table, she sprinkled something around the base of the vase. I couldn't see what it was and I didn't care because she had to bend way over to do it, leaning down so far her face almost touched the table. That made Ma's ass press hard against the white underdress and, like her tits, her buns couldn't have had anything else covering them, not when the material presented them in such detail. I spewed my sperm against the side of the house.​